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248 watching a day go by

i mostly slept.  how interesting.  to just sleep.  get up for a moment, look out the window,  go lay down.

i'd forgotten about flu.  it's very powerful.  

so fed Them and slept.  at around 3 oclock,  i went to the dump.  the truck had trash in it from 3 days ago.  the dump will not be open again until Wednesday and i will need the truck before that to haul grass hay.  so, no choice.  i took each single thing, one by one and put it in the bin.  took forever, but i did it.  squatting to rest inbetween.

and i thought about a lot of things while drifting in and out of sleep.   and it was also such an incredibly beautiful glowing soft warm day outside and not being able to DO things was hard.

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coralberry bush

 

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very well might be the last day(s) for the leaves on the tree and i missed it.  i missed a whole day.

 

 

 

 

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33 responses to “248 watching a day go by”

  1. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    That corralberry bush is stunning!! I know what its like to miss whole days, disorienting, definitely. Feel better soon!!

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  2. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    yes. I don’t know coralberry. I know it feels like a missed day in some sense but another way to view is that it was a day to allow the season to pass through you. migration time is powerful and a day of rest/sleep is powerful as well. perhaps you surrendered to the earth time.

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Very very beautiful visions from your yard.
    illness is a revelation. surprising and unexpected.
    I’m hobbled still, and notice everything takes so long.
    I went to the marathon anyway and never made it to the poetry reading
    ran out of energy in the chill early evening as the temperature dropped to the thirties…and with the incredible crowds, it took forever just to get home.
    So okay.
    Okay dear Grace. Sleep and keep watch on your body

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  4. Nance Avatar
    Nance

    These were my thoughts too, jan…just surrender to the earth…and that coral berry I have never ever heard of or seen it before. It must give great dye! And those leaves on the ground could just be scooped up and put in a pot! They will wait for you to feel better. Blessings…

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  5. Linda Avatar
    Linda

    i am amazed that you have the flu and still can make such a great blog post.
    i wish you sweet dreams.

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  6. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    Hope you will be on the mend soon, but also hope that you can relax and lean into this down time where a different kind of living, observing and appreciation takes place.
    Your images are beautiful and restful…seen from your unique heart and vantage point.
    Take care my friend.

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  7. patricia Avatar
    patricia

    i too am in the jaws of some thing like this so understand the feeling of days missed. holding you in my heart and hoping today you turn the corner.

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  8. Susan C Avatar
    Susan C

    Wishing you well, grace. Hope you are on the mend and able to do all that is a beautiful day very soon.

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  9. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Well I would say that you didn’t miss the day because the simple beauty of the day, you brought to us here with the photo of the coralberry bush and the falling golden leaves…Sometimes getting sick is the only way our body has to tell us to step back and take some time for ourselves, turn the outer day into an inner day where the focus rests on ourselves and letting things take their course. In this case, letting your body rest as it deals with flu, cold, etc. It’s important to let it happen, not fight it because slowing down to tend to the self is just as important as getting outside to tend to your dear goats, your plant people, etc.

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  10. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Although Taos is far from Polvadera…it occurs to me there might be some goat helper there so, if you can contact them via Neem Karoli Baba Ashram – Taos, New Mexico
    http://www.nkbashram.org/ and ask….perhaps

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  11. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    “to sleep, perchance to dream”

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  12. saskia Avatar
    saskia

    hope you’re starting to feel better after all that sleep

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    very strange.

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    i don’t know. it just felt like i’d died in a way.

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    like your words…about your forays on those city streets.
    i can’t imagine.

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    you know, i slept SO many hours, and another Kindness…
    i didn’t remember dreams. what a gift that was!

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    you know..am looking at that “lean into this down time”.
    i can’t really. it all just Waits.

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    we hold for each other

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  19. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. it’s already coming.

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  20. grace Avatar
    grace

    not this sick. as i said. i felt like i died.

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  21. grace Avatar
    grace

    it’s very far…
    but what a beautiful link…

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  22. grace Avatar
    grace

    oh eeee perchance to just sleep. i loved that i just
    slept. the dreaming i am prone to would for sure have
    worn me out.

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  23. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. but the sleep was really just to make the time go
    by because awake i was helpless. could do nothing at
    all. i get a lot of sleep ordinarily. plenty. and
    i sleep any time if feel like it. so…the sleep this
    day was more like a kind of self defence of sorts.

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  24. handstories Avatar
    handstories

    it is something- how you still found beauty in this passing by day. I hope you are in your new dress, and comforted. xox

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  25. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    i understand.

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  26. grace Avatar
    grace

    it was really interesting. again, i rarely even get a
    cold. so this was like being completely socked. and
    it was like that yesterday. i really felt like i didn’t
    know which way it might go. and also, didn’t give much
    thought to that somehow. it was a really Primitive form
    of something. trying to breathe. looking. trying to
    breathe. and really, after a point, not have any “opinion”.
    i don’t yet know how to give it words. but it was just
    this very very soft soft sense of
    …..oh….

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  27. grace Avatar
    grace

    and i remembered distinctly at some moment early in the day talking to the Old Cowboy a few months ago when he got so
    scared because he “couldn’t get a good breath”..and was
    afraid he would die. i told him then, that that’s how it
    goes. that there is that moment when there is FEAR and then
    you well, can’t get the good breath. and i thought you just kind of “faint” and then, you just Go.
    telling him at the time, i wondered if that was really how
    it goes. i thought so, but really, couldn’t be SURE. but
    yesterday, i felt like i’d told him the truth. here/not
    its really a very subtle event.

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  28. grace Avatar
    grace

    i was and am now. and i am very reassured about Everything.
    that there is beauty. and it’s the Beauty that rises up
    and shows itself amidst anything at all. this is an
    important understanding.

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  29. grace Avatar
    grace

    i thought of janie

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  30. handstories Avatar
    handstories

    she was probably visiting you…in her dresses.

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  31. grace Avatar
    grace

    looking for me. and
    she had dresses??????????????? she DID?????!!!!, but of course! she would. of course.

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  32. handstories Avatar
    handstories

    she always wore dresses, those loose long ones in the 90’s, often more than one, with leggings or a dancer’s body suit w/legs. She never got hot, being from Texas, I’d be in a tank top and shorts under a tree sweating & she’d be in the garden & sun with all of those layers on. She made some of them, by hand (she hated using machines of any kind). I need to find a photo of her to send you…..

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  33. Minka Avatar
    Minka

    I’ve been away and see that you have. Been ill. Hope things are getting easier. Never heard of coralberry. Looks like the color of cooked beets.

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