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How the Potential for Everything is EVERPRESENT subtitle: even with Hillary Clinton

this is the first time i have had the urge to write the post ahead of posting and re-view my words, edit, then post.  but i don't really have time in this life for that.  so…it  will fall out of my mind as it comes.

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not knowing anything

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a beetle peeks up through the slat

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and she suddenly looks up………and when i unload the pic i see one of the Lights at the fence

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but then a lizard appears

so…she is Just Going.  i brought her out for a ride on the Raft.

this morning i woke with the "information" given about how the potential for Everything is Ever Present.  Everything.  easy/hard      beautiful/not     toward Life/against    kind/not  and on and on.  i received Derrick Jensen's latest book a couple days ago and have been reading a few paragraphs at a time.  The Derrick Jensen Reader…Writings on Environmental Revolution.  it is not easy reading.  but i knew that.  have all his books.  but also, of anyone at all in my lifetime awareness, he is the one who Stands, Facing what he knows,  and is unflinching.    and then in that last post, All That.  and then in so far today, how All That has turned, just enough, Just Enough, to let the light shine some where there was uncertainty about so much.   So, today rises with resolve.  and i was over at Michelle's NYC and her post just almost had me on my knees with Love for everything.  and i have been watching the first election in Libya (and for sure, That has the potential for Anything) and whatever comes of it,  they chose to have this moment of one voice, one vote which is beautiful.  and then…..there is a pic of Hillary Clinton.  and of all things, i felt this swell of love for her.  her hair is pulled straight back all no nonsense because i assume she doesn't have time for anything and she has bags under her eyes.  and i have never really liked her at all for a bunch of reasons,  but here, today,  i think how she has changed as Secretary of State over her term, how she has i think, maybe become a Stateswoman?????  how she is telling Syria that the sands are running out of the hourglass…a poet even????  and i felt love, yes, love.  even for Hillary.  and, well, a lot more.  but this enough.  Just wanted to note the moment because it belongs somewhat to that 19 year old in that pic of a couple days ago and it belongs to Alz B and her son and to my daughter and her refugee goats .  Life feels very ummmm, uhhh, swiftly turning today.  i want to Mark that.  i have fed the goats and it's quiet for this time and i am going to see how i can Mark this on the Housecoat.  i will mark the date with a Pitt pen.

 

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37 responses to “How the Potential for Everything is EVERPRESENT subtitle: even with Hillary Clinton”

  1. ali Avatar
    ali

    I have come to believe that one of the best things we, as humans, can ever do for another, for each other, is to let people change. To see it, acknowledge it, accept it, maybe even to embrace it as the one and only constant there is: change. Beautiful, moving post, with lizard and light and beetle and Hillary, too. And you.

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  2. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Ali…it’s the truth. Change. that and just going.
    it sound silly, but i was just so taken by old Hill.
    and she, just like her husband, has changed. so this
    brings it back to what you have just said. just standing back, retracting any NEED of our own from anyone, any thing, and Just Go, in our own best way, and let things
    Change.
    am glad you are back.

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  3. saskia Avatar
    saskia

    that is such a nice thing to say Ali: let people change, or maybe it’s us the viewers who change the way we see/perceive the other, anyway, no matter, letting each and everyone be(come) who/what they are and this changes All the time.
    and I’m guessing Grace, you all of a sudden ‘saw’ Hillary, without preconceptions and therefore Love.
    I have these moments, where I feel the Connectedness of Everything and all is warm and full of Love and there is No Me, doesn’t happen a lot, but it happens….

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  4. ali Avatar
    ali

    it’s good to be back–even if I’m still going, really.

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Ali..i just was over at your blog….
    OHHHHHHHH and EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
    the figure in first pic
    the Epitomy of Just Going
    oh, happiness

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  6. Drucilla Pettibone Avatar
    Drucilla Pettibone

    this little bit of seeing the new world through her eyes is magic… lovely post

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  7. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Oh Grace–Grace of the Goats–Grace of the deep–Grace of a morning turning and an evening watch–You are the elemental of elementals, the rock in the desert, the swell of hearts that can still feel when the winds change. if I say I love you, I know you know what I mean.

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    your beautiful raft in the desert, namaste noble spirit woman
    and thank you for the introduction to Derrick Jensen…
    interesting article in The Onion “Beyond Hope”
    http://www.orionmagazine.org/index.php/articles/article/170/
    strong words … thought provoking… stirring…
    and yet that 4 lettered word keeps giving me strength to “just keep going” (as Jude so wisely puts it) against all the odds… to still tilt at all those wild windmills…
    to quote Emily Dickinson once again
    Hope is the thing with feathers
    That perches in the soul
    And sings the tune without the words
    And never stops at all…

