windthread

the leaves began to deteriorate yesterday

early, before Jude had posted about             deciding                                                 i had spent some time deciding that "next time" i will plant ONLY SUNFLOWERS and i looked for all the seed packets that are tucked around and decided to just sprinkle them all over now.  maybe by spring they might find a fortuitous crevise and plant themselves.  or be eaten.  either way.

and i wasn't going to put this pic.  it seemed too hokey, but it was/is true.  this is what i found amidst the dust wads under Her bookshelves when i was cleaning….

so i went into town.    stopped to get the mail from our neighborhood  box unit by the "main" Polvadera road.  16 keyed boxes.  there was a letter in there from the United States Postal Service.  a questionaire.  and notification that there will be a meeting at Midway Elementary on the 5th of  October at 5 pm to address concerns re the closing of the Polvadera Post Office.

so, before i cleaned her bookcases thoroughly (her brother and sister are coming at the end of the week and she would like them to take any books they might want, they in their late 70's)  we read the letter from the United States Postal Service aloud and talked about it.  about Why.   it made totally NO sense to her so we ate chicken enchiladas and apple tart that i'd brought and i cleaned those afore mentioned book cases.  She is hoping that they will want the 1960's edition of Encyclopedia Britanica.  because as she says,  things are still relavent.

home.  and i worked outside.  pulling, cutting, axing, raking, dragging, wheelbarrowing,  feeling.  as Sun approached the rim i checked day 4 of the pots of Mexican Elderberry

the one that showed the most changes so far, interestingly enough, is the aluminum pot

the copper and cast iron are more so going.  the leaves have not begun to deteriorate at all.  less heat,  cool nights.   watching.

and while i was pulling, hauling, ….look             not too many of these, ever, but i love their presence.   milkweed.
 
 
 

off to town, have to work, but didn't want to lose the image 

i always seem to get to that moment.  when the beginning is complete and there is this…..still point.  what if nothing comes next?  what if i will never have an idea of what i'm supposed to do next?????  well, this time it didn't take long.  in the comment response to nance's question, that vision of the sunflower showed up and here is the beginning. 

more Deb Lacativa, the petals 
 

there seem to be, here in this beginning,  6    uhhhhh,   6 "rooms" of the whole.  i don't know what that means.

 
the bright flower, thanks to Vicky~cat in the batt for making me take a second look

 
an Arlee moon,  lower right horizontal scrap from Jude

 
scrap from Jude atop an Arlee

 
Lizard cloth, gift from Jude during Patchwork Beasts.        long panel from Deb Lacativa   with megamendung from Jude…………look at the very upper left, how Deb's cloth has arranged itself in rays, entering the megamendung!  (when did THAT happen??????)

 
5 SunMoons from Deb Lacativa

it's 8:19 pm here in New Mex.              go to live stream, Democracy Now.

no venturing out yet.  today i feel that for sure.  i want to work on the Diaries cloth.    a little while ago i was so intently focused i forgot to breathe and actually got dizzy for a minute.    i am beginning to understand something a little more.  i don't know what it is, but it is a strong felt~sense.  i need to stay with this cloth.  now, it's just basting down all the various pieces that i knew i wanted to be there.   they are like different "scenes", or places or something.  some more literal than others.  but getting them basted is just the very first step to what feels like it's going to be a    lot    more.  but it's just a feeling ~

am leaving all the outside edges loose so things can be mosaic'd in if that's what wants to happen.

jude is talking this morning about Fade and this sent a jolt of electricity through me……….THE RUG!….OH, THE RUG.      where have i BEEN in my mind??????????????  THE RUG. 

i put the rug out when, i don't even remember.  beginning of summer.  i usually put it out into the Albatros for the summer because two wool rugs in the house is HOT.  and i have, for the last two years put it in the Sun for a while, trying to fade the              RED.

this time, i did that but then forgot  it.  it's been a very different kind of year here for me.  so…..i ran out and EEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh………..oh……………….look.  in spanish, meera.             oh, eee.

well, this is enough.  i rolled it up and dragged it inside.  it is pounds heavier with all the sand from its outing.  vacuum vacuum vacuum.  more vacuum.  one of these days i'll take it to the rug place in Albuquerque and have it cleaned.   it's a beautiful rug,  is my focus of morning meditation in the winter, the design.

 
 
when i got it, a barter thing, it was                 r    e   d.       red is a color that is    strong.  i work with my feelings about red.  this red rug was very red.     but now, look.  Meera.  oh and oh.  a kind of coppery bronze.      ohhhhhhhhhh.

Fade.

i have to go to work today…actually, i'm late leaving already.  but for some reason, i want to put this here before i leave

this cloth is JUDE HILL upon a piece of really amazing silk i found at the thrift shop last week.  which is so perfect for it.                  for some reason,  this is very important today.  so here it is, so we can look at it.   i want it to be the first thing i see when i get back home.

there is an October Festival in town.  lots of music, food, Arts and Crafts.   a couple of times i took the gourds i drew on and painted.   there is a woman i know who takes her jewelry, and another who takes pottery.  i think i am going to take this

 
 needs finishing.  and maybe two more.   sit there with whichever her it is and see how people "receive" them.   you never know.