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Earth.   there is imbalance with the left so dark,  but could there be good reason for that?  Can imbalance be for good reason?   What if i left it this way?   i need to wait until the morning to look again.  nothing is stitched down at all.

 

To Alz B.

 

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to Lumber yard/hardware.  my own creation.  The Salon.   About which again, the mustang woman Patricia was right.   i tried to make it Not right.  i tried to say (to self)  that the hoof work could be done in the shed when they are up in the Front.   Down the road, this very well may become true.  But for now, especially since there is no milking going on,  it's in the Way Back that there will be the most comfort.  so in this very front corner,  the Salon.   Had a 16ft cattle panel cut twice.  8ft and 5ft.  Small enough and big enough.  i'll bring the milking stand into it.    that cement block will be buried, will be invisible and the post sunk into one of the holes*…the end sticking up which looks like i have beavers,   that will be buried.   a 2×4  afixed to the fence for the 5ft gate hinges.  then the gate and the 8ft length can be closed together with a single simple clip.   it's not for Keeping any one IN, just to indicate a seperate space where certain things happen.  the gate will be opened.  any one will be invited in,  up on the milking stand.   and then the gate closed.   the hoof work can happen.  first the hoof training.  then the hoof work.  Everyone else can watch.  Goats are really into watching others of ThemSelves do things.  They see it happen and they want to try.  am counting on that.  Snowbunny of course will be first.   she loves the milking stand.   We'll see.  There was GREAT GREAT WIND today and this is as far as i could get.  maybe tomorrow to do the actual "construction"….but i'm feeling  quite competent.  i like feeling competent.   *the buried cement block was my invention for not wanting to mix concrete.  and also,  it makes the post removable.  so the whole thing can be taken apart and used elsewhere for other purposes if needed. 

Reading more in Preparing to Die.  Got to the more complex esoteric parts,  but within those pages was this quote of Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche  "It is said that every thought that occurs in the mind, especially if it is watered with intention, is planting a seed for an entire lifetime.  If I am sitting here feeling upset….then according to Buddhist tradition, I am planting the seed of a rebirth into that realm of irritation.  I will be unfolding that thought for who-knows-how-long"    Can't get more simple than that.   What do i water with intention?

 

 

 

 

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36 responses to “imbalance”

  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Us! You definitely shower us with your intentions :->

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  2. grace Avatar

    yes…us, including me…US. the Thing that We Are
    Together. yes. this is a good watering. even when
    what i put here is what i would consider dull. it’s
    honest, it’s the day i had and so…yes. to water
    that with intention…to water a plain day of nothing much because i know we all have them. we are together in that, too.

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  3. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    it’s okay to feel upset grace. there is more than enough to be upset about. however, if we intend, or decide, to continue feeling upset. . .to hold onto that feeling rather than transmute it, then it will be ours to work with for a long time.
    and then, of course, there is the shared intention of relationship. we can’t do all the work on our own.

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  4. grace Avatar

    yes. exactly. the irritations, the upsets, the real or perceived
    negativities appear…those seeds are blown by the winds of living.
    Yes. but to “hold onto that feeling” ….that’s the thing. see
    it for what it is and let it go. do not water it. do not nurture it.
    for me…as in the responsibility for Karma’s event…
    See it for what it was and then Just Go. Learn.
    not to let it color the Whole of this thing of Goats/me/Life.
    so many examples…i thought about how i wrote about Alz B and her
    use of the word…what was it? i can’t even remember it now….
    but the creepy word she had for so much. and i thought…Why do i
    choose to remember that to that degree? what Good does it serve?
    do i wish to water that memory in my relationship to her now? No.
    so…let it go.
    not to be a pollyanna. but to just see things for what they are
    and choose what to water, what to nuture. to choose what Serves
    the Whole. that isn’t always pretty and lovely either. but to
    really pay attention. and there is always that FeltSense…the
    knowing, to direct the way

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  5. yvette Avatar

    the opposit is born the minute something upsetting moves you
    it natures law to stay balanced
    so your good is others bad
    nothing changes actually
    hugggg

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  6. grace Avatar

    it’s true. Everything is always there,
    in constant motion
    and yes…nothing changes, actually…
    LOVE

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  7. Deb G Avatar

    Thank you for sharing that thought, it was very important for me. I’ve had a difficult week and I need to remember to let it go, not keep watering it.

