i have a …..  a……hmmmm.   I have a human being.  I could say i have a friend.  but that's not enough.  I could say i have a "sister".   That would be closer,  but would give a certain tilt to it that might not be what it is.   So…i'll say,  i have a human being to whom i am Close.   She lives in a suburb of Detroit, Michigan.   She is a poet,  a Writer of all Manner of Things,  an Artist,  a Maker of Cloth Beings that she calls the Grandmothers,  and then cloth figures about Jubilation.  She is a Performance Artist.  But most of all,  she is a Lover of humanity,  a Master of the Unconditional.  

and it turns out,  she is a Lurker.

 

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This is her.  All around dangling, are the Grandmothers.  Sparrow.  I got a phone call from her today out of the blue,  which is how we do it,  Out of the Blue.   I know her and she knows me because some almost 20 years ago now,  someone we both know said we should know each other.  So i think it went that i wrote a letter and she answered.   Twenty years almost now.   We have as yet to stand face to face.   We have become what we have become to one another by the United States Postal Service.  We write letters.  and then,  sometimes there is telephone.  She does not have a computer.   But today she called and knew things and told me that she is a 

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she reads this Thing here.  This blog.  On her phone.  She reads Windthread on her phone.   !!!!

She told me this and she also told me to remember that Nothing.   Nothing is only what it appears to be in any single moment.   

and this has HUGE meaning to me.  Because she and Maureen and maybe Sandy  are the only  human beings who i know of that come here from my other life.   Not because i have kept it seperate,  secret somehow,  but because they just don't.  For whatever reason.   But it has made a huge difference to this day,  that i know she is There,  reading,  looking.  HUGE.   very HUGE.

 

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i think they are finished.   I see none of them today.   I will look again tomorrow to be sure.

 

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Garlic Chives are blooming

 

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rummaging through the scraps i found this.   Took off the lizard.    This….is somehow IT.  But i don't know how to "pull it in".

 

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so i took it off.   Did This,  which is also "true".

 

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but,  This.   somehow,  This is just what it Is….August.   so i look.   and as i look here,  it occurs to me that maybe somehow there could be both?????  

ADDENDUM.   next morning, 8/22….because of Yvette's very good and important comment…  i realized i'd done it Again….just  set down a thought without really thinking….and i need to say that those words were not her words, Sparrow's words,  but what i came away with from our exchange of words.   It's hard  sometimes to want to hold a thought/an image on the day it Came because this IS a journal,  but also remember that without context,   it might not make any sense at all,  or/and make sense in the way i am experiencing it.   

 

 

 

 

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5 responses to “unexpected reassurance Then, Addendum next morning”

  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    A connection–a deep human connection that pulls the way past up into the present is like finding a hidden stream flowing again in the present, and so affirming. That’s the best.
    I stayed away from the radio and the computer. At 5 I went off to practice yoga with just a few folks, folks I’ve practiced with for decades. I went into my body, paid attention and that to was reconnecting to the eternal stream. Now, after brief terrific thunder, It’s raining, streaming down and washing everything alike.

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  2. yvette Avatar

    She told me this and she also told me to remember that Nothing. Nothing is only what it appears to be in any single moment.
    Grace i don’t fully understand this line

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  3. grace Avatar

    yvette, those are not her words…as in her words spoken
    to me, but what i came away with from the conversation.
    the reminder that everything is so multifaceted. sometimes
    i get stuck in my own View Point.

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  4. Nancy Avatar

    Grace, I read those words as to say that everything has many sides and that we may not see all of them at once (in one day), but may have different sides show themselves over time. So, maybe still our (your) own View Point, but that even your own view point can shift and change over time. And I like and am considering your interpretation of her words too. And I think her photo shows a creativity and kindness in her. She looks like a good spirit to me. This may read silly, but that was my first thought upon looking. And her name is Sparrow? I like that name. I was just thinking the other day that if were to pick my own name, what would I choose? I never have an answer to that question (so far). So, anyway, this is her, your friend from your other part. My parts don’t mix either. But know that she has shown herself, maybe she will join the conversations. And this cloth that made me gasp in the first pic (like that configuration best)…it looks like her, your human being! I like that this cloth has one eye opened in wonder and one eye shadowed in wisdom. She is gorgeous and really touched me.
    Good evening to you Grace.

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  5. grace Avatar

    Sparrow gave herSELF the name Sparrow. Her born name is Cyddie. It’s been a long time now, as Sparrow. I never asked her why, just
    took it. Sparrow. I wanted to put her photograph here because i
    was so really humbled that she reads every day. Not knowing that and then her telling me. Maybe she’ll say something. Who knows? I didn’t ask her or really even think that far. Just to know she’s
    THERE…watching me. and yes. She has come to a place within herSelf that holds nothing but gentleness for ALL. In a total and very REAL
    way. it’s something. really something. I tend still to hold people Accountable. but Sparrow, she calls me on that, asking me to look again.

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