could say that.  And let it go at that.  As just ditto of yesterday,  which it is,  but not so much ALL day,  just most.  And as i just went out to give the Grass Hay at the end of this day,  i hear mind saying, "Wet and Grim".   And it kind of is….     It's WET for sure.  Way more Wet than we expect.  Really wet.  But "Grim"?….   Hmmmm.  Grim?   I don't know.  To me,  personally,  it's kinda grim.  I'm not good at soggy.  And the Goats,  they're not good at soggy.  But Grim?  Why does that word arise in my mind?   I look again at the Forecast, which has been quite wrong,  and it says that the Sky Water is over for now.    And i am glad,  but did it fill the aquifers?   Not sure.  Aquifers/us…..

And i watch Tay,  who doesn't know the word Grim.  It's all the same to her…just a great and good Space of Time for Doing.  I think this is what i am learning to love about her.  It's all the Same to her.  Just Goodness.  Just what Is.   

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OK and back to this pic.  OK.   All of them.  

We can see, over at about 5 oclock,  only a partial of Sunny Ray.  But this partial shows his HORN.  the other side is broken off and doesn't do much.  But this right horn (his right) works very much as a horn should.  Causes stuff.  Next to him in the pic with his back to us is Nogal.  We can see here his testicles.  Fully formed.  and ok that.   Then…there is Gideon and Tenzen…rearing for a good Chingaso,  a whack,  Gideon who is so crippled and old…he still enjoys this.  Tenzen,  the peaceful one…some…yes…not a lot,  but yes, some too.  They rise up like this and WHACK heads.  It's Their Way.

 

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this is TenZen.  The most peaceful.  

 

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Baby Nogal.  Who is no longer a baby.  Who has as left leg dangling from confrontation with Sonny Ray.   Stuff had gone relatively ok till the last month.  But then….  We have a two year old Sonny Ray and a One year old Nogal.  Trouble in River City.

I am going to seperate them if it ever stops Raining.  Not yet sure how but i think Sonny Ray with his father Gideon   and TenZen and Nogal.  See how that goes.  But for sure,  how it's going now isn't IT.  NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND keeps FOUR intact bucks.  NO ONE.  Me,  in my ever optimistic mind does,  thinking that any minute the Daughter might come.  ??????????????????

and then,  today i got a phone call Early from Blaine,  the father of the fundamentalist christian family who i buy eggs from…asking me to call his wife Karen about how to dry off a goat.  So…

long story short,  Karen stopped by on her way into town with EGGS and i gave her a bunch of my books and talked to her about why they were drying off their goat and it went into my conflict about breeding again, even tho i want CHEESE but what to do with the babies and 

it was so ….,   well,  so   something.   She said…
"i will ask the Lord.  I will pray on this, grace,  i will ask."   And i said….Thank You.  Let me know.

and i know she will.  She will tell me what her Lord says about grace's conflicted feelings about baby Goats.   Isn't this just Something?

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and this goes back too.  It's the Mexican Elderberry and pods of the Mimosa.  in a copper pot.  a spash of vinegar and it gives GREEN.

 

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the baskets.   They are sold at our local Farmers Market as fund raiser.  I forget where they are from,  somewhere in Africa,  where Ebola Rages.   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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16 responses to “Ditto”

  1. LAB Avatar
    LAB

    You need to relax. Let Tay be who she is…

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  2. Deb G Avatar

    I’m shopping for rain boots tomorrow so I can go stomp in the mud puddles. I have some of those baskets too. The world seems very small to me right now.

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  3. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    You know what, it is ok to feel goat conflicted; it is such a huge responsibility to do what you need to do to make your marvelous cheese. And for the most part, you do this all on your own. Help whether it comes from physical effort or the ethereal world of prayer, it is all ok because we all reach out to one another and give what we know.
    You and Tay, you are just fine and as I said before, there is that sense that she came to you because she was needed and so it goes.
    Before I get off for the night, I have to say that the green cloth in your dye pot is pure magic and that too is how we go: just putting things together, trusting in instinct, not knowing for sure the outcome but nevertheless, doing it, plunking in cloth, adding bits from the land, precious water, the alchemy of the pot, letting it sit, letting it just be and what comes is a simple but huge gift whether it be the end result that matters or the joy in the process, it is all good.

