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So, how do i think i can Do this????????????????????????????



August is disappearing.

Very soon, by October, all the babies will have been born.  All that will Stay, will be waiting.  Daily, out there for me.  All that will go, will be gone.  So, i am thinking.  Things are easy for me when it's Hot.  Cold, not so much and really cold, NOT.   What i begin now will carry through those cold months.  There will be ice to break on their water bowls.  Wood to split and bring in.  A house that heats slowly in the morning.

So, this morning, i am entertaining thoughts about how i might do it all.   And i made myself a little scenario of how a day might go to mull over as i go through these Beauty days of Summer Going.

Wake.  put coffee water on to boil.  Start fire in wood stove.  ???Sitting meditation now???  Look at cloth to seed the mind for the day.   Out to break ice, fill bowls, feed.  Maybe milk now, but being realistic about my limitations, i might go back in for a while till maybe 8 or even 9 oclock.  Prepare food for the day, if so, milk after that.  There will be 7, maybe 8 does to milk.  Ona, Onday, Lucky Star, Ginger, Grace, Barbara, Caroline and maybe Arctica if i can tame her enough by then.   ???Sitting Meditation now, instead?????   So, This finished between 10 and 11. 

The milk can be frozen.  The routine for cheese making is completely unknown now.  It will depend on how much milk is given.  But it won't happen every day.  I can't know anything about this until it all begins.  So, it's penciled in.

And now the house is warmed.  CLOTH from say 11 til 2 or 3

And then 3 till dusk, back out to feed for the evening, care for living spaces and Love, Touch, Talk. 

The Cloth and Goat Love will of course vary, depending on the weather.

So.  I sit looking at this Possible Plan and thought to go look at Picasa to see what i'd been looking  at last year.

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Water Canyon in search of walnuts and acorns     Sept. 11, 2011

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September  24, 2011  Dye Pots

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September 28, 2011   What was given,  plant to cloth.

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October 14, 2011  The angle of light changing

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November 3, 2011   Fire every day.

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the end of November through somewhere in February

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Easy days again,  March 14, 2011,  the Apricot Tree

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15 responses to “So, how do i think i can Do this????????????????????????????”

  1. Jennie Avatar
    Jennie

    blessings on you as the days grow shorter and harder, Grace.
    guess it really does come down to one day at a time.
    just going, as we say.
    there is always some light when we tune in for it, yes?

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  2. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Jennie, i read your comment then went back into the kitchen to finish wiping off the counter and put the dishes away from the sink….and thinking about your words and what i had just blogged, i had the thought that maybe, just maybe, because i have “taken the vows” with the Goat Love, maybe, just maybe it will all not only be changed, but ….. BETTER. ???? There will be more, uhhh, PURPOSE to the earthly routine of days of the cold months. And i do love Purpose.
    and YES. there is Always Light.

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  3. grace Forrest~Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest~Maestas

    and more. not just one day at a time, but one Gesture
    at a time. i have lately needed to go back to something i do off and on,
    when i am moving through the day, actually Saying Aloud
    the small parts of that doing. like
    i am washing the dishes that i ate the food that i prepared on. i am washing dishes because i ate food.
    or
    i am going through this inside gate to reach the bin of the pellets to give the goats because they love them.
    This last, when i was moving fast and snagged my jumper
    AGAIN (lots of mending opportunities coming). doing
    this “narration”, i STOPPED just a moment to realize that
    there is goodness in every single movement of a day. and, slowing down, being mindfull, it takes no longer, but
    FEELS better.

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  4. jude Avatar
    jude

    so we will see…

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  5. grace Forrest~Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest~Maestas

    yup. the proof’s in the pudding or something

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  6. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    Your ways fill me Grace. Reading your words with the visual playing in my mind’s eye is a great book that never ends, an exemplary mind movie that I wish to watch forever, for there is much to examine and learn here, from you, about going with care.
    (((sigh)))

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  7. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    (((Grace))) I remember a conversation ’round the kitchen table when I was a starry eyed young hippie chick helping out on a farm with 77 animals to look after & we were congratulating ourselves on how life was so full & couldn’t imagine what we would do otherwise! What with milking the goats each morning, looking after the 30 head of cattle, the 13 horses (2 stallions at one stage of the game), the ducks, the chickens, the 5 dogs, the 5 cats (including 2 very bossy Siamese) and the 20 foot long carpet snake that loved in the rafters of the feed shed next to my room out in the old dairy. I was the live in help & felt lucky at the time happily working 7 days a week, 5-10 hours each day in exchange for my rent. These days I pay a lot for rent but only work one day a week for it and have one very spoiled cat and a lot more time to make art… (in those long ago days I embroidered in the evenings by 12 candlelight)
    So why have I related this little tale? just keep an eye on the bigger picture and what you need out of this time in your life & make sure you give yourself plenty of time to plurk (play+work) with the cloth!

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  8. grace Forrest~Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest~Maestas

    well…first, to say, i AM going to do it.
    that said, i can fiddle around with the HOW. giving and
    taking some here and there as it goes. and remember,
    dusk in winter months comes soooooo early. a lot of
    Evening Time, again for cloth.

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  9. grace Forrest~Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest~Maestas

    and also, more thinking, it is a truth for me that the
    more time i have, the more time i spend drifting, day
    dreaming. there’s always that sense of “well, i can
    do that tomorrow”.
    and
    none of these things are wearing. that’s something too.
    i only work “away” one, maybe 2 days a week. the 2 being
    every other week. that is a huge difference than when i
    was with Alz. B.
    so…i have time.

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  10. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    You go girl! have you started making any yoghurt yet? I loved having fresh yoghurt to eat every day & what sort of cheese are you planning? Haloumi is a favourite!

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  11. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    ah Time is such a precious thing at this stage of the game… good to hear you have plenty!

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  12. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    Sometimes it helps me too to think through how I think something will go, all you can do is try…

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  13. grace Forrest~Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest~Maestas

    this plan…is very possible. so if it does, that’s good.
    if it changes, then the basic idea remains. and that’s good
    so, i’m thinking it’s all just good.

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  14. sewing susan Avatar
    sewing susan

    Such a helpful reminder Grace to say out loud what your are doing”washing the dishes”. So as to be in the moment.
    My August ritual is to clean spaces inside and outside my house to get ready for the beginning of school. I will be talking to myself today. 🙂

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  15. ali Avatar
    ali

    I am reading all the posts I’ve missed while away, and gazing at your many fine photos–so much to see, I am going to keep looking for a while

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