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Day 37

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i had set up an additional clamp light.  brought in the fan, in case it was too warm in here for the computer guy.

and this morning i looked at it all.  thinking about how people are.  thinking how some don't call.  thinking about something that happened in the past keeps them from calling and saying "I can't".

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There is the little HOUSE icon for home page.  when i click it now, this is what appears.  Yes, it is true.  the only thing functioning really is typepad stuff.  and this somehow reassures me.  Home Page.  yes.  not the other one with email, WikiHow, Spanish Word of the Day, News,  but  Student Links.  my Real home.  yup.

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everything is Quiet here.  waiting.  I love these altar cloths.  no need to say more.  just that i love making them.

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and still…following Jude in the What If Diaries, right now the White on White, there is this.  the onionskin dye.  on the curtain….just so loosly stitched, but stitched perfectly enough.  i look and look and look.

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and still………that crazy White on White mend.  that some One like me………..some one like me, made and how it just makes me feel so uh, well…just So.

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and the young locust.  this is her 3rd year.  she might BLOOM.  who knows.  we'll see.  but makes me kind of crazy too.  i feel like maybe a deer or a giraffe, or! a Goat maybe.  the urge to EAT these succulent newnesses

024fand the first pot of 2013.  new leaves from the Mexican Elderberry.  there is cloth under them.  unsure if there is enough Heat yet.  but, here we are.

All is well.  

 

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  1. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    and i go back, to see what i have posted here
    and i know
    i know
    what i love about it.
    just this much. these pics. some words.
    i really really love it.
    esp the last pic of the pots. THIS
    is my LIFE. me. grace. this is me. today., at the end of the day. i like looking, very much, at a life. how amazing. what
    matters to someone. even if the someone is myself.

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  2. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    I was just coming to comment and well…you’ve said it so well right above me! I love the pots pic too and the one of the room with the wide rocker and the cloths on couch and wall and sleeping pets and your alter areas…I always love looking with you 🙂
    It’s good to feel content, yes?!

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  3. jennann Avatar
    jennann

    “it’s ok, grace. he always says that. it’s ok, grace…”
    I’ll be checking in here…you are not alone…
    XXXXXOOOOOXXXXXX

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  4. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. and that’s the other part. you see too. sharing
    it is important. Why?, i don’t really know. but when i read your words, it was very very good to me.
    Maybe…maybe because it validates that it is Real?

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Hey!!!
    yes. he Always does. Over and Over and Over.
    it’s important to
    not
    be
    alone.
    love the capitals on the x and o

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  6. jennann Avatar
    jennann

    …and somewhere you posted about the picture of my son on cloth and heirlooms…i am in so much pain over this child, my oldest, my first teenager…i found a “blank” jacket/robe I bought from Dharma Trading years ago…undyed, fits (ha!)…I’m thinking photos on silk on the inside…a secret place…right now, there are no heirlooms…we are in survival mode.
    XXXXOOOOOXXXX

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    teen. always. total survival mode.
    Do It.
    and count, rely, on your love.
    it may or may not hold him.
    it’s HIS life.
    you CANNOT live his life. it belongs to him.
    you CAN be you.
    i say these things and they may be bullshit. but i
    think not.
    i think that
    what.
    ?
    i think that it is as my daughter once said. when she was maybe 3yrs or 4?…that she Flew and she Flew and she Flew through the darkness to find me.
    we are magnetized.
    ley lines, i am thinking. and i don’t even want to bother looking up how to spell it, but
    through lifetimes i am thinking.
    you don’t need to think the same.
    but
    Love trumps it All. period.

