but let's look at this first.  i got a squash at the store…it's from Mexico, i didn't note  it's name but to see that i'd never seen it before.  tomorrow, i'll look and write it down.   it's skin is beautiful and these, well…the color of all that cloth Deb Lacativa created,  the cloths of the Tibetans.  the Dalai Lama's birthday is this coming Saturday

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drying to plant in a few weeks.

 

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i worked.  so, just pinned, but …. YES!

and now…Goats.  and How Goats Teach Letting Go.  Somehow.

Yesterday, the young woman Vet Tech did come.  she was here quite a while.  we sat in the pen with the babies a long time with them and their mothers coming and going.  She is going to take 2.  She is not sure which yet.   She is pregnant.  i love pregnant women.  they have a slow quiet deliberateness to them.  She has that.  as she watched, she commented on each of them and it was nice to listen to her.  and it was good to see her delight in them, after seeing them the day  they were dehorned.   She is from and married to a ranch family.  they do horses.  rodeo.  her step daughter is competing for Queen of the rodeo at the State Fair this year.  an auspicious home.  they grow all their own feed for their livestock.    She has a friend who is also interested in these goats, maybe tho, one of the 2 does i am looking to sell.  while we sat, she would text her friend, send pics of what we were watching.  She promised that when she has the goats,  she will talk about them a lot.  Tell people of these Goats here.  Perfect.

and then…did i already say this? i don't know, but will say it here, again, maybe.  On July 8th, the first new moon after Solstice,  a woman and her daughter from Las Cruces, down by the border with Mexico will come for Buckwheat.  He will be her herd sire.   His horns do not put her off.  She began with goats 40 some years ago with Saanens in Georgia.  many of her herd  were polled but the rest had horns.  and her interest now is Home dairy.  She wants to milk for her extended household.  make Cheese.  has no interest in Show Goats.  just GOOD household herd.  Perfect again.

and THEN!!!!, TODAY!!!! a phone message from a man, Jacob.  and what a surprise THIS is…  he saw the flier i put up at the grocery store.  He has PACK goats.  he and his sons take them into the desert, into the mountains.  he has two.   he had 3, but something happened to the third.  and he said the other two have not been the same since.   his goats are generic goats but he called because he was interested in a smaller goat, and maybe an easier tempered goat than say a Nubian.  this goat will not pack.  but will simply round out his herd as a companion to them.  his goats live in his yard with he and his sons, their chickens, dogs.  "We are all together", he said.  So…he is coming to look.  and we will talk about a little wether.   How so great would That Be???!!!!!  Treking with pack goats that use no tether, just Go along with the man, his boys, his dogs.  sleeping where they get to.   The pictures in my mind are spinning out.

and you know, i wish i had enough time to sit and think it all through, but i dont so i just write what ever comes out of me here as it comes.  but im thinking that it is to do with the recent sense of needing to align to that Higher Order and then trust the goodness of that intention and just go from there.  again…no imagined or needed outcome.   

Letting it.

and maybe too about not being afraid of making mistakes with them.  and somehow, just

Opening

to it all,  they are magnitizing good things to themselves.  they will Just Go too.   and it will all Unfold.

 

 

 

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29 responses to “123 about letting go in a way that i have no idea, but it’s real”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Yes it will all unfold, it will all go as it is meant. By trusting yourself to do what you know and to ask for help in what you probably do know but perhaps needed some reassurance pm. you have done what is right in all ways. When we do that, when we set out with good intentions and give it our honest best, it puts things in motion, often all to the good, all to what is meant to be…

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  2. grace Forrest Avatar

    i’ll save some of these seeds for you.
    Hurry Back

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  3. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Thank you for the seeds; the ones from before are doing so well under the pear tree; soon the xeriscape gravel backyard will have some vines crossing all over… Will see you again after labor day when I get back but before saying goodbye, I have to tell you that I am enjoying a little of the monsoon season grace because again tonight it is raining, enough to thoroughly wet the ground, enough to leave rain drop trails on the window. I took the lid off my cauldron of cloth soaking in desert willow over the summer to capture some of the rain…seeds, rain, cloth, windfall gifts, these are such good things…

