today, again, no phone and no internet. the thing with the phone is a problem because of being the reasonable facsimile for Alz B. her son is gone again. there is the cell, but i don't always remember about it. land line is reliable. and NOT so much in these last days.
so, it began like that.
and then, i went out to change the water for the bucks and there was Lily. dead. her brother Ramone died what, a month or so ago? i was not expecting this. the mother Tulip is so close to death that i often stand over her and see if she's breathing. she is totally deaf and progressively demented. so it was startling to see Lily, there in the weeds, all dead.
i dug her grave with this broken shovel because i couldn't find the good shovel ANYWHERE. i must have made …..maybe 10 circumambulations around, looking. looking. it HAS to be here somewhere. but i never found it. so, this broken one that i keep by the big gate.
AND NO NEED FOR CONDOLENCES. it was good and ok, even if surprising. i DID love Lily, of that family of chihuahua/terriers. but she died by "her own paw" so to speak. all of them, and maybe because of their mother, had the habit of eating things not fit to eat. even when there was dog food in the bowl. i'm amazed they lasted as long as they did….13 years????? give or take.
so…Lily.
and while looking for the good shovel, i saw September everywhere.
the eggplant. tomatoes are similar and i couldn't bear to photograph them
a certain kind of mess. a September mess. and i'm thinking, maybe i will just spend the last days of this month dealing with it. Just This. ???? maybe i'll take a pic of the before and the after.
it will be boring. but it will Witness it. This Season. This hard season for me.
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