Every Thing is about Rain.   it's been days now and will continue.   The most rain in all my time here.  The rain that is NEEDED.   As  i've said before,  the day is according to the hourly forecast….the Goats needs,  Talkie,  Puppy and Tay.   Rain says when i can and can't.  Rain rules.    There…

  Yvette gave these words….."the power of the soft"   not loud or rough or demanding,  clamoring  the power of the soft.    that has propelled Life,  like the power of the mycelium that gives rise to its  fruit of mushrooms with their zillions of spores.   The moss,  Dawn,   the curl of the buck's lip…

back.    They fill that bench seat across the Everything Table.      To sit here as it becomes  DARK,   looking over at them,   i am grateful.  Being lost in thinking about consolation,  to console,  thinking about What is it?,  that wants consolation?   How is consoling different from fixing,  or working through.  the nuances of…

i'd taken the  Bags of cloth to that back room i think when trying to organize  before the Thanksgiving Visit.?   maybe it was before?,  but i don't know why?   They have been back there,   a part of that  disarray.   and there,  they  were incommunicado.  today,  CatherinE's   post on her blog    gemtactics.wordpress .   Consolation cloths. …

i am so dependent on this Earth.    when it's not Soaked with Rain,  Cold.   Soaked again.  More Cold.   when i can kneel. i didn't want to put anything here tonight.   I wanted to drink a glass of wine and go lay down.  And if it was too early to sleep,  then just lay there…

She dresses herSelf.   Often,  more conservative than this.  But it's always up to her.   Alyssia went off to her appointment and Emrie was preoccupied with something,  being unsure of something and it took a while,  but we talked.   About masks.  About staying distant OR about hugging.     I had asked Alyssia what the changes are…

i don't know what to say.   i can't find any words for how this makes me feel.

She begins by saying:  "The existential threats of climate change,  the COVID19 pandemic,  and the rising numbers of forcibly displaced people make visible a new reality of social,  political, and economic inequalities that is impossible to ignore.  As an increasing number of people are forced to move and adapt to unexpected life scenarios,  they have…

and then to begin again.  spending time    with each. Am spending time with Richard Davidson,   had read some before about his studies and now,   it comes to the forefront.  The brain's plasticity…that WellBeing is a skill  and his statement…"our brains are constantly being shaped by experience,  wittingly or unwittingly,  by forces around us.   We…

  so,  it's cold.    What do people do?,  when they are cold?    The rolodex in my head .   said:    where is it?,  the blanket robe?  and i looked.  put my hand down into that space in the bathroom cabinet,  feeling along down into it till i felt wool blanket and pulling it…