ok. bueno. here we are and an Update of sorts.
There WAS, indeed, an evil virus. he described it as having roots. the root part i liked, but the virus felt to me like VD. but…now i know. i will know, for the future, how that begins and will know enough to nip it in it's bud as cruel as that sounds.
so…we have here, an Updated Windows program. and Updated Chrome. an Updated Picasa…what else…i guess that's it with the updates, but then AntiVirus stuff up the wazoo. all my pics are still happily in their libraries, both Windows and Picasa. the email remains the original, grace.porvida@gmail. Stuff's O.K.
it was the SHOCK of it. the shock of finally getting a virus…me, who really hardly ever strays from the MotherShip. who'dve thought???? alas. and the SHOCK of the Windows 7 update…how it has changed everything. nothing is in it's place that i'd created for it over the years. and Chrome…well, it is Chromie. whenever favorite color came up during my marriage to my children's father, and ?what is his favorite color?, chrome. he was/is a chrome kind of guy. me…weeds.dirt.compost. anyway so, now to figure out how to Just Go. i have been able to seperate all the entities at work here. identify what they do. Windows 7. Google Chrome. Picasa. TypePad. for some days, it was a blur. or, really, kind of GAP…a blank space inbetween what was, what became, what no longer was and what i couldn't get to. an odd gap.
a couple times i thought i'd figured it out. but i still have Not. today, new pics will not download. this is a BIG DEAL. but i DO have Confidence that i will be able to figure it out. it's not Everything, but, Windows7. so. ok. breathe in and exhale. ok.
and you know what was the WORST?????? that the screen saver that was a pic of my daughter was gone. so….like Her Herself, now her pic is gone too. it was a pic of her on my son's back tiny porch when he and his woman tried to live in Albuquerque for a while (it didn't work). and we were All there (that isn't often) and my son's woman Heather made us the most excellent Margarita's and we were All together but privately wondering about the Unforseen…each in our own hearts…
isn't that funny????as in odd? that something as plain as a screen saver can throw someone off the edge into a
GAP??????
and while all this has been my preoccupation, this
has happened. the young cottonwoods…there are two….one by the buck pen, one by the doe pen…both…are LEAFING. this is their 3rd year. the third year is the year of BEAUTY. the first is totally ify just in general. the second depends on what environmental happenings occur…length of season, draught conditions caused by degree of heat etc. but if those first two years just go…the THIRD YEAR is a burgeoning of fierce energy and growth that MIGHT carry that plant being through all kinds of Unforseen. I take this as a good sign.
and i love Everyone for hanging in there. Really. it's You All that are on the other side of the Gap. Thank You.
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