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  4. Patricia Avatar

    you’ve inspired me–again–this time to find a copper kettle.

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  5. Liz Avatar

    Now I know why I’ve been so attracted to copper pots … time trouble start using them!

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  6. Liz Avatar

    No … not “trouble” … I meant “to” (autocorrect is “trouble” for sure though)

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  7. grace Avatar

    caste iron, copper and aluminum all do magic things…different
    with the plant substance…and i never have kept notes, so it’s
    always an experiment, every time. duh…

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  8. grace Avatar

    she is. she’s good at Just Going.
    and relax, well…i’m not sure how i would define that

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  9. grace Avatar

    it IS very small. one of the Old Folks Home’s musicians and singer had a very active beekeeping thing going on here and then out of the blue (i’m sure it really wasn’t, but it seemed that way) her
    husband no longer was there. and yesterday i was linked to
    the College of the Melissae Center for Sacred Bee Keeping in
    Oregon and looking at the Teachers there….there he IS!!!!!
    How great is That?…he went off on a Sacred Mission!
    Am going to get a good size pair of the boys rubber muck boots.
    Big enough for my wool socks.

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  10. grace Avatar

    yes. there’s really nothing but Process….the Just Going
    with the best Intention we can. That’s all there is.

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  11. grace Avatar

    green. there’s a piece in there that’s aqua so far. i am
    hopeful for that one

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  12. grace Avatar

    you might have to do some cruizing in the outlands. Small town
    antique stores that don’t get a lot of traffic. Happy to sell
    one. They are getting harder to come by. Mine come from the
    only “business” in Polvadera outside the Post Office. A second
    generation Antique Shop. She sold it to me because she likes
    me. There’s one left, but it’s very expensive, but also very
    old.

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  13. grace Avatar

    am good at context. no worry

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  14. Mo Crow Avatar

    Love all those bucks but 4 is a lot! Tenzen has a beautiful presence, if I was to choose one as the herd sire and let the rest go he would be my man, look forward to seeing what comes out of the dye pot!

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  15. grace Avatar

    yes. there’s a reason.
    Daughter bought Gideon when he was 5 years old from people who needed to sell
    their herd to move near their daughter’s cancer treatment center. He is from
    one of the best Nigerian breeders in the country, Rosasharn Farm in Massachusettes. She felt lucky to get him, could not have been able to
    afford a buck from them otherwise. The milking awards from does of that
    line are incredible. She hoped for this from his kids. Because he is old,
    i kept Sunny Ray who is his for her. Gideon tends to be on the big side
    for Nigerians and Sunny Ray is just that much smaller.
    And as i’ve repeated, Nogal is from Buckwheat which was a very desired
    breeding by daughter. So, kept Him for her since i sent Buckwheat to Las Cruses. (those huge horns). and then yes. Beloved Tenzen. Tenzen is
    from Dragonfly farm in Harvard Mass. She had him flown here. Again, it’s
    the high milk production of does in that line.
    I was Out all afternoon chiseling out the stamped down stuff in the doe’s
    bedroom in the Albatross and putting new straw bedding. I was squatting
    down just after i let them back in and got an eyefull of Magic’s udder. She’s Tenzen’s, we’re almost positive, would need to do the dna thing to register her. She’s never been bred but looking at that udder today….this is the
    year she really reachs maturity, it’s beautiful AND has BIG teats. A good
    sign. And TenZen is the finest gentleman. He is skittish and has to be
    caught, but once caught is good with it. He was the easiest buck to bathe
    and shave. If anyone wants to see what they look like on a REAL dairy farm
    google either of these two breeders and there are many pics.
    so…herd sire..well….you know, it is still my fervent hope that daughter
    will take them back. She can have all of them or whichever ones. Maybe
    Gideon would stay here to live out his days. At THE point when the future
    becomes the Now, all this will become a Known. For now, i just need
    to keep them in one piece.
    and as i was working out there, i watched Nogal with his limpy front leg
    jump up atop the buckhut and challenge Sunny Ray who always claims it. It’s
    just crazy, how they are. But it is all they are. period. their buck
    goats. with one track minds.
    the pot has been on pause in the days of Rain. Supposed to be SUN again
    in the next week. so, we’ll see.

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