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it pretty much rained since morning.  Just drizzle,  but continuing and it was very overcast,  Dim.  There was a LOT of looking.  Just standing and looking and wondering what's going on here,  the cloth, the looking that won't stop.   And small odd things coming to mind..those ants on the SunFlower,  diligently tending their flock of aphids for one.    I wanted distraction.

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i studied the water situation which was much improved.   O!,  i forgot to say.  Yesterday i went down the road to William's Windmill,  the business right where you get off the freeway.  They are about all things Water.  They do sell and install windmills for water purposes but they also do all manner of work with field irrigation,  livestock water,  and well anything that has to do with pipes and moving water,  including the most small and insignificant household plumbing items and advice.  So i washed my hair and put presentable clothing on and went.  Asking for any help they might offer about someone who might help me with my leak.  Answer being that the guy that they would suggest who does that kind of thing "on the side"  would be out of town for at least 10 days,  but they suggested i call Ric of our local Polvadera Water Co-op and see if he might be willing to see what was going on.  I got all happy and did that.  I know him a little from all the years here and he agreed to come in an hour which he did.  He said i was absolutely correct in my diagnosis and  showed me how to turn off the outside water valve in that White Thing.  Said to wait some days and give things a chance to dry out then call him again.  He would find someone to Dig because he doesn't dig anymore,  but would change it all out then.  The thing is that he doesn't like the no freeze aparatus AT ALL and would strongly suggest scraping it and installing a regular faucet instead.   So i listened and thought who cares, and said ok.  Would call when it was less than a mud field.  That was yesterday.  Turning off the valve has stopped more water.  I need to put my arm into the White Pipe up over my elbow to feel around for the valve once a day in order to turn on the hose so i can give the Bucks fresh water,  then back,  feel around again and turn it off.  Ok.  Can do.  A plan.   Then this morning Bill called, Alz. B's son,  and i told him.  Told him that i had tried and tried to no avail to get hold of Paul Who Can Do Anything to come back and work on it since it was he who had done the work just some months ago.  Paul is incommunicado too.  Seems that's the thing now days.  Just don't answer the cell phone when it goes to voice mail and then notifies that the mailbox is full.    The outdoor no freeze faucets were Bill's idea and he subsidized them.  The old faucet working fine,  but these so much better according to him, so done.  I gave him the story and he said NO!,  being adamant!  NO!….that i need to keep the no freeze deal….that he would come on the weekend and look and decide.  ACK.  as always,  everyone has an opinion …that are like , well you know what.  and so.

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this afternoon, the valves are accessable.  

but this is just part of this Life.  More,  through the day, i was wondering and looking.  Because of the Overcast,  i didn't get far

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maybe this.  So i'm going back, beginning again in hopes i will be able to continue.  Because very quietly underneath everything else, I believe it to be True.

Plant Intelligence  and the Imaginal Realm,  Stephen Harrod Buhner

I am here.  an old female homo sapien living with a herd of Goats, dogs, a cat  in the "domesticated" sense and also among a multitude of known and unknown beings on a single acre of this planet Earth.  I want to understand all i am able to, but really, also want to comfort myself with very human things,  like stitching cloth together around a drawn face, creating a familiar image to HOLD on to while I learn to let things go.

This is the last place in the book,  page 145 that i'd gotten to when i quit.

"Our view of the world as a static backdrop to human activity has obscured the fact that we are only minor players in the scheme of things.  The vast majority of interactions that occur here have nothing to do with human beings, as Hird notes,  "Humans do not even know about the vast majority of inter-actions that take place on Earth".  Plant intelligence,  microbial memory and culture, viral swarm behavior and horizontal gene transfer, the capacity of animals (and slime mold) for mathematical computation are only tiny bits in the "vast majority" that remains unknown to most people, including nearly all scientists.  There are so many others that exist, in numbers beyond counting.  We will never know them all…."

so that's the last of it.  i need to begin again and keep going.  Not stop.  But in the meantime,  this

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will help me.

 

 

 

 

 

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25 responses to “more looking, can’t stop”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    love how this cloth is taking you further in, digging deeper, looking more closely and seeing the bigger frame of where you are and what you are doing and how you perceive that place & space

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  2. grace Avatar

    am not sure how i would do it, could do it, without the Cloth
    to hold me
    as i try to perceive this place
    this space.
    the cloth holds.

