this morning, before going to the farmer's market, and then to finalize Alzheimer's Betty's house for the new Renter,   I sat myself down with the intention of making a list of what i needed to do with this day.   I knew i needed to begin at the Farmer's Market, then finish cleaning Betty's house and then…..

duct (duck) tape.  for sure from the hardware.  ok.  and i wrote that down.  but then, i drifted off and  thought about the Raven that has been cruising the airways above.  and i looked down and this is what was  my List

001

and i got home and the final people came for the last of the little wethers.  it was not easy.  Los Dados were both not too bad.  i am loaning the people the travel crates.  in they went.  Darth Vader and Inky were another story.  took a very Good chunk of time and effort to capture them.  the lasoo was involved.

but it's quiet now.   All who remain here are who will remain here for an undetermined time.

We Are:

Snowbunny, Barbara, Grace who i am milking because their babies were taken abruptly.  then          Lucky Star, mother of Los Dados who went tonight.  and her doeling Just Going.           Ona,  mother of Darth Vader and Inky who went tonight, but i think she had weaned them on her own, we'll see.                                                                                                                                                                         Onday and her doeling Mercy                                                                                                                                               Caroline and her doeling  Magic                                                                                                                                       Arctica, the virgin                                                                                                                                                                   Caroline and her daughter Cinderella.

then there are the bucks.  Gideon, TenZen, Buckwheat and Caroline's son, Sunny Ray.

so………how many goats are there?????????????????  eeeeeeeeeeee.  i need to count.  but i'll do that in the morning.  today, it has been enough.  today i did what i was so afraid i wouldn't be able to do.   but it kind of happened of it's own accord.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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20 responses to “i never quit”

  1. grace Avatar

    NO!!!!mistake. it’s Ginger and her doeling Cinderella and her
    in tact son, Sunny Ray.
    i wish i could learn how to make lists here…not just a mess.
    but anyway.
    ok.
    today.
    accomplished.

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  2. jude Avatar

    all this happens while i wait.

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  3. grace Avatar

    yes. i wrote a bunch of stuff, then couldn’t post it. must be
    a reason.
    but yes.
    the candle flickers for All of Us.

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  4. Deb G Avatar

    Ah I do that too… and I think I’ll light a candle as well. It’s very dark tonight.

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  5. ali Avatar

    After spending some time in your part of the world, ravens have been on my mind, too. I’ve been learning about the difference between ravens and crows, not that it really matters, but maybe it does to them?
    I’ve also, after spending quite a bit of time with my family of origin, been thinking about feelings as thoughts, and every thing as mental construct, or deconstruct, sometimes. searching for Buddha mind…

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  6. Nancy Avatar

    The ultimate ‘just going’. Your dots-n-dashes reminded me of the JPL Morse code on the bottom of the wheels of the mars thingy (can’t think of the right word/name) – that tell how many rotations, to mark how far it has gone. A way of measuring. And your words, yes ‘practice’, a favorite word of mine 🙂
    I’m glad it went, almost on its own, as it should have or needs to go. Rest well tonight Grace.

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  7. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    DEAR GRACE I THOUGHT OF YOU TONIGHT AS I CONSTRUCTED THE POST THAT JUST WENT UP ON BOTH BLOGS ‘High Anx-I-iT-eeeeeE’ AND ‘REFUGE’-THOUGHT OF THE GOATS, OF JUDE AND HER RIVERS, ALL EAST COASTERS, AND, ODDLY, OF MY MOTHER WHO CAME TO ME IN A DREAM BRIEFLY A FEW NIGHTS AGO BUT I DON’T REMEMBER WHY. OUR CANDLES ARE FLICKERING IN THE DARK NIGHT, MINE TOO.

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  8. ;uie Avatar
    ;uie

    Sometimes the courage to stand and face is all caught up in the worry of the thing but equally, sometimes the worry up to the event is needed for a clearing out. After, what is left is knowing that we met what was presented and we go on until the next…
    Your words of yesterday grace, I read this morning but before I came to this window, I began my day as I begin all days by lighting candles on my daily blessing altar and speaking words, sometimes chanting, sometimes singing. Never know what words will come, often depends on intention. Today part of a chant that I was told when I lived in Maui came to me. Chant is from a temple priest, Lanakila Brandt, a temple priest at the Pu’uhanua a Honaunau, the Place of Refuge on the island of Hawaii. Simple words, “Greetings to the Sun, life, the earth.” As I said those words, you came into my thoughts and heart grace. I smiled because I took it as a sign that all was going as it should for you. Our daily lives are unique to each one of us but they are also the same as we all try to keep on going…and you did yesterday and you will today…

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  9. kaite Avatar
    kaite

    well done grace.

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  10. saskia Avatar

    don’t really know what to say: I read your posts (of course I do) and want to comment and get stuck,
    just to let you know Grace I think you are so brave with the goats and keeping them and then having to let them go…….
    I so enjoy reading your goat/cloth-stories
    (so even if I don’t leave a comment, I am reading them all)
    btw: package is on it’s way

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  11. grace Avatar

    no matter the individual intention, i think lighting a
    candle is a significant Gesture, to ourselves, to the
    Dark

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  12. grace Avatar

    i think it matters totally to them. A long time ago
    i posted the whole of Barry Lopez’ The Raven from
    Desert Notes River Notes. you can wade back through
    all these posts to find it or just read it in his book.
    It’s extraordinary.
    I think, for sure me, and probably commonly, we are not
    much at a loss for Feelings. so i don’t worry about
    that part. i would though like to stop creating feelings
    when they are made up of thoughts that can change with
    the wind. So much Real i’d like to devote that energy
    toward

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  13. grace Avatar

    i did rest well. and all of them rested well too. it was
    quiet out there. as was today.

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  14. grace Avatar

    ahhh, a visit from your Mother………hmmmm.
    and now it’s Sunday Eve and all the above is past with
    a whole new day tomorrow. i WOULD SOOOO like to “get”
    it. in the meantime, candles do flicker

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  15. grace Avatar

    what is important to me now is to learn
    to learn from one of these Things to the next,
    to remember.

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  16. grace Avatar

    Kaite…i is a reprieve. But i APPRECIATED SO SO SO MUCH
    your words about it all…the encouragement to meet what
    needed to be done face to face. I love you a lot for
    that. it was the Ground on which i went forward as best
    i could. Knowing that there WAS a ground.
    and it also holds me to the fact that breeding livestock
    is breeding livestock that is born. no control of those
    details. so…i am looking very closely. Very.
    so..love and deep deep gratitude to you

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  17. grace Avatar

    You know, half the time I don’t even know what to say.
    It’s good that you are just here.
    i am so waiting for the Air Tree.
    xo

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  18. ali Avatar

    I will look for it–I vaguely remember reading it (here?) but now the context is different. Mindfulness, as it’s called, simply being in the moment, is what I
    am reaching for these days.

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  19. Linda Avatar

    so, i too, am reading quietly.
    too much here that is unsettling. now the hurricane with daughter in the path and jude and michelle.
    feeling shaky inside but just working and getting through with positive thoughts for all
    glad to see you have found homes for the boys. thinking of you today

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  20. Mo Crow Avatar

    good news re the goatlings & aaark aaark aaaarrrrk! from the old crow folk here
    BTW we call the Australian Raven “crow” here in the Land Down Under but they are Corvus coronoides the most elegant of the True Ravens

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