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  8. grace Avatar

    yes. it’s so simple, yet so complex to talk about.
    yes. there ARE difficult weeks. difficult experiences.
    they are part of the package…
    it’s the holding on to things
    these are Patricia’s words, “does it Serve?”
    in any moment, it MAY serve, to TEACH something, but then…
    does it need to be watered? does it need to become part
    of the Garden?
    for all of us, everything is different, but the question is
    good. if our answer is Yes. then so be it.
    if the answer is no, then…let it go. send it along
    with all good wishes, but send it along.

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  9. Deb G Avatar

    I’m going to write that quote out and post it on my board at work (along side the quote that “all problems can be solved with a spoon and peanut butter!”).

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  10. grace Avatar

    i’ll be interested in knowing how it works for you, IF it
    does…the Peanut butter one for SURE does.

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  11. judykeathley@cox.net Avatar
    judykeathley@cox.net

    this is SO SO good.
    all these words here.
    sometimes so EASY to water thoughts —
    to make a case for whatever it is —
    to justify —
    but at what cost —
    &
    ultimately
    ‘does it serve?”
    & by the way –the buried cement block is quite brilliant. i will probably steal the idea.

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  12. grace Avatar

    if you steal the cement block idea and post it on
    Pinterest, be sure….be sure…to credit me. it’s the
    only brilliant idea i have ever had and i am very proud
    of it.
    you dig as deep as you can, sink the cement block…stick
    the post in and slowly fill it with dirt, jamming it down
    with your boot as you go. it turns out to be very strong
    a solution. but also, one that you can Undo at any point.
    i like the possibility of Undoing things.
    i think that’s really the POINT…does it Serve?
    i would like to become more and more skillfull in letting
    stuff go. in not watering/nurturing. and not judgeing
    either. something in me, that FeltSense, ALWAYS knows…
    if it serves
    and if not…turn to something that does. there’s always
    such a variety of STUFF available to magnetize our
    intention
    xoxoxoxoxo

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  13. Sandi Avatar
    Sandi

    This really brings up some deep thinking here. There were many things I watered that didn’t serve me, but it was all I knew and there was a strange sick sort of comfort. These things became my reality altho soulfully they were not. Letting go was much more of a struggle later on. Discomfort is a sign of growth sometimes. ❤

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  14. grace Avatar

    this is true for all of us. the comfort in things…because
    it’s what we know, what is familiar.
    as we SEE, we become more and more adept at the Letting
    Go.
    as i said to JudyK a few minutes ago..i am looking to becoming skillfull at letting go.
    it’s GOOD WORK for a life. really GOOD GOOD work.

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  15. Sandi Avatar
    Sandi

    I totally agree. Much less energy expended. I am loving the idea of simplicity- in all areas of my life. From what I wear, to personal care products ( i am using a face oil(moisturizer) that is also a sunscreen and great on my hair), to my kitchen- only want useful things around. Sure there are some indulgences- like my collection of Buddha statues that must be over a dozen by now. But other things… letting go, with no regrets. Passing useful stuff on to others who may benefit. It’s all good!!!!!

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  16. judykeathley@cox.net Avatar
    judykeathley@cox.net

    i honestly don’t really know what pinterest is–
    but if i did –& if i used it ( or whatever it is one does with it)
    i would most certainly credit you–
    & thanks for the more specific instructions.
    you should be proud.
    p.s i think i can say for certain it is not the only brilliant idea you have ever had.
    but i will be most respectful nevertheless.
    xoxoxo

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  17. ² Avatar
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    thank you all for those words
    i will look at my watering

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  18. Nanette Avatar

    My mantra to myself when I find I’m ‘watering’….love that…is to reach for the higher thought. It takes me right away from whatever I was watering as I search for it….I usually find a few once I start. On a practical level, I love your post in a block idea, I’m going to pinch that if I may. And I use the ties from bales of straw too, to hold things together, mine are pink at the moment. I use clothes pegs a lot too, love these simple tools.

