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Feeling odd.   like i NEED to Not Know anything at all.  Like i need to move through the days, singularly, each as they come, uhhh,    blind.    Blind in some way.  Blind is the word that seems to stick.   an odd word for an odd time.  Maybe, Re feel it all?  develop some other kind of Sensing???  set aside all familiar definitions????

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and this.    Wendy, of Grace and Mending,  set all this in motion by sending me some excerpts from this really incredible book.  She had used it as the text for one of her classes.  and then,  nance sent the actual book.  i don't know exactly how to talk about this book,  this stunning incredible book.

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and then, this.  the woven part done long ago in Jude's Cloth to Cloth  and now, this odd moment, when the butterfly and the caterpillar remain paired.

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so…i don't know.  am waiting for something to happen.

 

 

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  1. jude Avatar
    jude

    All seems ok to me. the odd. the not knowing. Let it be. What a great title. Living with Herds.

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  2. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    Living with the odd – and the mysterious – isn’t my most comfortable place to sit, but it usually births something unusual, too. That book looks amazing. I have a thing for the reindeer herders of northern Lapland – the Sami and Even people – and how they live and lived so close to them. Their herds defined their flow of life, and gave them everything. I love that.
    Happy winter, Grace, and may the herds keep you warm and flowing.

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  3. Jennie Avatar
    Jennie

    Waiting, alone and quiet, for the Light, and making something.
    On the night of the solstice the clouds, which have been heavy and as if solid for a very long while opened up and the sky was full of stars and constellations brighter than I’ve ever seen here near Seattle.
    Peace…

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  4. Susan C Avatar
    Susan C

    Love to you, grace.
    WIshes for peace and happiness coming your way.
    See you in the new year.

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  5. grace Avatar
    grace

    the book is
    something i never would have thought existed. not the
    people and the herds, but someone who would have spent
    this time to go to the place where they co-exist. as
    mutually interdependant beings…as equal in that life.
    or something.
    if you google Living with Herds and then go to
    U of Cambridge Press down in the lower right is a box
    with her Video’s….the last one…vocalizations….
    i don’t know what i’m seeing when i look.
    i don’t know about the not knowing. it’s right now
    mostly a FEELING, like a physical sensation…it moves
    around, but most times resides in the pit of my stomach.

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  6. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes…the Sami and how they live WITH eachother. how
    they each give eachother Everything and become Everything

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  7. grace Avatar
    grace

    that same Brilliant Sky was here, we shared….
    so glad for you in the world of thick clouds to experience
    that.

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  8. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. the New year, soon.
    and love back

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  9. Jacky Avatar
    Jacky

    unsettled… feeling things …. seeking harmony.
    I looked at our sky last night too. Just before the darkness came, there was soft blue sky with a gentle moon just hanging there. No stars, just the blue sky and moon and quiet. It was beautiful.
    Sending you love and peace Grace.
    Jacky xox

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  10. Chris Linton Avatar
    Chris Linton

    I was so interested in your post, grace, because sometimes, after meditation on difficult issues, I have felt very strongly that “I don’t actually know anything, and that is ok”. This is a peaceful feeling, acceptance, and I always feel like this is a new start in some way.

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  11. grace Avatar
    grace

    Chris..yes. it’s closest to peaceful. just a very
    quiet thing. and any descriptives i try to attach to it
    aren’t quite it. so…am just watching. what i did
    notice throughout the day as i stitched on the above
    cloth was that any time my mind wandered toward anything
    about the Future, as in a “from now on” thought, there
    was an immediate sense of stopping mid thought, backing
    away.
    New Years Eve has always been a much loved day. I keep
    these big wall calendars with everything written on them,
    like Deb G’s field notes, but to the extreme. then on
    NY eve, i transpose everything from the past year that
    holds significance for the coming year. and i did wonder
    today how that’s going to go??????? i did luck out and
    find another Butterfly calendar for 2013.

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  12. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    Yes, their world of reindeer – a reciprocal dance…

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  13. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    To me you have described resting…the dark is perfect for that. And the book, looked for it at my library but they don’t have it. They do have one about reindeer herds I am going to request.

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  14. yvette Avatar
    yvette

    odd yes odd
    tired
    sad but dont know why
    want to be part of it but feel so far away
    not from living with dogs..never
    my herd
    that is it
    together with my dogs i dont feel the distance anymore
    hope this is not too vague
    happy hollydays
    holy hollidays

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  15. nance Avatar
    nance

    “like i NEED to Not Know anything at all. Like i need to move through the days, singularly, each as they come, uhhh, blind. ”
    honestly grace, the thing i find so fascinating about you is that you are able to express this in words. the question i have is… well i am ok with not knowing on most things and going from day to day…but when something arises that needs a response and your answer to is is so so important, how do you find an answer. i sit and i sit and i cant tell whether the answer is from my heart or my soul. sometimes my soft heart gets in the way of doing the hard thing. it is so confusing…

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  16. nance Avatar
    nance

    oh… and blind… like your doll, the blind one. interesting connection there.

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