a few days ago, Jan said:

"it would be that way in any particular conversation going.

That we take a neutral screen or filter….the black and white of things.

and it is as big as we need it to be depending on the subject and what we each bring to it.

and then, we keep going until it has all its colors.  the full spectrum.

not the either/or  mindset, rather a grid."

 

i came to find out,  just recently,  that an Old Friend…that's what i will call her…an Old Friend, Maureen who i like to call Luna,  and Old Friend,  Maureen has been 

lurking.

I find out because she tells me,  that she has been reading along this blog.    That she knows stuff.

She knows about the goats,  about the babies born and growing.   She's watched.  Quietly.  but she knows it.   And it made me think about what Jan wrote,  even more.  And it is very very tender., How we Go.  How we make our way.

 

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She had come to see me.  I don't really remember when because stuff like this is a kind of beauty full blurrrrrr.  But she came and bought me this Mimosa tree.   The year it got to 17 degrees below zero i thought it was dead.  But it came back.

 

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i tied the new shoots with cloth.    That cloth is still there today.  This is it, in this pic.

 

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these are her Flowers.  Just a few.

 

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but she somehow made a Daughter and there will be Many Flowers soon here.

 

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these are Patricia's marigolds.  Second Generation. 

 

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stopped by the Walnut tree in town today and there are many.  all Green and wonder Full on the tree.  So i will watch until they begin to fall…….i don't remember…when,  they begin to fall???

but checked the walnut vat from last time and in it i see a cloth…i'd forgotten.  It's falling apart.

Falling Apart

love those words, falling apart…….so will look more closely tomorrow when it's dry

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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11 responses to “so.”

  1. Julie Avatar
    Julie

    Hiya Grace…I am in a rainstorm beneath the very big sky of Northern Montana and it made me understand what is inconceivable in the East: The Rim. The people are a bit fierce but oh, the landl. It makes me feel at home on the road to check in here. Love…

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  2. Cynthia Avatar
    Cynthia

    when i was a little girl the very strangest thing happened..it seemed ….to me ….and our family, because my little sister had rheumatic fever and was so sick…our family doctor was so important to us…and he took his family to Hawaii and we had appointments his first day back and my mother asked him how it was an he turned around and in the most chilling voice said
    “it was so disappointing…did you know that mimosa trees are very much like acacia trees..i have wanted to see them my whole life and they were not what i imagined at all”
    and then several day later he killed himself..which was so foreign to me ..i did not know then tha people did that.. and unreal
    i loved acacia trees so that seemed strange..i was little..and themas an adult when i moved to the east coat i had two towering mimosas in the back yard and i have enjoyed them very much…but there is always that undercurrent of such sadness and despair when i see them..and the memory of my parents trying to explain and my total confusion…all mixed up…wow a lifetime ago…
    so many different kinds of falling apart…so happy to be back grace gentle day

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  3. grace Avatar

    yes. so many different kinds. so many different kinds of
    everything….
    and why i like so much Jan’s words…the importance of keeping
    on going, bringing everything to the “grid”. bringing the Fullness.
    and how lucky you were that your parents were able to try to
    explain. even though it was unexplainable, they tried.
    i’m Very happy you’re back too. love,

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  4. grace Avatar

    am waiting for your return so you can tell the story.
    and yes The Rim, when it’s just Everywhere you look, yes?
    Northern Montana…what country that is…
    the most beautiful place i’d ever seen was in Calispell
    ..sp… i’ll never forget that Place.
    give my love to that Rim where you are….
    thank you for giving these words….

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  5. patricia Avatar

    wonderful story–thanks for the share

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  6. patricia Avatar

    mimosa trees. amazing the memories they stir up for me as well. i grew up in a little town in WV of ~250 people. a little “company” town where most residents were employed at Alloy–a division of Union Carbide. yep. it was a hilly town and homes were designated as being at the top, bottom or middle of the hill. At the top of the hill, a family had a big mimosa tree. right next to the church. where the school bus picked us up. it blew my mind EVERY spring when it bloomed. i couldn’t believe it. i knew oak, pine, maple, hickory–i knew the hardwoods in the woods where i played–but i never ever had seen any thing quite like mimosa in spring. in spring when it would bloom, right after the tulip trees (poplar) i always imagines the blossoms were birds and when i listened long and hard enough, i’m sure i heard their exotic melodies. thanks for this reminder.

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  7. Mo Crow Avatar

    love the way Mimosa is sensitive to touch but yikes you live in a wild hot-cold place! 17 degrees below zero is so very cold, can only vaguely remember that sort of cold from a winter in Canada in ’68! I have the heater on here cause it’s mid winter, wearing two sweaters and thick socks and it’s 10˚C (50˚F) just before dawn. I was shivering a few days ago when it dropped to what we call a bitter 7˚C(45˚F) here in inner city Sydney, hehe!

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  8. jude Avatar

    i think this new dog is a bit like this lost dyed cloth

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  9. grace Avatar

    it is Exotic. and i never imagined it would/could thrive
    here, but it can. It’s a magic tree.

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  10. grace Avatar

    Mo…that 17 below was only one year and totally UNHEARD OF
    here. NO one remembered such a time. i think it was
    3 years ago. for 2 days maybe 3. It was frightening.

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  11. grace Avatar

    she is. she is very much like this cloth

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