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  3. montana joe Avatar

    oh grace! what could be more wonder full than looking at cloth looking back? it is glorious. deeply full of thought and emotion. not judging. not advising. simply looking and offering a sense of honoring the moment with quiet thought. it is a delightful oasis in the middle of all the doing-ness!

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  4. julie Avatar
    julie

    When you feel, truly feel, what Buhner is trying to teach, it makes sense that you need an oasis, a cloth sanctuary. And I think it is adorable that you washed your hair to go to the Water Guys!

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  5. sparrow Avatar
    sparrow

    thank you, grace.

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  6. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    one person does matter,,i truly believe that grace (from yesterday )..learning about water floats and cow troughs and freezing here..you give me all kinds of sustenance here ..from the much and often thought about to thoughts to things i never imagined i would worry about,,,fencing…valves..larger than domestic animals…so glad the cloth holds gentle day grace..cynthia

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  7. jude Avatar

    Two things here. Firstly I don’t think we are minor players, probably because we are capable of knowing we don’t know which presents great potential yet in spite of that, I always see all players as equal.
    Secondly, I caught something very clearly stated….”like stitching cloth together around a drawn face”. I like when things are simple like this.

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  8. grace Avatar

    i do not know enough yet to say much in a way that can explain
    these things, i simply FEEL them to be true.
    I don’t think it is meant in that way…the concept of “minor”…
    i don’t think that’s whats being said. Rather that humans experience a certain kind of consciousness that is a PART of the Vast and Great Consciousness of GAIA….that Vast consciousness which includes say the consciousness and brilliance of bacteria without whom we could not exist.
    I am just saying things here that have Meaning to me. That’s all.
    Just putting it here because there is a sense that it is extremely
    important. It might be meaningless.
    and about the cloth, well, it is what it is.

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  9. grace Avatar

    HEY!!….Joe! How GOOD to see you here…and yes…i like the
    words..not advising….like them a lot! I’ll go look at
    Manhandled. You’d not been there in a while when last i checked…
    xoxo

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  10. grace Avatar

    are you reading the book?
    well…i wanted to present myself in my best light, i also used
    the curling iron.

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  11. grace Avatar

    S P A R R O W
    YOU ARE
    HERE……………………….!

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  12. grace Avatar

    you are in the world of So Much now….with many that have
    come to depend on your presence…it’s something, isn’t it.

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  13. ² Avatar
    ²

    just looking
    just read
    no words at all

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  14. jude Avatar

    well me too i guess, just saying how it seems to me. that’s all we have to share. i think it is important to say. for both of us.

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  15. grace Avatar

    yes. it is. all i have.

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  16. Liz Avatar

    Just looking is a great way to spend time methinks … especially when there is so much to see

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  17. judy martin Avatar

    Very lovely stitching that you are doing here. Really.xx

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  18. julie Avatar

    Not yet, still absorbed in a stack of fiction.
    And a curling iron, you are precious.

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  19. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    so strange..i just lost all of the post of december 5 th

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  20. grace Avatar

    i deleted it.

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  21. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Me too–no matter what the zillions of goings on I want “to understand all i am able to, but really, also want to comfort myself with very human things.” Those very human things are HUGE.

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  22. Saskia Van Herwaarden Avatar

    just read the other day that plants are cognitive beings, plant roots make conscious decisions, on the basis of where the nutrients are they decide to grow in a certain direction…..all this information in a news paper article (NRC 15 nov 2014, wetenschapsbijlage, which I saved!) Not all scientists who study plants are enthusiastic about describing plant behaviour in anthropomorphic terms, such as intelligence, decision making, learning, however it is also very difficult not to when observing what plants do and then trying to express what they do; several botanists mentioned in the article who do are Stefano Mancuso and two Dutch guys Ton Bisseling and Ben Scheres. There are also video’s of a bean plant latching onto a bean stalk, google ‘bean plants Pollan’. I have only just checked this out myself and stumbled upon Michael Pollan and plant neurobiology….tada, there is still so much we humans are not aware of
    so how’s this for a happy wake-up-and-jump-out-of-bed on the Sunday morning?

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  23. Liz Avatar

    I believed with all my heart, that The Fir Tree by Hans Christian Andersen was “true” … and I daresay I was probably 11 or 12 at the time

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