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  4. grace Avatar
    grace

    Windfall
    FREEfall

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  5. Valerianna Avatar

    What a great post, Grace – like a tribe of kindred folk forming around your goats – as if they are calling them.
    I loved the goats in Greece… and the herders. I would be hiking waaaay up on the mountain, and then hear the tinkling of bells getting louder and louder until I would be enveloped in a cloud of goats and a man or two yelling, COME, COME.. in Greek – Ella, ella! and other ancient herding sounds. All in a huge glom of dust and sounds and bells and thumping hoofs on dirt paths, and, like a rushing river – gone past, down the path, through the olive groves, over the mountain.

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  6. Nance Avatar
    Nance

    Traveling mercies, marti and safe home!

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  7. grace Avatar
    grace

    oh…THANK YOU for this movie in my mind…i can SEE it
    smell it hear it and now when i call Come Come, i will
    call too Ella, ella!
    i would give my life for a huge glom of dust and bells and thumpings on dirt paths…to have that Freedom would be
    something Other worldly.
    and here, in my small Diorama, i have this maybe one young
    goat who might feel something of that…
    oh,, and EEEEeeee, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS, LOVE

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    i keep reading this.
    Can’t get enough of it.
    Keep reading it, reading it, reading it…
    even if, only
    in my mind…
    this would be so so very very GOOD

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  9. patricia Avatar

    have read this post and comment–re-read–over. and over. and over. reading Valerianna’s lovely description of herders in Greece. reading your reaction of seeing that in your mind’s eye. and yearning for that. wondering what the Greek herder would see if he looked into your world? having the sense that he might also think “i’d give my life for this ‘small Diorama’.” it’s possible. and still thinking about the “settling.” how the stirred up contents of our life can sometime float in suspension as if in some liquid base, in a large jar. and then parts settle to the bottom. to ground. until some cosmic force shakes it all up again. like living in one of those glass thingys we shake to see the snow. until it all settles.
    only to be shaken again until we’re tired of doing it. and leave it alone. for a while.
    oh i’m going on, aren’t i? not sleeping much. very early here. i need to find my way back into solid, beneficial rest. love to you my friend.

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  10. grace Avatar
    grace

    well…you just keep on going on here….i love this
    too, the image is totally perfect, the floating in
    suspension in a large jar….
    and maybe, yes, wake at not yet 3 am let the energy
    out…like a pressure valve…but then go lay down again,
    fall back asleep for a half hour, 20 minutes, an hour
    and begin all over, but without the initial release?
    some Just Going, clearer, less compressed?
    love back

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  11. jude Avatar

    a familiar picture formed in my head.

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  12. beth Avatar

    Those squash guts… I want to squish them into cloth and wrap tightly–I wonder what you might get… But then reading the rest… Smiling. It seems just like the cloth mates here. Goat mates are gathering. Forging the connections.

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  13. Valerianna Avatar

    I never thought of how restricted most of the goats here are… when I think back to goats in Greece – all of them horned – and the HUGENESS of their wandering together…. Herders would walk miles a day with them. Along the stone beach – there, too, I would be lying on a blanket, reading when they would come knocking, jingling, tussling by. I’d forgotten what an event this was, and hadn;t thought about how different herding is here. One doesn’t see large herds walking beaches, wandering up and over mountains all in one day.
    I’m happy you are dreaming with this. And glad you will adopt, ella, ella…. you might also explore some of the amazing ancient goat-herd calls from Norway and thereabouts… so, well, ancient!

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  14. Mo Crow Avatar

    we humans are all gypsies at heart, our souls have retained the trace of freedom in being nomads when we listened to the songlines that defined our way before all the fences were strung and roads were built… we all still need to go “walkabout” every now and then ahe?

