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this is me and Rene.  my wolf dog Sky.  Winter Sky at Twilight, to be exact.  it is taken when i was living in the airstream trailer.  at least 17 years ago.  so, somewhere around there, give or take.

if you read the last post, there was a comment from Rene.  we haven't been in contact for these 17 give or take years.  this photograph was taken during the last time i thought i could COUNT on

magic

then things happened.  and i turned my back on what i believed to be

magic

now, as in today, i cannot tell you what i believe about magic.  some time ago i stopped trying to confine those thoughts into any Form and just let the days be their own and try to place myself in them in a good and honorable way.

and here, today, is Rene.

and i still don't choose to define my sense of    magic   .  there have been too many surprises for that.  but here she appeared.  she has been reading windthread "all along".  i         spoke   with her.  voice to voice.  she will come here and we will talk about the Diaries cloth.  she remembers a lot of me that i don't and sees it there.    what to think?   but, it IS the month of the Wolf Moon.  and there will be more about this, because it is about Rings and Circles and how life carrys us along,  bringing us to intersections to make of what we will.

 

 

 

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23 responses to “life and magic”

  1. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    It is so touching to see you two, 2 good friends sitting side by side. In person is always best.

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    i don’t know. , in person. but what i love about this is that
    she knew me how i “was”. she remembers more than i do.
    and what i also love is that life brings what can be Of Use to us.
    always, i think. and maybe that’s the Magic?
    she said, her husband has been saying…call her. write to her.
    but she didn’t. she just kept reading the blog.
    so…isn’t it interesting, this blogging thing?

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  3. sandra Avatar
    sandra

    sometimes old friends re-appear in our lives. Last few days old friends made friends with me on facebook…perhaps it’s old friends
    moon. I hope you’ll have a nice time with Rene.

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  4. Jeannie Avatar
    Jeannie

    Perhaps it is meant to be, Renee, you, a wolf moon month, and Magic Diaries. I will be thinking of you all and wishing the magic to continue. xo

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  5. KaiteM. Avatar
    KaiteM.

    maybe Magic is reading your blog too grace, and will comment soon? don’t give up on magic just yet.

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  6. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Good morning Grace–it seems to me that magic is the every day miracle of being. The appearances seem magical–we are asleep, then we open our eyes and everything just appears–that’s magic—we close our eyes and it’s gone–but not gone. It seems to me we are, and contain, all we ever were and all we ever knew. No two (animal beings) experience anything the same, though there are similarities and commonalities. My brother and I, for example, do not recall the details (feelings and facts) of the same incident in the same way. I conducted an experiment with a friend once: we walked together down several blocks in the City noting (remembering) what we noticed (saw, smelled, felt). When we recounted our experience to one another, the differences in our individual perceptions were illuminating. So we talked about that for the rest of the evening. When someone from another historical moment of my life appears in the current moment it is an opportunity to reclaim (remember) that piece of my life from my current perspective, and an opportunity to gain insight into their perspective on themselves. The way I approach it is without expectation, open to discovery. In some of the encounters, i discovered that there were no coordinates still relevant, while in some I discovered a continuing relevance.

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  7. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    HA! I love what Kait says…if I had the time I might have set up another google profile with the name
    “magic” to leave a comment.
    I’d tell you I’ve been watching and listening the whole time, too, and waiting for my invitation for tea. Not that I wasn’t invited, or invoked often or practiced with revelry, but I would tell you it was high time to make me your best friend and to dance with me under the wolf moon and every moon from now until eternity.

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  8. Peggy Avatar
    Peggy

    Valerianna — Well, I think you still could do it and visit around here and there! 😉
    What would you have thought, Grace? Although it seems magic has already sent you a message.

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  9. Rene' Avatar
    Rene’

    Ah. . .so no more “lurking.” How lovely.
    I have to say that I too, have given up on much magic – on the belief in it, maybe – since this photo was taken – the very first time I came to New Mexico and sat here with my sister (actually almost 20 years ago now, I think!). The last time I had seen you, grace, I had long hair, almost past my shoulders – maybe 5 years later. I had grown it so the New Mexico wind could play in it.)
    I have found myself saying that magic fades from our lives. . . But I don’t think I truly believe that. I think that we stop noticing, and sometimes we stop welcoming.
    Magic is a type of grace (no pun intended) and it occurs in so many mundane ways that we get too busy or too heavy or too sad to see. It also takes cultivation – and yes, risk. Risk. . .
    But it is here. If I am honest – I must admit that.
    I don’t need to define it. And I cannot predict when or how it will show up – but it is here, and yesterday is proof – in my world.

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  10. velma Avatar
    velma

    have to say that this is way cool, grace! rene’, too.

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  11. Cheryl Razmus Avatar
    Cheryl Razmus

    What a magical conversation, since I do not know the backstory and it seems like something amazing has opened a door in your lives and let you through to some seemingly lost place. I hope this meeting brings joy, peace or whatever you need it to. Sometimes we long for the people who knew us when we were in another life, hoping to reconstitute that life that doesn’t exist anymore. It is magic when you can find the connection in where you are now.

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    interesting, a Wolf moon being an old friends moon….

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    we will see. but the timing, in keeping to thoughts i’ve
    been “entertaining”, is perfect.

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    oh, smile………..
    no…i never “gave up”, just became more aware of
    the part i thought i was playing in it all.

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    i LOVE the words
    relevant
    coordinantes
    LOVE
    and all your comment…LOVE the truth of it

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    someone should…you know????
    they could say all kinds of things in an unselfconscious
    way…

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    i like your question a LOT and am still thinking…
    what WOULD i have thought????

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    “magic fades”…maybe.
    but i am thinking about all this…
    i think, maybe, still thinking, so….
    but maybe it is us that needs to quiet in terms of it all?
    we set out so full of ourselves, which is really quite
    wonderful, really,
    but then we truly begin learning and for me, begin to
    understand that there are so many “players” and finally,
    to understand that the Play is not about ME…but a much
    larger, more inclusive thing
    i love all this…..

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  19. grace Avatar
    grace

    it IS just SO WAY cool

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  20. grace Avatar
    grace

    Cheryl…this is a great comment…
    it puts words to part of what it all is…
    “reconstitute that life (self) that doesn’t exist anymore”
    this is what interests me…aside from just being so
    glad to see Rene….
    but it’s that thing about looking back and being unsure
    who you were, what Was i DOING?, and finding it hard to
    get a picture of it from within your own sense of it, let
    alone get a picture of who it is you may be NOW?
    it’s those words that Jude used on her side bar…
    Weaving selves Together i look for the selves i have
    been, am….and what of them do i want to weave? and what
    can i let go of? but it’s a good thing to get as good
    a picture of it all before you choose the threads….
    thank you A LOT for your comment. i will come back to it
    in the morning and think some more.

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  21. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    “Intersections,” I do like them…meeting places, places where we make a choice. What a wonderful choice unfolded here…

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  22. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    Yes Michelle Yes!!!

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  23. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    I love Rene’s comment. Grace to be able to look back with someone who was there is a real gift. Did I say that already? But it is so. Part of the sadness and part of what I had to process was when my ex died and there was no one left (whom I talk to currently) that knew me, really knew me for those 17 years. It’s nice to have those dear, oldtime friends 🙂

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