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it seems that the aphids and the Iris have some mutual concerns.   there were no aphids on these BLOOMS.  not a one.   but still, on the tight buds.  

 

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and the butterfly made of Wind is back.  i think to stay.   stitched a little,  just enough.  When i look from a distance,  like when i'm near the wood stove, or even in the Living room,  and see it there,  there is a very good feeling.   

 

I arrived at the Old Cowboy's home early this morning so i could help him get ready to move out and be at a 10 a.m. appointment with his lawyer.   Help him get ready consists of a LOT of repeated conversation.  What he wants to say to his lawyer and then also all the History to Everything, as in how things came about.   This goes back 50 and 60 years.  He has to say it.  He has to say it a few times, at least.  ….  he talks and then says "you understand me Girl?"    NONE of it is new.

so, we did that.   What i could have said to the lawyer in three concise sentences took him an hour and a half.  I sat listening with my eyes closed.  This helps FEEL his angst,  his SENSE of the position he is finding himself in.  

and then, we went to his accountant to sign this years tax papers.  he could not go in and was "ashamed".   so,  Wendy, his "tax girl"  came out to the car with the papers and a clip board.  she squated next to the car while he studied the papers and signed  after 3 red x's.  i wrote the checks out for him and he signed those.  and then he had the exact same conversation with Wendy that he has had for years.  Wendy, a very kind and gentle woman, responded exactly as she has for years.

that done,  we went to Lotta Burger and ordered a Lotta Burger with cheese and green chili,  fries and a pepsi.  Waited.  brought it back to his house and split it and consumed amidst him reliving every moment that preceeded that.    

then he remembered that he was plum out of Centrum Silver vitamins.  so….off to Walmart for them and back.  where we reviewed Everything one more time.

i came home and took a nap.  woke,  but couldn't really wake.  so i stitched that butterfly made of Wind and fed the Goats.  i am going to go to sleep tonight as soon as i can.  i have Things on my Mind and want to stay up,  when i wake in the middle of the night,  and see exactly what they are.  i will wake somewhere around 2 am.  will make tea.  sit in the Dark and wait to Find Out.  then,  when i can see it clearly,  i'll go back to bed till morning.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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19 responses to “First Iris day”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    good to see both the iris in full flight and that the butterfly has landed again!

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    A very powerful iris it is too. And a powerful lot of service you were to the old cowboy too. Lord he’s so very fortunate to have you. I feel his anxiety, or rather, I recognize it as akin to my own when things feel overwhelming. The cloths current incarnation is most pleasing, and I get that rising in the dark and seeing too. I also do that. Oh, an to think there will be more iris soon! I’ll dream about that color.

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  3. Kathleen Marie Gstalter Avatar
    Kathleen Marie Gstalter

    Very rich iris! this is the second time I am drawn to contemplate this need to repeat conversations as the Old Cowboy does with you… I have a friend, younger than I who is pressed by a similar need to tell and retell stories. It is typical for these to be tales of wrongs done against her and I have often wondered why there is this need for replay. I listen and often find myself feeling like a mother figure, patiently listening and encouraging because she seems to NEED to do this. Maybe for the Old Cowboy it is a way for him to retain some sort of order where he feels control slipping. But for my friend… Oh I don’t know maybe it is just self absorption…. but this post has me thinking about this again. You are very kind to be the ears for his retelling, and wise for accepting this as what it is, his need.

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  4. patricia Avatar

    isn’t the human condition amazing….

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  5. yvette Avatar

    as iris unfolds
    quick fragile beauty
    life in between people

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  6. Saskia Van Herwaarden Avatar

    your pieces always amaze me, as they are so unlike anything I could imagine doing or making and yet I ‘recognize’ them, if that makes sense

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  7. Dana Avatar

    As my father-in-law aged his thoughts wore heavy grooves in his mind that he was ever less able to escape. The warp on your cloth, on the other hand, is the barest impediment to the wind so clearly blowing through.
    The shapes of iris are as intense as their colors.

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  8. julie Avatar
    julie

    You have just flipped me on my head,Grace. Imagine instead of staying awake when something is on my mind, going to sleep so I can bring into my awareness and then using the awakeness to examine it. I love love love this.

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  9. Deb G Avatar

    It will be at least another month before the iris bloom here. The repeated conversations…I know about that. 🙂

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  10. grace Avatar

    they are related, i think.

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  11. grace Avatar

    today there were 13 blooms

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  12. grace Avatar

    it’s wearing. the listening. i saw today how it wore
    me out. but…then i think, really, what Else does it
    Take?
    not a lot.
    but in your friend’s telling…hmmmm. that’s different.
    i might respond differently to that

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  13. grace Avatar

    it is. this
    human
    condition

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  14. grace Avatar

    fragile…yes.
    but they withstand WIND

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  15. grace Avatar

    it does.
    make sense.
    because i see the same familiarity in what you make

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  16. grace Avatar

    the
    SHAPES.
    this is what i looked at today…Saturday….the shapes
    the incredibility, really, of the Shape. Color yes,
    but the SHAPE, oh, the SHAPE and FORM. who could
    possibly imagine such a Thing??????????????

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  17. grace Avatar

    Julie…i hope you can try it. it WORKS so incredibly
    well for me…was an accident to discover, but then,
    to USE it, because it presents that way. i hope it
    can work for you

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  18. grace Avatar

    so interesting, the difference in timing, one place on
    the planet to the next. in some ways, you are always
    Ahead…
    i love coming to understand these kinds of things…

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  19. Saskia Van Herwaarden Avatar

    …ah, and so it goes, back & forth

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