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  15. Mo Crow Avatar

    oh and there are still stock routes throughout Australia to move the herds across country.

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  16. Dee Avatar

    This grabs me —
    “and you know, i wish i had enough time to sit and think it all through, but i dont so i just write what ever comes out of me here as it comes. but im thinking that it is to do with the recent sense of needing to align to that Higher Order and then trust the goodness of that intention and just go from there. again…no imagined or needed outcome.”
    perhaps the aligning and the ‘sitting and thinking’ would not partner well?! It is so wonderful how the goats have become your teachers (and hence, ours). I love the language of goats. Thank for the willingness to impart it all as it happens!

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  17. saskia Avatar

    seems like your goat-people-circle is expanding, this is very good I would think, for you and for the goats. I feel relieved, sensing you are not alone in this goat adventure.
    Valerianna’s story stirred a memory: years ago we were on a sailing holiday in Greece and one day my dad walked the island of Ulysses, we couldn’t be bothered, what a shame I now think, but anyway that was then. He was so enamoured with the sound of the goats’ bells so he bought three and they came back home with us and they were hung on the wall and we used to ring them when it was time to come down for dinner. They’re still there, but we no longer live together as a family, spread out over this small country of ours.
    When gathered and a full house once more, we do use them.

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  18. dedri Avatar

    I loved this post because I am of the sitting and thinking mentality and get lost sometimes in the need to control where it is all going. Thoughts are like those goats that go where they want but maybe also where they should go if we can just let them. It is hard at times to trust in that higher order.

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  19. grace Avatar
    grace

    ahhhhhh~

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  20. grace Avatar
    grace

    they are far, but far Goat connections also work very
    well. it’s just so good for word to get around that
    there are Goats here. just that is totally enough.

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  21. grace Avatar
    grace

    i could actually walk with them here, really, along the
    ditch roads…it’s quite beautiful. but there are
    endless loose dogs

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  22. grace Avatar
    grace

    Thank you for the willingness to listen

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  23. grace Avatar
    grace

    in order to have somewhere for the new ones to go, it’s
    necessary. they can then go where they are Needed.
    and then, the thing of Milk when it come…Very important
    for there to be word of mouth connections.

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  24. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes…sigh….i have been working away at this for
    SO long, refining refining refining
    and really, there is absolutely NO point in NOT trusting.
    so interesting, the human mind…

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  25. Mo Crow Avatar

    ah well stray dogs can be a problem with goats, they like chasing them & giving their tails a bit of a nip (from experience)! what about just walking with the goats one or two at a time with a halter & lead for fun and foraging. There’s a fellow here in Newtown who walks his goats down King St, a very busy noisy main drag full of people of all descriptions (there’s more artists, poets, musos & wild things per square foot here than anywhere else I’ve ever lived) trucks, buses & cars bumper to bumper day and night!

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  26. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    i am drawn to the tiny piece of cloth under her beautiful face, and the piece to her left reminds me of a lemon sole!
    such wonderful goat news and how wonderful the tinkling of a cloud of goat bells in Greece, i have experienced this, it takes me back there xxx

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  27. grace Avatar

    Greece is a place i would really like to go…stay awhile…
    listen for those bells….

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  28. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    i have been lucky enough to have been several times. long ago, when i was a nurse, it was about an well earned rest: mostly beach and snorkelling and suchlike. then i started to be more interested in the history and culture, visiting ancient sites and museums.
    the year before we married, boyfriend proposed to me at the top of a hill overlooking Athens; we island hopped, ending up renting a tiny stone cottage while he worked on a lemonade lorry and i in a bar for a few months.
    in 2000, when our children reached the ages of 8 and 10 we island hopped again for 3 weeks.
    you would love it grace, the smells and sounds, food and music and people. so much, just so much

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  29. grace Avatar

    i would. i know i would. but i am never going to see it.
    You are going to have to tell me…….

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