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Julie’s Good Question 5. and enough for now. and THANK YOU Julie

i dreamed last night.  it was a HUGE DREAM.  technicolor,  wizardry of Special Effects.

and again.  the Goats are in the dream.  this might be the 4th time?  in the last week or so?  not usual.

so…unless others want to continue on, i think i will give this a rest.  it's by no means done with, but it has come to an Unexpected Place where it can rest a while, maybe.

and i want to thank ALL of YOU that come here and participate in my Life with me.  it's really magnificant and i am beyond Grateful for it.  

and i want to thank you JULIE for asking.  little did you know, it would allow me so much Freedom as it has.  your question was more simple than my answer but your question ALLOWED my answer to become what it has.  and in this moment,  i am so grateful for this.

in trying to be Coherent in my answer,  i was able to see things differently than i have when it is just me and my mind.  it tends to be so much more circular that way…

here, i needed to lay it on the table.  let the light shine on it.  look.

and where i am with it all now is that really, for the first time i was able to see kind of clearly how i have a Propensity (buddhist term) to do things.  how it appears Sudden.  and how, Really, honestly, it ISN'T thought out…as in…how it might go…what might happen.  it is limited to the Going itself.  without a lot, or really ANY forethought.  Something seems Right.  really Right.  so

OK

GO!

and in this moment, looking at all this has brought up, all the images of the SlideShow,  ….. i really TRUST it.  it has moved me through a Life and so many Experiences.  it is GOOD. very GOOD.  and as we have said…no regrets.  and what that means to me in this moment is that i have suddenly (that word again) realized that there is no reason to imagine it won't continue that way until i'm dead.  that even now, when time is not Endless anymore,  when it is finite,  i can

Just Go.

Just Go.  i can totally.  TOTALLY.  let go.  let go.  let go of concern.   What Will BE will RISE UP as the NEXT and i will be Ready.  BUT/AND i don't need to project anything at all into the Future.

What comes comes.   THIS is really really so very BEAUTY FULL…i cannot tell you.  there is such a just so Light Freedom to it.  and i am noticing it in all the small ways one does in the days, yesterday and today when a thought comes unbidden…a Challenging Thought…habitual….and

i find self 

remembering.  Remembering that things will take Care of themselves.  They have.  They will.

it's all just so OK.

LOVE….

 

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28 responses to “Julie’s Good Question 5. and enough for now. and THANK YOU Julie”

  1. Sharon Tomlinson Avatar
    Sharon Tomlinson

    Amazing insight! that give me so much to think about.

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    Sharon…i re read this post and thought it sounded too dumb. too
    simple and i was sad because it is not at all dumb or simple. although it kindof IS, but Not Really….
    so…THANK YOU for having a sense of what i am trying to say…for
    letting me know that. it is so Good. Thank You……love,

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  3. Nance Avatar
    Nance

    Isn’t that the way though, grace? The most important things…most profound things, are really so very basic. I didn’t realize that propensity was a Buddhist term. I do believe in propensity… In that we resonate with certain things… It seems to be connected to what we think is intuition too. But that is how we can live if we listen.

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  4. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    yes.

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  5. patricia Avatar
    patricia

    thank you Grace for allowing this song to come into my heart this morning.
    “Tis the gift to be simple,
    ’tis the gift to be free,
    ’tis the gift to come down
    where we ought to be,
    and when we find ourselves in the place just right,
    ’twill be in the valley of love and delight.
    When true simplicity is gained
    to bow and to bend we shan’t be ashamed,
    to turn, to turn, will be our delight
    till by turning, turning we come round right.”

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  6. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Stay with each day; I know this but it has only been in the past 10 years that I have come to embrace this inwardly, to know that the moment is the gift of the day. As I am spending the summer with my grandchildren, this lesson is manifested daily because children see the day, just the day, in terms of possibilities and wonder and the freedom to be…my little granddaughter likes to ask over breakfast, “Grammie, what will today bring?” My answer, “whatever you want it to bring” and then she and her brother, begin their day with their plans…sometimes I structure an activity but always, there is that suspended moment when we three know that is is time to go and visit the world outside our door…feel the misty fog, sniff the sea air, listen for birdsong and just go into the day…

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  7. Doris Avatar
    Doris

    The last three days I read all your posts to Julies questions and it gave me a lot a lot to think. Even if I made complete different experiences in my life and life lead me to complete different places there is this “What comes comes” “let go of concern” and thats just what I feel is right- Even if I cannot live it everytime… but I´m so sure that this is the essential to learn. And I thank you Grace for giving it these words.