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  8. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    Oh yeah…you can bet your ^&* it’s real!
    The sharing IS important. Period. I think partly because we are human and typically humans need connection. Of course, there are degrees of connection need by each one…but you get the idea 🙂

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  9. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    My heart is with yours in these days of a teenaged son. I remember well my daughters teen years. Sending you a hug of strength…from mother to mother.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    and, futher…
    child to child?
    we were who we were.
    no matter.
    i remember and know so well my own times.
    i was me.
    and here…all these years later
    i am me.
    no different for anyone. none.
    and again…Love Trumps.
    as long as it is real.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    and real…
    real in that it is almost against your will.
    real when you don’t like it.
    real when you wish it wasn’t happening….but…
    you can’t help it. even though you don’t LIKE it.
    that kind.

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  12. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    Well, yes our child selves…who we were and are. My jury is still out if Love trumps all and the magnet effect. I would love to believe both. I’d rather See both in action. But that is me, my life. What I know is we don’t stop loving when the loving gets hard…
    and teens can be hard.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    to me, it’s just how it is.
    not that it is pleasant.
    but just how it IS.
    might have been nice
    to be loved
    but if not…it doesn’e excuse us from the reality.

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  14. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    grace, i think it may be just that your home page has become the page you visit most often after an update.
    Have you ever tried using a different browser like ‘firefox’ from mozilla instead of ‘internet explorer’? (our son does not like ‘internet explorer’ and calls it internet exploder.)
    or just try copying and pasting this into the address bar at the top of the page:
    https://mail.google.com
    wish i was there with you i think it may not be too bad to fix

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  15. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    test as prevoius comments not showing

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  16. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    can you copy and paste this into your address bar grace:
    https://mail.google.com
    and press enter
    what happens?

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  17. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    copy and paste this into your address bar and press enter:
    https://mail.google.com

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  18. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    typepad being difficult

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  19. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    it won’t let me send you a link

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  20. mimmin dove Avatar
    mimmin dove

    copy and paste this into your address bar and press enter:
    https://mail.google.com

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  21. patricia Avatar
    patricia

    oh. the feeling of home. of being home. here, in this space, in this community of women. reading your postings again. amazing how being w/o my computer for just four days made me feel so cut off from some thing so important to me. and here’s what i can’t get over. the thread has changed a bit, shifted, and i pick it up and it’s what i’m dealing with now. the loving through. loving through the hard times. loving through the real times. so glad to be back. and speaking of love–what your daughter said–that she flew and flew and flew through the darkness to find you. so profound.

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  22. jennann Avatar
    jennann

    it’s a small gathering at Grace’s house…

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  23. saskia Avatar
    saskia

    hoping commenting works for me here today: LOVE entire post, everything, everything here is good; sun is out over here as well, not warm enough for dyeing, but seeing the pots at your place and the Promise of Warmth has got me thinking about dyeing again, oh to go out collecting dyeing-weeds, yes!

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  24. Julie Avatar
    Julie

    my daughter used to say that I was the sun and she was the earth and she got to orbit around, NOT the other way around, Mom!!!, Looking back I would have been best served by staying my path and not letting her life throw me into the next galaxy …and that is what i am seeing in these latest altar clothes, grace.
    And PS, I was VERY out of orbit thinking you were not going to be able to post.
    seriously.

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  25. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    “All is well”, and that says so much even though the computer guy didn’t come yet. Still,your blog comes to us, bringing us your world, your heart in photos and words, and the connection holds.
    Thinking of what you said about love trumping all: I think how it is the one thing that we can give throughout all of what life presents to us and beyond. How even at the end of a loved one’s journey, love lingers, becoming a little spot tucked near the heart, coming out now and then over the years as memory rushes in when something triggers a recollection…
    Love, so evident in your altar cloths. What is also evident is that these cloths take on a meaning of their own when they arrive at their destination, allowing the altar holder to feel your connection but to also bring forth whatever, as I’ve said before, holds meaning to them, whether they pin it up or place it down and use it to hold those items that tell the story of what matters most. You let whatever wants to come forth when you make these cloths come, but you also give space in the cloth and that pathway is simply a great gift to give someone …

