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i have been in a MOOD all day.  

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even before it did,  i Knew it was coming.   this is Way before light…..

 

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fumbling around in the dark this morning, i knocked the dictionary off the top of the Books of Knowledge that sit on the shelf.   as i was picking up all the stuff that fell on the floor,  i picked up this…my favorite bumper sticker which i had been looking for for a long time.   the silver lining.

 

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and i referred to her.  several times.  assuming the Look.  it helped.  at least i was able to watch Self as i indulged in my mood.  was able to get some objectivity.  was able to see that for whatever reason,  i was uhhh,  engaging willingly with the Mood.

i rarely have them anymore.  so…i guess it's interesting.   some say, Never let the sun set on your anger or something like that.  here it would be Never let the sun set on your Mood.  but i seem to be.  There have been moments of reprieve from it, like when i was catching the babies for the night.  it was gone then.  

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but coming back in to the house,  i noticed it is still here.  so i got the camera to take a pic of "looking at one's house in the dark in September  while having a Mood."

ok.  that's it.

 

 

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14 responses to “207”

  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    OHO…this is literature Grace, FINE literature in every sense. It just totally evokes YOU and the space and a MOOD…totally.
    Over here, I’ve been pretty moody too, sick of hobbling on the twisted leg, almost resenting the cane, then my body, then me, then, like you, as soon as I get out of myself to attend others, I’m momentarily relieved.
    It;s just the time of the seasons, the changes…the ‘appearing and disappearing’ over at Spirit Cloth…well, tomorrow is another day–probably :->

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    ohhh. yes. having you mirror it back for me, i get a little
    reprieve, a lightness, thinking…yes…how funny, a
    MOOD…. a ~mood~
    as i said, i don’t have Moods much anymore. and really, i am totally noticing that for the first time here. ! i don’t. hmm…when
    did That dissipate???? don’t have a clue. it’s like when you have
    a toothache or a vaginal itch. it drives you nuts. then, all of a
    sudden one day you realize that it’s gone. HAS been gone since who know’s when….?

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  3. Nance Avatar
    Nance

    Mood indigo? If I were as on top of it as mo, I would have a link for you… But I’m not.and I don’t. xoxo

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  4. handstories Avatar
    handstories

    I remember a smart cookie of a woman saying to me a couple of years ago, when I was wallowing, “… but the best part of it is that once you have thoroughly devoted yourself to it, it just kinda wears itself out. and you find yourself kinda just looking at it and finding something else to do.” love.

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  5. Minka Avatar
    Minka

    So true. This makes it less powerful, just knowing this.

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  6. handstories Avatar
    handstories

    this is not to say you are wallowing, just that i think your good advice applies to many a mood. x

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  7. patricia Avatar
    patricia

    just wondering–the point when you “knew it was coming.” did thoughts play into the coming of mood? asking because i’ve been looking at this myself. asking if thoughts create states of being–moods. or like Kurt Vonnegut contended, are they a result of bad chemicals? or do thoughts create bad chemicals? i don’t know. but that gap–the place where YOU are watching you experiencing a mood. that is the place that interests me as well. big place. much love to you.

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  8. jude Avatar
    jude

    moods used to keep me from functioning, now they are like concentrated pools of awareness. i love taking pictures in the dark.

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  9. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    I love these last few lines…

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  10. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    what I love about this daily writing that you are doing Grace, is that you are tracking everything that comes up. . .over the course of a year. or a lifetime. and then everyone who visits adds their own facet to the subject.
    yesterday started out strong for me. peaceful. and then I began to feel pressure and sadness in my ‘high heart’ area. . .between heart and throat. and it wasn’t My Mood. but it was energy of mood. and it’s something I have been learning over the past few years. that we could attach our own thoughts to that energy and decide that it is ours. or we could observe it. . .perhaps wonder who it belongs to or where it came from. so now I ask myself, is this mine? sometimes it is, but more often it is just part of the river. so, was it your mood, or the river?

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  11. beth Avatar
    beth

    I was in that place of mood also yesterday–isn’t that odd so many of us were… I kept thinking of that quote that goes something like: if you don’t like something change it, or else change the way you are thinking about it. And today things look so different. Creating our own realities.

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  12. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    I love this post and all the reflections here especially Jude’s-
    “moods used to keep me from functioning, now they are like concentrated pools of awareness. i love taking pictures in the dark.”
    there is always a mark to be made no matter how we feel & you have captured the feeling of “Moodiness” beautifully Grace.

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  13. helen lee Avatar
    helen lee

    Moody here today too.
    Moody Blues? Tuesday Afternoon….
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEMuAnFH_lM&list=TLOshOqXnMv_u_k8627pJowY8Upu4_fC58
    Love your:
    “looking at one’s house in the dark in September while having a Mood.”

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  14. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    strange things moods, sometimes intractable and sometimes not… and i know that feeling of watching myself whilst in a mood and yet still not being able to shake out of it

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