I switched work days today because i had to take the Old Cowboy to the District Attnys Office to give a deposition. I won't do the Long Story, it's too LOOOONG, and it happened a year ago. But they are finally getting around to it. The short story is that a young man chumped him into using his truck last year and also took his ATM card and took money out of his account. Today had to do only with the truck. ok, i said, short, so what the residue is in me is how little of what happened really matters in a legal sense. It didn't matter that he got suckered in by this kid, living in a John Wayne world as he does, the kid living in a heroine world as he does….stuff didn't mesh. An no one wanted to hear the Old Cowboy's important facts. So it was uncomfortable to say the least. Watching him all scraggly, trying to explain how it all went and them sitting stone faced, only interested in a couple facts. And it didn't matter that he will be a wreck for weeks now. And if it does go to court, be a wreck for weeks again. The law is the law.
and i can't not watch what's going on in Missouri. I wish, sort of, that i could just think it doesn't have anything to do with ME and go about my business, but i can't. It DOES have to do with me. I live in this country.
So all that. And i decided to make red chile for Tomas. Funny, how when i am all tangled up i cook. And while cooking, i asked self….Grace,…what IS it that you want right now? What IS IT that would give you some Space?????? and Funny……, i walked over and looked….well….. That Self that always knows what's going on had been one jump ahead….. Because the answer to that question was: just to get OUT of my head for a while….
and i put another leg for Michelle
August is such a Dense month. FECUND. It's BeautyFULL and it is also something else. What? What word do i want? Well….it's BeautyFull and it is also i guess REAL.



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