so…day 61…was it only yesterday?, yes. as i came in from the Goats to post, lo and behold, Nothing on the Magic Screen and an odd little ticking sound. A reason why it's good that things go wrong now and then….i felt no panic at all. that was evidently expended a couple weeks ago when the whole thing died. so…staring and thinking, i determined it was the Monitor.
but….the evening and then this morning until i went into town at around 11 a for a new one, this time passing, almost felt like an altered state. almost like some kind of Time Lapse of a sort…like Lapsing back to the years before the blog, even before the computer. i was flooded with memories from those times, how it was. how I was. and this was probably enhanced by the fact that it was the first night of leaving the door open all night…of Night coming Inside the house, and Morning slowly trading places with Night. So many sounds. So many sensations of Life and Movement out there. i stayed up late sitting on the back porch and got up in the night and went out. Woke early this morning, listened. watched SO much. I wrote two letters. and i STARED at this.
maybe what, 6 wilted Iris blooms? hot tap water and a piece of muslin. O eeeeeeeee, look. Meera……
and then…looking at the Altar Cloth of the Singular day, i turned and saw the orange scrap on the table…the Deb Lacativa scrap…. How perfect. and how those scraps seem to crawl out of their hidden places in the two scrap baskets and almost sit there, waiting to be noticed. so…ok. and THEN,
i looked over to see a piece again, Deb Lacativa, of all these like little moons, but most not round, but many on a piece …as if she'd been experimenting with discharge?? and thought….What If one could be a face….and like i do, when i want to understand a facial expression or position of the head, i felt my own face with my fingers…asking self what my face was like last night as i was outside, as i was dreaming???? then just got the pen. and i thought this might be IT, but no.
so. Here we are. i wish i could think of a way to say how HAPPY i feel in this moment……
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