this morning….as Sun rose,   i became aware of someThing …..uhhhh….well….a once in a lifetime thing.   The word that came for this was Excruciatingly   _____. as luck would have it,   i switched over to the phone and  googled the word….excruciating …and was startled to see that it has only negative connotation.    That there is…

  August.    The hard month.   But….this year,  not in the ordinary hard way.    Maybe i didn't expect things to Stand to Reason??? because there  seems to be less reason to Stand To?    and/or   coming to some place where i just no longer have the same parameters?     Whatever…there is Release.   Today there…

so it DID happen.  They have seeded,   established   themSelves.    True to how i have known them my whole life.   Who could hope for more. i look up and in the far distance through the design of tree branches,  a MOON rises and it is blood red.   The Fires….Far away but burning my moon Red.…

from the glass jar of them up from Garden at B.    will use ones on left for shirt i found in that back room.  But looking through the jar….i had the urge to bury it somewhere,  deep enough to not burn if Fire comes here.   For Emrie someday….she might be interested?   Care about their…

found the other old brass safety pin.      Put in place.   from another time in my life.   But…remaining beauty FULL.    The skirt on the right…so gentle a flow of so gentle color…the waist band….stretched out,  flaccid.   i don't know how it could be fixed.   I would wear these in the Mornings…the waking…

  jenny will be coming.  Any time and i need to be ready.    But Stuff says….take that small Cloth out from behind and pin it to the Front……..LOOK Some things had merged simultaneously….things about         communication      about      connection     about more,  that i don't know and already,  tonight, …

in the last storage box,  back in the corner on the floor of that back room…… i had just loaded the boxes that had been on those two wall  shelving units  in the bedroom in New Mex.  Didn't look,  just put them in the U Haul.   it hasn't been opened since i've been here.   so…

i set Out from this Hill.   still….a big deal.    Had things i wanted.   Ginger root.   a  small shovel.   Cilantro Seed.   The mail with my ballot for the recall vote of Newsome.   Got all of it.    not being sure why,  i took a stack of National Geographics.   part of the divesting process for Evacs. …

these came yesterday. i'd ordered from this seed company in late winter and these were in their catalog.  included in the order and received word that they would arrive to my zone …9…at the appropriate time.     i'd had some Walking Onions in N Mex…Jim,  the jewelry maker who i convinced to makes gates for…