today,  This Moment, Now, was a lot about Goat.  and not about "future Goat", but today Goat.

Lucky Star's left teet seems uhhhh, clogged.  so twice i applied the cureall from Molly's Herbals : olive oil, comfrey, calendula, bees wax, tea tree oil, lavendar, essential oils and vitamin E.  and then,

the tincture:  alcohol, water, white willow, fever few, valerian, st. johns wort, licorice and stevia.

i think the teet is tired.  it's Nogal's side and he has become rough.  he needs to be moved in with the bucks and take his big Chance.  

and then.  Celia was suddenly SCREAMING.  and i mean SCREAMING.  i ran out and there she was, her right leg wedged in a space of the picnic table.  WEDGED.  there was Nothing to do but to force her leg, her knee, OUT.  FORCE.  the only other thing would have been to go find a saw and take the forever to hand saw the large pieces of wood.  no…she was SCREAMING.  so i lifted her even with the trapped knee and pushed pushed pushed her leg out.  She sat.  on my lap.  panting. maybe 20 minutes while everyone else gathered around and sniffed her and chewed on my hair, my skin, my clothes.  it's all a Goat can do.  mouth and nibble.  they have no hands.  they have no hands. 

they have no hands.

and finally, when i let her down she limped over to the rocks and lay down.  but within maybe 20 min was up and at the feed bowl.  there appears to be no residual swelling?  i'll look again in a while.  but again.  the question always arises.  What if i had not been home?  and like when  Mercy  was hanging from her hind leg,  from the tarp rope,  she was almost done for.  So…i guess that baby Goats are sometimes just Done For.  ok.    but not this time.

and before that and amidst that,  i did two other things.  I finally listened to the On Being interview that Krista Tippett did with Thich Nhat Hahn…Mindfullness, Suffering, and Engaged Buddhism.  Patricia, Followingthread.wordpress.com,   blogged it.  and i thought a lot about Why, when it's all so simple, why do we not let go of Monkey Mind.  

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and i stitched the kantha side.  doesn't look like much progress.  but it was hours of stitching.

and all the while, i called my mind back.  i called it back to the breathing, the stitching, the Now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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20 responses to “216 mindfullness….of this Moment. Now.”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    My heart just about dropped when I read of little Celia screaming, my little namesake goat and I love how you just did what was necessary to free her and then held her. Thank you. You were in the Now of this goat emergency, you were in the Now of your stitching – breathing care and attention to both.
    I should mention that when grace came to our home, she brought this piece of cloth that she calls River and I call Mujer del Rio Grande, woman of the Rio Grande. It is a powerful cloth when viewed on my laptop screen. When viewed up close and touching it, this cloth hums with vitality and a deep knowing and the song that I hear echoes the songs of La Loba, of coming to a place where one finds her soul…a place where land and heart wisdom flow…

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    it’s 8:o5. i just went out to separate them for the night. her
    leg is ok. she is ok. and she knows me better, now. like Mercy.
    Mercy knew me better when i bit through the rope. they don’ forget
    these things.
    i was so afraid. i was so afraid of making her hurt more, of
    hurting her more. but there was nothing else to do. no choice,
    really. la chanca. take the chance.
    and i did. i was stitching when i heard her first scream. and
    after it was over, i stitched again.
    it’s all we can do.
    stitch around things.

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Brilliant cloth. Brilliant attention in emergency. Oh beautiful Kantha and you dear Grace.

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  4. Mo Crow Avatar

    and sew it goes

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  5. patricia Avatar

    ahhhhhhhh. it’s one thing to practice when no thing is arising. but to continue. in the eye of the hurricane. and you did and now to think the cloth is now holding that for you. powerful cloth. powerful practice.

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  6. roz Avatar
    roz

    i am VERY grateful for my hand.

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  7. roz Avatar
    roz

    both of them

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  8. jude Avatar

    maybe the screams are woven in. eventually.

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  9. beth Avatar

    Some of these posts just make me tremble. You capture in words so well the doing of what needs to be done. A day in the life. Stitching it all together. Thoughtfulness. Love.

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  10. grace Avatar
    grace

    the season is Brilliance. may i reflect some small
    piece of the Season

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  11. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes.

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    Practice.
    maybe
    i am getting it a little. maybe i can let the Whole of
    Anything at All be
    Practice.
    i would like that.

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. our hands.
    what gifts, our hands.
    what work to use them Well.

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    they are. they lie loosely and then
    are woven in

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    beth…there is no choice anymore.
    i said Ok.
    now, i need to DO the ok.
    i will like how this “turns out”.

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  16. saskia Avatar

    poor goat and how very excellent your bravery; I love the kantha stitching, absolutely LOVE it

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  17. Minka Avatar

    The stitching really integrates the components. It will be beautiful.

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    it is such an amazement watching how the stitches
    change things, and the FEEL of it…., love the FEEL of
    it with stitches

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  19. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    oh poor celia, the fear for her and you! so glad she was ok

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