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  26. kat Avatar
    kat

    I’ve been quiet here – over a week the room spun, literally, in my head every morning. Still had to pull it together enough to go to work. Took my cane to balance, sciatica flared up, too. I just read a week’s worth of posts yesterday and before work today wanted to check in and say – Yes! Yes to community, yes to your lovely altar cloth. I love the x’s and the color spots – it is beautiful. I love these pictures. You’ve inspired me to keep going with my blog – (not done yet, but will be done this evening – something – after the Just Over Broke and I’m home again.) Wish I was a little more techie myself, and I could help you with computer. Glad it still lets you communicate this way. Up north here this week they’re predicting snow. Hope you maintain spring. And now, I will go and not take any more of your space. Thank you for being here and sharing your part of the land of enchantment.

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  27. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    WHAAAAAAA….

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  28. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes…my friend and i just sat there, staring at her when she said that. she was too young to have been being
    anything but truthFull.
    and the Loving Through. yes. sometimes that’s all that can be done. and it also over time becomes just this
    thing of Compassion…where there is no attachment to
    result. but that’s a lifetime of work, i think?

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  29. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i will be watching! this is so difficult, not to be
    about to comment on blogs. an odd sensation….reading
    looking, wanting to respond and CAN’T…..
    well…xoxoxo

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  30. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    well…isn’t it something to think about, then…
    how Just Being Here…all of us…makes such an important
    difference? just staying grounded and centered however
    we each do that? not denying the Ify, but working with it?
    and the same within our immediate lives…
    Learning is a really really so WonderFULL thing…
    love to you…

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  31. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Marti…yes. yes.
    i hope to learn more and more as i go along. for whatever reason, i really have loved making them, watching closely the coming together of just so much,or, just really, so
    little. NOT telling a story but trying to create a
    space, that is designated…that’s an interesting word, isn’t it…designated…???
    or, devoted to focus and intention…however that might
    be for Anyone….all different….
    Love to you….

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  32. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Space is what we have here, this way…endless amounts.
    Please take as much as you want!
    and yes…i always know winter conditions up there…it’s
    where Alz B’s son escapes to every weekend since he can
    no longer spend winters in Anarctica. actually where
    he is today.
    and that’s also the beauty of New Mex…that up by you,
    more snow…WHITE…and just that many miles down I-25
    it’s WARM and seeds are planted.
    i have experienced a sciatic hip…hard. chiropractic
    works miracles. i didn’t do it, but know it does. i
    learned Tai Chi. it disappeared. and being me, so did
    the Tai Chi. ah well…
    i’m glad you came over for a while. Good. xoxo

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  33. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    this is just so magic, your photos, your space, your cloth, my altar cloth!!! the unfurling of spring the pots in the bright sun
    and your words make me cry…they are so strong and true I am going to write them out & keep them in your cloth…
    “…that she Flew and she Flew and she Flew through the darkness to find me.
    we are magnetized.
    ley lines, i am thinking. and i don’t even want to bother looking up how to spell it, but
    through lifetimes i am thinking.
    you don’t need to think the same.
    but
    Love trumps it All. period. … Love trumps all…”
    you have such strong heart magic Grace that is one great line … Love trumps all… Love trumps all…

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  34. Julie Avatar
    Julie

    yes…it taught me that we each have our own gravitational pull. That’s pretty amazing and why isn’t it enough????

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  35. Nance Avatar
    Nance

    Mothering is tough work and it doesn’t always end with teen years. We have to say these t hints to each other to remind ourselves when we forget. It IS love that makes the difference… It gets us through. And it DOES all boil down to compassion. We have to remember not to let the infinite love we have for our children get in the way of being who we are. I like the daughters image of the mother as the sun. We have to be centered so our children can orbit around us which then keeps us true. Blessings to all of us that give birth.

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  36. Debra S Avatar
    Debra S

    Grace, tell me about your pots of the year. Do you fill a variety of pots with water then cloth then windfall? This is what I’m guessing, I’ d like to do a few myself, looks like fun! And then you just use the heat from the sun??

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