Cinderella  comes to the door twice a day.  IF the other doe Goats are off and away doing what they do,  she gets a bowl of sweetfeed and pellets.  If they are nearby,  she has to wait.  and come back.   It's a routine now.  and Talkie's routine too.  She comes with Cinderella for the…

to have kept going.  To have kept Wanting It,  even tho it wasn't happening.  There's more still to do,  and that feels good too.    today in the inbox this appeared.  Joanna Macy  November 2018 "This is a dark time, filled with suffering and uncertainty.  Like living cells in a larger body,  it is natural…

stitching branches and Leaves.  She is reaching up.  Asking.   Asking?,  for help,  help in strength,  in endurance,  in being able to find ways to Understand.   She asks help from what/who she knows to be Trustworthy,..Earth.  Asking for just so much.  But I look at the Cloth and something is so much missing.  I…

i have tweaked this pic a thousand ways and it won't come true…no where near,  True.  This Morning.  For just only SECONDS,  Sun rose a flaming orange/red…Brilliant and startling and so so Elegant.  And i looked,  transfixed,  and in just a  moment it was gone.  But i SAW it and seeing it, i thought….this is…

i think a lot about Simultaneous.  Simultaneous realities,  Simultaneous selves.   Because i want to understand the reality of Simultaneousness.  Because i believe it to be real.  It takes such a particular kind of Willingness for a particular kind of Openness.  It's hard, still,  for me to stay in that place. i just now took…

this morning,  an opportunity for maybe TEARS.  But still.  no,  no tears.   Instead,  i have pictures.  Words.   Picture tears,  Word tears.  that translate into the language of cloth    not particuarly anyThing,  but a way to Cry,  to look  longingly,  to beseech  

      i "feel like crying"  sometimes but i never cry.  I just don't  .    There is the feeling ,  rising up FULL,  my chest is full,  my eyes and nose kind of tingle,  don't know how to describe it,  but it is there,  but then,   there isn't tears.  I don't know…

Alyssia drops Julian off at his school here in Orovile in the morning.  It's 25 min from their present home in Chico.  She loads up Emrie in the car seat.  Him.  His back pack with bus pass which is required.   He gets dropped off down at the end of CareFree Way and Old Olive…

i have my sweatshirt ready.  My socks and leggings.  In case.  It's been overcast off and on today.  If the MOON is     O   …..   I don't want to take artificial light.  

in the North,  up from the Meadow,  in the far forest from B.    Very large and not "fallen into",  but Near one another,  touching.   you instinctively approach slowly and as quietly as you can,  then squat.  a little distance away.  There is the Felt Sense that if you sit long enough and often…