well…it's the 7th day. They said it takes 7 days for the whole of the Dog to show up. OK. we have it, then. The whole of the dog. ok.
Really, this is not what i would wish to be writing here. I would wish to be writing something else. Something "interesting" to me, something Beauty Full to me. Something else.
But here we have it. Yesterday was Good. Really Really Good. only one comotion in the evening, but otherwise Good. I think it was because early in the morning, very early, she suddenly decided to try the dog door and Did. There was a SOUND and it was very FAST and when my head swiveled, all i saw was the last part of her going through the door. It is VERY SMALL, for her, the dog door. But she somehow wrenched herself through. And i think, am pretty sure, that this is the reason the day went so well. That she hurt herself a little, or some, doing that and so she was slowed, subdued. But…it gave a Glimpse of how it might be at some point with her, when she is just the dog here…not the center of a swirling vortex. You take it as you can, right? so ok.
And Chinche. The Innocent. Not to think she is not a part of all that 's going on here.
fuzzy pic cause of fuzzy doings. Tay is innocently herself resting in her Breathing Star Crate, with her 14 ft lead attached…the Red umbilical you see draped along the floor, to assist in easier correction…so….Tay, peacefully in her crate and Chinche…for Whatever Reason of her own
goes to lay just outside the Crate door. This is NEVER anywhere she would usually lay. This is an invitation to Tay to come….sniff, do whatever. A more than a little of a set up.
so Tay and i are out of the pic, Tay being reprimanded for being too energetic. Me thinking oh Jeez, here we go again. and Here we went.
I called the dog trainer, Jan. Explained what my concerns are. What was happening. and what we got to is that it's going to take 30 days of constant constant consistensy. Tay on the 14 ft. lead. Being corrected everytime she goes in the direction of Chinche. Even if Chinche sets it up. CONSTANT CONSISTENCY. (sy?) anyway, that. It will take that. and there should be good results. There's more. but i just don't have the wherewith all to even Think it, let along write it here. I am done in. At the end of each of these days, i have sat out with the Goats…talking, singing, brushing, walking, telling them telling them what i am trying to do. They listen. They watch her through their gate. They are coming to know her. and writing that, i
soften.
we are Trying so HARD to know each other. it's not easy and i lose my cool too many times. I am Old for this. But i see in this dog Tay a good member of this odd Diorama here. She will carry us on well. But for now, it's HARD. and in a certain way, i don't want to Have to do it. But if i want her, want what she will Offer in the Long Run, i need to. She's up to it. She's smart. and She's got what it takes. I need to have what it takes. In the very Early Morning hours when i would have meditated, i find self sitting here in front of this screen watching Cesar Millan, the Dog Whisperer. Watching Watching Watching. Thinking, Thinking, Thinking. So.
Is it worth 30 days? 30 days. 3o days. 30 days. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
small changes here
and in the middle of the "driveway"…the space where the truck comes in and out with Goat feed, in the very middle, with NO WATER, NONE….this. a little blue wild aster. How Amazing is this?
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