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    well…maybe, about Hillary. but the preconceptions were
    based on what i had previously conceived, based on her
    previous way of moving in the world. but really, as i said, re her husband also, for whatever reason, they have
    learned that this planet is full of equal energies. that
    Everyone KNOWS in their heart of hearts that they would like the basic things…and that everyone is truly worthy
    to stand and face what They know???? or something, but as
    she has gone along, she is more thoughtfull, more ummm, aware of the SO MUCH that enters into Everything. i think, guess, that it has been found to be so complex, she has had to really educate herself about what it might be to NOT be an American, which is a stretch for polititions in this country who maneuver under the illusion that what we are here is the Best. it’s not. and i think Hill has
    seen something of that. But….WHO AM I?, grace in
    New Mexico…???…well, …..me. and maybe she has found
    that you can’t just go anywhere on the planet and bullshit.
    you have to
    talk
    and you have to listen.
    then you have to go get quiet and regard the Other.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    today she just stood. next time, it will all be different. and the next time, she will be moving so fast i won’t be able to get a pic.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Michelle…oh, i am really not anything of all that. just
    dorky me. here. Just Going.
    but yes, i know. i know that in the same way i know
    who you are some by what you GIVE us over with the
    Uncertainty Principles…so, yes. and ok. and…..

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Mo…i am not at all sure about Hope. but i AM. AM.
    totally sure about Just Going. and you never quit.
    so…maybe that’s some strange sister to Hope.

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  13. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    Oh I love that baby goat and that you took her to the raft…I need to get the new book…no, it is never easy reading. Strangely enough one of the passages from one of Jensen’s books that has stuck in my mind the most is when he writes about giving up hope, that we need to…if I am remembering that correctly?

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    hope is such a loaded word. i’m not sure exactly what
    you are referring to and i am reading along…will
    respond to this thought when i run into it in this book
    which is an anthology of his thinking…but
    hope is so akin to DENIAL. we hope and so we just
    pretend that everything is the same and can be the same.
    Which really, is not true. it’s a biological lie. an
    impossibility, really. so, if we want to Hope, then we
    also need to make ENORMOUS CHANGES to allow that hope to
    be realized.
    and being only in the beginning of this book, and so
    re- reading so much from Culture of Make Believe and Language Older Than Words included in this first part,
    a lot of what he speaks to is our overwhelming desire to
    NOT TALK ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS. the “unspeakable”.
    and i relate so strongly to that. and even though i
    believe that we are truly killing this planet, this does
    NOT mean i cannot learn to sew. this does not mean i cannot love and play with and teach my greatgrandson Julian when he comes in a while. it doesn’t mean i can’t learn to make cheese from goats i live with. letting go
    of denial doesn’t need to paralyze me. it does not
    negate beauty and love.

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  15. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    The problem with checking things out from the library is that when you want to go double check a passage…you can’t as easily. 🙂 I think he writes about hope at the end of Culture of Make Believe. That is so important, the continuing even while knowing in the bigger picture it may make little difference. Very important…

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  16. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Oh–yes, mustn’t forget ‘dorky’ just going along. Okayeeeeeee!

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  17. KaiteM. Avatar
    KaiteM.

    a tiny little being on the raft of discovery, so fragile but strong at the same time.

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  18. Penny B Avatar
    Penny B

    I’m trying to just go with the flow of life. Oh, and trying to be inquisitive that that little honey of a goat.

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  19. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    Lovely to see the little one for a ride on the raft… and the LIGHT! Glad you shared all this, its good to feel the overflowing of love, sounds like it took you by surprise!

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  20. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    perhaps the sister of Hope is the Courage to just keep going… even when all the lights go out and the only way out is to follow your heart… and the only thing your heart has left is a glimmer of light… of hope… these are the bittersweet days…

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  21. Drucilla Pettibone Avatar
    Drucilla Pettibone

    that’s why i always have pics of babies, they are slower and easier to photograph!

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  22. Drucilla Pettibone Avatar
    Drucilla Pettibone

    ok i’m going to have to check this guy out! thanks for the thought-provoking discussion and reading recs…

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  23. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Mo…this is full of things to look closely at…you
    give something really good with these words. Hope and
    Courage for Just Going as sisters…i love this and
    want to sit with it.
    a lot to me, is to Face Things and at the same time and
    in the same breath, HOLD FAST to what i love, what i
    deem to be uhhhh, ASKING for committment….these being
    a planet that is no less sentient than you or i, ALL
    the living beings on it/in it. we are, i honestly belive so strongly co Dependant.
    that concept of Kas Limaal of the other day…mutual
    indebtedness. each living For the other. this is enormously strong in me. and really, even if i had no
    real sense of hope left at some point, i would continue my just going in the same way as i do today, i would not
    “give up, or quit”, i would continue marveling at all that
    is marvel~ous. i would sing out its name every day. so
    that would be the last on my lips. AND, i would tell the
    children what i have loved, how it was when i was little,
    down by the creek. These are Sweet days. the Earth is
    Sweet. it’s our ways that we cling to and turn our face from that are bitter.
    love to you for who you are…

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i loaned Culture to a neighbor. he can’t find it. ee.
    but in the Reader, he says enough, maybe…

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i don’t know what to think about her. Really.

