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i did a LOT of this.  tying fencing to the metal Tposts with baling wire.  A LOT.  i shored up all the weak spots on the Buck fence.    and yes.  that IS Goat POOP, the little balls in that little green feeder that i put their minerals in.  Somehow Goats manage to poop in everything.  it's a phenomenon.

 

 

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Gideon and Nogal were particularly interested.

 

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i opened the little door into the right side of the Albatros.  ( The Albatros being what i call the barn shed which is now just for Goats.  it was originally built for Auto Repair but never used for that.  Never really had Purpose.  hence,  Albatros…just a huge thing with no purpose hanging around my neck out there.  Now, however, very purposefull.)   anyway  i opened that right side that has been empty since Buckwheat was over on that side and then gone to Los Cruces.  just unused.  

 

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this is the cattle panel that divides the Albatros in half with entrys on both sides.  Gates on both sides now.

 

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this is the side that Lucky Star, Caroline, Karma and Celia have been using.  

 

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Caroline and her daughter Karma particularly interested.

So…ok.  The Decision has been made.  Tomorrow morning i will open the back Coridoor and let Those 4 Goats run back and forth for a while.   Then……………………………………………..

 

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I'll open the gate that is at the far back of this pic.    All the doe Goats will BURST through, burst through where you see the dog Chinche here….

 

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whiz around the salt cedar

 

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and into this gate that will be OPEN with me inside with their bucket of pellets to cheer them on.

THEN.  for a few days all of Them can get used to eachother again.  All the does can get used to the two young ones smell, sound.   Lucky Star can Think about how it is.  and MAYBE after a few days, i can open the Corridor and they can all be one herd again.  THEN,  i can run them ALL back and forth from this Front  to the Way Back .  Maybe even every day.  But during those hard days of January when it gets SO cold and snows or rains,  everyone will have a dry place to be.

The Truth is…..and this is for the part of this Blog that is my own personal Journal of my Life,  the Truth is that i have a really really hard time with this.  People i can manage.  the Old Cowboy, Alz B,  even the thought of mySelf,   but animals….they are my Weakness.  i am Responsible for them.  and the Truth is,  i have been very anxious, nervous about all this now for months.  i have put it off.  put it off.  put it off.  There is no point.  it will go how it will go.  i have done every single thing i  can think of to make it ok.   Time now to just Go.  o Kay.

so.  Tomorrow.

 

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and maybe then i can really get back to Cloth.

 

 

 

 

 

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22 responses to “299 ok. i will tell the Truth”

  1. judy keathley Avatar

    dear dear grace.
    how oh how do you juggle all this.( excuse me but you are not 35)
    i know what you mean about animals.
    lordy.
    what you are doing/how you are doing it is an act of pure love.
    surely there is nothing more a body can do.
    nothing more.
    xo

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  2. ² Avatar
    ²

    a knew that feeling ,the anxious,breath it out, dont let it be hangin as the sword of Damocles , the way you care for them is divine a big human thing to do it will be o.k.

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  3. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    hi grace, you have done everything you know to keep them safe. and I would guess that they will surprise you in some way. there are just so many of them. and one of your dear self. yet you have a plan, and a way of going. . .how you would like it to be. so perhaps you can be the observer and not feel like you need to rush to their aid. . .let them figure some of it out and see what happens. I understand that hard part. . .planning for everything.

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  4. Tracy Leppold Avatar
    Tracy Leppold

    Good luck with the goats tomorrow. Do you have to be a bit of a goat anthropologist to deal with them?; How do you figure out their society, pecking orders, etc. I hope it goes the way you need it to and that things will be easier afterwards. And then, Cloth. I love your spirit house. All the sheltering arch shapes are very inviting.

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  5. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    …….Boy-oh-boy! That was such a clear narrative, I was with you every minute of my reading it. Then I carefully went through again, stopping to be with the goats and the spaces at each shot. The last paragraph, the personal journal just put the perfect twist on it. Not, that it was contrived to do so…I’m a writer, and I see narrative, and think in terms of story power. This was, aside from being news of dear you, and the goats, a powerful piece of writing. It being Christmas day for many, all that labor and thoughtfulness was a practical illustration of the love, and rebirth the day really represents.

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  6. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Que via bien…may it go well today and it will. Do not be so hard on yourself re the putting this off, I think you have needed to think this through, and you have. So now,rest easy because you have done all that was required and then some. You have provided protection for them against the elements of January. Jenny said to you about not letting the personal come into it but it is the fact that this is personal, these goats are family and so you do what is needed and more than needed so that all will be well. Look at how they thrive, they do so because of your deep caring and love… You say you can manage people and I know you use your instincts to do so, it is the same here with the goats. Trust your sense of it all; it is more than enough.

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  7. patricia Avatar

    the timing feels right. hormones receding to normal. cold weather. winter. yes. it feels just right. and you there–with the bucket of feed. i’m smiling.

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  8. beth Avatar

    So much thought and preparation. I’ll be cheering them on with you in spirit. May it go smoothly.

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  9. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Well my fingers didn’t type what my mouth said in Spanish – meant to write, Que vaya bien !

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  10. Linda Avatar

    i wish there was a video of all this. would make us all happy to see them coming to you..

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  11. Mo Crow Avatar

    go well (((Grace and the goat family)))

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  12. yvette Avatar

    it will go smoothly
    trust me
    trust what the cloth already shows you
    but i can feel the anciousness
    what would it be a wonder if we could speak animal talk
    have faith and be the leader
    love
    love
    love

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    hOW?…i Have to. I said i would. I gave my word. to daughter and to Them. and no…i am almost twice 35….
    and i thank you for saying that, that it’s an act of pure love because there is no other way to look at it. it’s
    BIG and often HARD and often NOT CONVENIENT. but…i
    look at them…and well, yes. as you say. an act of love.
    and really, what else is there worth much of anything in the end?????

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes… if i lived on some ACRES, i would turn them out…
    in the morning and say…GO! live your life!!!!
    but it’s not so. we are stuck here and we have our
    Karma of that…and so…..

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    You are totally Right. that thing about when i said to
    my daughter….”it’s so hard to Watch!” and she said
    “Then don’t Look”
    you are so totally right and i am WAY gratefull to you
    for reminding me…YES….
    if i’ve done all i can think of………

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    in some way the Cloth making and all this Goat comotion
    is the Same. One feeds the other

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    i try to write it Clear. i try to just tell of the day, in it’s plain ness or in it’s glory as i feel it. but i try to find the most simple way to tell it, this story that i am IN……

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    there is much here to consider. WHY? are people so much more “easy” for me? i guess words. OR, their own Karma.
    i need to consider Karma for Goats….i’ve never thought
    about that….is there?

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  19. grace Avatar
    grace

    thing is…that Nigerian Dwarves don’t follow that hormone thing that other goats do. they are like women. year round. monthly…………….
    but the bucket…the bucket still works….just like it does for me…offer me something i LOVE and well…………

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  20. grace Avatar
    grace

    am glad you are HERE

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  21. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. that’s all there really is to say, yes?
    Go Well

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  22. grace Avatar
    grace

    yvette…i would give ANYTHING, EVERYTHING to share
    language with them….sound/meaning
    but i have to instead listen, watch, feel which is in itself some kind of language, some kind of exchange
    and maybe, really,
    it’s almost better this way, that it’s hard and takes such
    concentration and love?????

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