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remember the mood rings?  it would have begun flickering the other day when i remembered that Rune out of nowhere.  Adversity.    the simple configuration of pine needles triggering it,  the memory.   Down at B.  Took a while but a very slight reference completly out of context set things in motion.  I woke off and on all night,  getting up,  going Out with the Goats who sleep just outside the door now,  going Out and standing,  indulging in the mood about maybe ending up in this travel trailer through yet another Rain season.  I might.  Actually,  i think the odds are good that i might.  Bummer,  if so.  So yesterday eve, the goodbyes were vague and this morning when Jenny arrived,  the greeting vague.  Alyssia was way late so Jenny and i worked in silence…she at cutting and loading poison oak vines into the truck,  me at dragging the 3 articles of heavy wooden yard furniture from New Mex.  Julian came to ask if i was feeling lonely…no and him  swatting a fly carefully to just knock it out and then flinging it in to the Spider who lives in the morning window.  We watched in silence as she wrapped it and hauled it up out of sight and he said,  OK and went off.  And i indulged the Mood.   But got restless from that indulgence but still wanting the Distance,  did some on this and it quieted things.  Adversity.  An interesting construct.  

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  1. jaime Avatar
    jaime

    When does rain season start and what is the reason for your house not being on the foundation that was started so long ago? I don’t know some of the back stories so please do not take offense at the direct questions. Just tell me MYOB. Is there time before rain to bring a house in? What can I do to help?
    I think it’s cool that the goats are sleeping by the door. Keeping the herd together.

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  2. Mo Crow Avatar

    I love that glass vase, so good to see your field study & x fingers you will have a roof and some walls for winter!

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  3. Michelle Slater Avatar

    Discontented with good reason and still keeping on keeping on. Moods are like clouds. The wise ones say ‘be the sky’

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  4. jude Avatar

    same here, but different.

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  5. joanne Avatar
    joanne

    The coming Winter of our Discontent. We all feel it.

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  6. Patty Avatar

    What can be done to make the trailer more comfortable in winter/rain?
    A heater, more lights, storage, awning thing over the door, inside plants?
    I’d say you’re
    in a good position to ask for improvements. Bend, don’t break, doesn’t
    mean you just sit there with no compensation. MYOB if you want.

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  7. jaime Avatar
    jaime

    The winter of our discount tent. Ha.

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    Oh Ha good one Jaime! a big old army surplus tent made a good temporary bedroom which became the kitchen and then a good place for storage back in the early 80’s when I was living with a carpenter & helping with building a hand made house on communal land, we set the tent up on stumps with a wooden floor as we lived in the subtrpoics and mud was a huge issue!

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  9. Liz A Avatar

    My fingers itch to suggest, to fix … but my ideas are surely nothing that you haven’t already considered
    And so this instead …
    May you be safe
    May you be happy
    May you be healthy
    May you live with ease

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    Some starts in late October. Just gentle and then it goes from there. January is the intense month.
    Rain.
    I look forward, really, to watching it happen. There will be utter transformation. When i arrived here last year in mid December it was uhhhhh, it was uhh, shocking, in it’s way. Almost everyday, some rain. Coming from desert it felt
    so WET. People here just continue their days through it. Like they did in Oregon when i lived there. Put on a hat. There is no snow. There is no freeze. Rain.
    What is the Reason? no single one, but simply Time. and Need. When the foundation was set, there was intention to just go forward. And then things changed course, back to fencing. FENCING. always somehow Fencing. It’s slow laborious work. Repairing the Doe Forest fence and then the decision to Free the Goats which meant shoring up outer Fence, Buck Fences, the fencing down at A to keep the Wall Garden safe. To keep the perimeter safe.
    Daughter works long weekday hours and is here dawn till dusk on weekends. As i’ve said, she and Alyssia are the muscle to the work. Difficult for me to acknowledge, but true. The underlying vibe being the Fires this year. That decision to let the Goats go to reduce the amount of fuel hazzard. There were two fires that were deemed the worst ever. One to the north, one to the south. This will continue.
    The plan has returned to Plan A which is to BUILD the house. Plan B to bring one in was scrapped.
    and like it goes, next week my son, his woman, their daughter will arrive. Also my kids father, Jenny’s father, my son’s father. This visit will eat two weekends of work. As Kurt Vonnegut says, and so it goes. Halfway
    through Septeber.
    Thank you so much for asking what you could do…such good Heartedness to this, but there’s nothing. Things will go as they go.
    Am not sure why they are. In the known past they have slept close to the Bucks. Even in their own Forest, they slept the fence line closest to the Bucks. I don’t know
    what’s going on here.
    Love to you and i Never take offence. Love questions.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    crossed fingers, yes.
    isn’t it just the best little vase?????

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    i thought of this today…looking UP. Sky.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    when ready, but obstacles continue.

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    maybe it’s our Adversities. Maybe it’s our learnings.

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    No…no myob…stuff is all our businesses…it’s how
    we learn from one another.
    there’s a good heater. It’s warm enough. It doesn’t get
    really cold here…heat in the morning for a while to take off the edge. it’s an ok, or Fine place. Good WINDows, so it’s light. We will deal with the broken refrigerator one way or another. Right now, ice is working. in 100 degree days. Cooler will be a piece of cake.
    so it’s not the reality of it, it’s my reaction to that reality…space. that reaction needs to become a Response.

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    need to acquire this mindset

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    always, this is the stabilizer. Metta.
    and always, i think this. Day to day.
    and always, i AM this. All this. Ease is in my head.

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  19. Michelle Slater Avatar

    Hope you got a chance to just stare at clouds, or stars a while. You’ve got lots of activity headed your way. WOW. Oh, may the weather be kind and bring breezes to keep everyone cool headed.

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  20. Michelle Slater Avatar

    One more maybe: carve out an hour every day to withdraw (if that’s possible) and try to make it the same hour (if possible).

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  21. grace Forrest Avatar

    this is when i give water, down at the Wall Garden. It sets things right…right meaning what is Goodness in it all. So this. but maybe too, a TimeSpace, separate. I’ll think about this.
    Love,

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