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  8. Sharon Tomlinson Avatar
    Sharon Tomlinson

    You are welcome Grace, and there was nothing simple or dumb about all of your words. I found it amazing that you went down the memory path and discovered or maybe had this admission to your self:
    “…realized that there is no reason to imagine it won’t continue that way until i’m dead. that even now, when time is not Endless anymore, when it is finite…”
    That is what spoke to me as I too am where you are in life years.
    Thank you

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  9. beth Avatar
    beth

    Loved hearing your story to know the roots of the here and now Grace. But even more so, loved to watch what the telling brought to you. As I said, I moved so much as a kid. Then it was a just going along since I had no power over it. Now, I have been in this house that we built for almost 20 years and feel very rooted to this place. But I think what makes the ease of just going feel burdensome is STUFF and the weight of it. And I have too much stuff. Some lightening must happen for me before I am faced with another going. So you have made me see this a little more clearly.

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  10. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    just googled “propensity in Buddhist terms” & am loving the idea of karmic seeds, thank you Grace!

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  11. lindamorris Avatar
    lindamorris

    loving graces tale and thoughts and everyones comments.
    re stuff…this very week, our little usually quiet slocan valley ( BC ) is in the news bcz big accidental fuel tank spill on one side (river ) and forest fire on the ridge behind us. just like that, have to think about possibility of evacuating ..and what stuff would i bring , i made two lists, one if i had an hours notice to leave, and a further one if i had a day. has been a really interesting exercise , nothing like Pressure to make me see what i really value.i figure the things not on either list , maybe should just Go from my life.bcz truthfully like you beth, i need to be lightened and like the little quaker song says above, simple and free and like grace says ” look to this day ” lot of wisdom here thanks fellows all ! !

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  12. Jennie Avatar
    Jennie

    just back from a 5 day intensive retreat, with so much stuff having come up, mostly regrets, and amazed by your recounting and grateful for your time spent recounting it all with us, and wondering”
    WHAT IF?

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  13. julie Avatar
    julie

    you are quite welcome, what would the block be without Gladys Kravitz?
    It was amazing to sit by the fire with your story this week, like watching all the episodes of a miniseries back to back. The icing on the story cake is this post today, it is lovely to feel you envelope Your Life As It Looks from Here with affection.

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  14. Jennie Avatar
    Jennie

    immediate 2nd thought:
    return to “where you live is important, how you spend your days is more important, this moment is most important.’
    time to flush and move on…people’s trailer or just within………

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i know that song like i know my own heartbeat

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Sharon, yes, more like an “admission to self”…yes.
    more like a realization at a very vulnerable heart level what i could intellectually verbalize…it has become Real.

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    well….it’s not a buddhist term in and of it self, but
    is used in buddhist teachings as a word westerners
    understand

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    love,

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i’d like to go along once…i can imagine you, Grammie…

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Doris…it’s GOOD that the details differ…but that
    the Heart is the same.
    none of us can live it every time. but each time we do,
    it becomes more second nature, yes?
    Thank YOU for knowing this….

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  21. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    it seems that Lighten ing is always good. i think of how the Earth lightens itself with change in season. maybe we can think of it like that?

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  22. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    and there we Go!…i’d like to know how you work with
    this Unforseen Circumstance…

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  23. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. and it feels exactly like that to me

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    you know, i read this and thought…you never would have
    done this Retreat if you weren’t ready

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. what a good word…affection. yes.

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  26. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Jennie…you really ARE at a Now What? moment….
    maybe just let it all settle for a few days?
    LOVE,

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  27. lindamorris Avatar
    lindamorris

    thanks grace, week has been a little traumatic so far, but all okay, will keep you posted how i go. i love the earth metaphor.and will think on it thank you for saying it, it feels like it is a ‘key ‘ .

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  28. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    earth is always the best key

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