it's very quiet out there. i would even be able to say PeaceFull. i think this is the first evening in maybe 3 weeks or a month that the two mother Goats have been able to lie down and chew their cud in the evening hours. it's funny, that i'd not really clicked on the Whole of that. i was aware that it was intense and noisey. that Lucky Star and Caroline were calling out and calling out and nothing i could do seemed to relieve them. i thought it was because LS had 4 kids. and that Caroline is not so much a long time Mother. she does what she needs to but also likes her own space. but tonight, it seems that it may have been these two things, but also the increasing level of testosterone out there. the two banded bucklings are quiet. they are eating and drinking water. Nursing too. but then they lie down to rest. they are not double ly driven…to nurse as babies and to nudge and prod and push like little buck Goats. Nogal, the one that i left Whole, is more placid by nature.
so..i am learning.
i have to let this Daughter one go to full bloom. One more time. i will love her. totally and Care Fully and completely. and then, before she can seed, i will pull her. but This, for now.
this morning. the peacock feather had slid behind the curtain.
and here's whats happening here. nothing that you see is necessarily going to stay. it's all just Looking. but i think it's how it's going to go. Out from under the edges of Spirit, life just Goes, in all its ways and all its forms. ??????



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