windthread

I read it.  sometimes only a paragraph.  Sometimes a few paragraphs at a time.    I do this because he,  a scientist,  a winner of the Nobel Prize,  a physicist,  He and i have the same question.  

"Our question is a most natural one, in the context of spiritual cosmology.  If an energetic and powerful Creator made the world, it could be that what moved Him–or  Her,  or Them,  or It  — to create was precisely an impulse to make something beautiful."

i needed some string to tie up a ball of cloth for the oak gall pot.  All my string is over and down the road at the Storage Place.

i thought to look in that shallow basket that accidentally was brought here with those few baskets of cloth,  the shallow basket that has needles and old reading glasses  and i thought just maybe there might be a thick thread so i got to it and looked and

yes,  there was just  a short,  but long enough piece

but also,  folded carefully in the bottom was what?,  i pulled it out and unfolded and oh,   eeeee.   From i guess 7 years ago?  or so?  From close to the beginning of Jude's workshops,  Jude Hill,  Spirit Cloth,  from the beginning for me,   8 years?  And this was something i wanted to make for Wendy Golden Levitt,  for her to wear when she was with her children,  I had just come to know her too,  come to know her children and i wanted to make her this "prayer shawl"  but i didn't know how to go from here and as i looked at it today i realized how much i have learned from Jude,  how much confidence i have now in What Ifing,  in Just Going and i am so so energized to continue with it.

Wendy looks here.  So…Wendy,  just forget what you are seeing.  

and i almost forgot,  how interesting….

i did what i have been afraid to do.   This Hill is steep.  I have old vehicles.   I have been walking up groceries,  ice for the refrigerater,  dog food etc   when alyssia isn't coming.  when she is,  i unload it at the bottom of the Hill,  at the gate,  and she loads into her SUV.  If she is not coming,  i walk it up.  Using Emrie's stroller.  It would be a good UTube movie.  Old woman with wine cantalope and dog food going UP HILL in stroller.   The Honda car has some kind of rear wheel issue.  it's a 1986.  I need it to last as long as i do.  Am not pushing it.  Sunny,  the Toyota truck,  1983 however has no issues.  But i have been afraid.   You have to Just Go and not stop.  Go.  I have been afraid.  have chosen to walk.  or depend on Alyssia.  It's been put off.  How i am.  But today was the day.  OK.   and we did it,  Sunny and i and it was really no big deal.   Done.  And now will be just how it is.  And i look at this.  How i am with fear.  That it's fear until i face it and then,  it's no longer fear.  Pretty easy.