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  26. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    well…flow along and now and then tell me what you see.
    xo

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  27. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    she took/takes my by surprise because she was so frail,
    so not ready for her birth, for this world here. it’s
    going to be days till she can hold her own in the herd.
    the others were ready on the second day. part of this
    is because she’s a triplet. part of it may be hereditary.
    Lucky Star had a very difficult beginning.
    and also, watching her now, watching myself watching her,
    i need to think about how when i was holding her, rubbing her in the moments of her birth, i made the decision
    that i would do only so much. i would clear their breathing, try to help in the immediate bonding, but if
    it didn’t seem to be wanting to work, i would let them go.
    So, this too.

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  28. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    shine on sister! the bitter can be OK too, it’s hard to drink, like it’s hard to stand by and watch an old lover leave never to return or a beloved cat die or watch a favourite tree get cut down… I miss them & always will… & thank you Grace, you do this writing straight from the heart so very well… with grace… I’ll leave these words by Mary Oliver-
    “You can have other words-chance, luck coincidence, serendipity. I”ll take grace. I don’t know what it is exactly, but I’ll take it.”

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  29. Robyn Ayaz Avatar
    Robyn Ayaz

    Hi Grace, well I made it back to Windthread at last and so much to think about in this post! I know a bit about keeping on, I don’t think I know another way any more. I am beginning to realise that and that the universe will often give some help and therefore, if you can trust then you can let go some of the fear. Your place is the opposite of mine – everything so busy and constant; I wish often that my days had some of this busyness even though I love my calm stitching. It can be very lonely not to have someone to share with and, not being on the computer for all these weeks, I have missed you and all our sisters of cloth very much. And I don’t know Derrick Jensen, so my education will grow again I know. Hugs.

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  30. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Hey Robyn! hope all is well or well enough!..
    and yes…it will quiet down at some point. Jensen is
    like riding a raft in white water. be prepared.
    i’m up in the middle of the night here…the RAIN has
    come. oh has it come. and a cricket under the kitchen
    sink. so i gave up sleeping, made coffee and worked on
    the housecoat. going back to bed now for a while till
    day breaks. see what’s floating.
    again..happy you are back xoxo

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  31. Wendy Avatar
    Wendy

    I love this; I love that I hear you saying Hilary is meeting her potential. A former student of mine commented the other day something about the wind is always there; you’ll find it if you raise your sail. Your post makes me understand her comment even more, or with an implication and depth she may not have intended. You have certainly raised a sail, Grace.

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  32. dee Avatar
    dee

    Oh, well put! reading here has become like a practice…

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  33. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    isn’t that funny???, me, here in Polvadera, commenting on
    Hilary Clinton’s “progress”. but i can. because i am
    a participatory citizen of this crazy country. and because i am even her elder, so..yes. i can.
    xoxo, W, love

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  34. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    be forwarned. not easy.

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  35. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    silly. same as your Tarot.

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  36. dee Avatar
    dee

    too tired now to write what I intended when I opened this box hours and hours ago (made dinner for 13 tonight – we ate outdoors – it was wonderful and it was my husband’s birthday and he is now 55, like me!)… but just wanted to chime in that it is hard, as a parent of teenagers who will soon be setting out, to imagine their futures. And even if I didn’t have children with shaky futures, I would have so much trouble tolerating what passes for government in this country anymore… I heard a quote recently that went something like: ‘we are in a car rushing toward a brick wall and bickering about what seat to sit in’.
    So, I would like to feel my heart open, even as I am reading about melting ice caps or Tea Party propaganda or record Exxon profits … or…. or….
    and what I love about coming here is how alive you seem to be Grace – and when your heart opens and you share some of what that is, I feel invited to open mine up, too… even if it’s just a little and even if it’s to fear or disappointment.

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  37. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Dee…
    dee.
    well…THIS then is good. it’s late here. i just hung up talking to the son of Alz B
    and we talked about facing what we know and then i find this comment from you and i feel…what. what do I feel?
    i feel like all of it is for something.
    All of it is for Something.
    who would guess. cloth.
    ways of cloth.
    and various people appear in one’s world. sticking to it,
    Continuing
    in Their Own Way.
    Thank You for these words. they make me feel like the
    things i FEEL are OK things to talk about….in a Broad
    world where i can watch the expression on someones face.
    to read “i feel invited to open mine up too….”
    then, ok.
    ok, then.
    there is always fear. there is always Surprise at how
    stuff goes….how we had imagined something entirely
    different, but LOOK! ….. oh LOOK!, Meera, phoenetically in spanish…………
    tonight the spade foot toads continue. it began last night. while the goats hunker down in crowded quarters,
    while i am here in this tin house, the Spade Foot Toads
    rise and make love and eat and do all they can in just
    moments before the next 10 months when they again go
    down. go down below the line of the horizon.
    Thanks, Dee. BIG.

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