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  19. patricia Avatar

    it’s a metaphor for gardening, isn’t it? what do we choose to water? the kale? the poison ivy? (yes, i suppose, every weed has a function but i choose not to cultivate p.i.) now that you’ve framed this in such a way, “watering,” it makes perfect sense. water the things you want to grow–the kales/broccolis/lettuces that sustain us.
    and the word was “hideous” and i told you my mother’s word was “hilarious” and i’m wondering if i’ll have my own word when i get to that point.
    and YES–brilliant idea–cinderblock instead of permanent cement. you’re nominated for some ultimate prize in innovation.

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  20. jude Avatar

    i coincidentally had a spoonful of peanut butter while reading this. all kinds of seeds can grow with proper watering. nice to think of a life as garden. i asked myself what gets watered without intention. how does that happen?

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  21. beth Avatar

    What to water… I will be watering this thought a bit more. And I wanted to thank who ever brought up idiot compassion a day or two ago. (I do not like that term) but found a discussion of it and yes there is much richness in looking at that too.
    The cloth… I do so love this one. I don’t think it is imbalanced though. The ground is not symmetrical, but it does not feel at all imbalanced to me. Interested to see where your looking takes you. Love.

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  22. ² Avatar
    ²

    yes , without intention ????
    no good no bad
    without intention
    repetition ??? i gues

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  23. ² Avatar
    ²

    wath give attention grows
    where i looking at takes me
    yes….

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  24. Mo Crow Avatar

    a friend told me this one yesterday when I was having a bit of a difficult time with an addiction I had invited back into my life
    head
    heart
    butterflies
    it’s the perceived nature of the butterflies that makes the difference
    are they the excited Oh Wow! this is a great direction kinda butterflies in the tummy
    or
    are they the scared flighty get the heck out of here as quick as I can butterflies deep in the gut two inches below the navel…
    works for just about every contingency the trick is knowing those butterflies, which at this stage of the game is pretty easy…

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  25. Mo Crow Avatar

    oh and the sky dancing cloth looks like a perfect balance between the dark & the light

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  26. grace Avatar

    i don’t know either, but from Context….was just
    looking for Humor.
    it’s my real and true brilliant idea. it is.

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  27. grace Avatar

    you have been doing that for a while…the passing along.
    yes. it’s all good….

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  28. grace Avatar

    i’m just trying to Understand Stuff.
    love to you, Maria

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  29. grace Avatar

    oh…PINCH IT!…for you i imagine it’s for Brenna, Betty,
    and Juno…YES!,…, GO! the most simple solutions…
    what is just enough to Work, yes!….i’ll look on your
    blog to see it it shows up….or you can tell Here…..
    xoxo

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  30. grace Avatar

    YAY!..nominated!!!! YES! it really is a very very wonderful thing. i really dislike mixing concrete. you need to do that for stuff like fence posts. but for so much, not. i made the posts in the Buck Pen this way and they are firm and strong. adding water and stamping it in adds strength, or at least here, where the sand turns to concrete in it’s own way.
    interesting…caught my attention…What WOULD???? maybe my
    own word be???? might be a key to the present moment?….

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  31. grace Avatar

    without intention, i think that might go back to Jan’s
    comment yesterday about Relationship. so much of stuff is not really our own, i think, but just part of the kaliedoscope of mixed energies. so maybe a lot is Neutral?, kind of? not our own, but shared?…?
    but we are responsible for our own intention. maybe not for all the rest other than to do the Best we can? and not be attached to Outcome? don’t know. it’s a LOT.

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  32. grace Avatar

    mea culpa…the idiot compassion, but it IS great, isn’t it?
    the Cloth…the cloth is getting lost amidst it all, but
    the Cloth is my lifeboat in it’s way….i don’t know…
    balance/imbalance. today, Sunday, today i like it how it got to be

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  33. grace Avatar

    yes. what we look at. what we center our gaze upon. yes.
    it pulls us in

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  34. grace Avatar

    yes. to know the butterflies. yes. to look long enough
    to understand and then…
    oh,
    then…
    Just Go

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  35. grace Avatar

    still looking…………… what is for the Cloth itself,
    what is for the Story?, what is for anything else….
    LOOKING…..

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  36. nadia Avatar

    The sketching on fabric looks so cool!

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