it is as if my Entire Being breathes out a long long Sigh. Now toward Light. Soon enough dark will come four hours later. Soon enough.
they go in and out that little doorway, just to enjoy again their new straw bedding.
They were so mellow today. Maybe they are like me. Having some Goat thoughts about this day? I spent a long time with them. just sitting on the picnic table, holding close, rubbing, scratching whoever came and there was no pushing or competition, just a moving and changing of position. I sang those songs of some other kind of language, the songs they like to hear.
i would like to be like this all the time … from November when that sense of contraction seems to begin…but i'm not. And maybe i will just let that "demand" go. Maybe just accept that i just am not. And simply wait for Solstice, having Faith that it will come. Maybe.
i sat and looked a long time too at the Raft. At the clumps of dried grasses. All the dried Kochia is now pulled and gone. Some would say to cut the grasses back but i know that they are winter shelter for Beings and i also like them in this seasonal form.
all around, in this Oasis, Tay has changed things. Pressed down the grasses like a deer would. It's a small space but she has made trails through it. It will be very different this coming spring. After wintering with her presense. I don't know what it will be like.
I would like there to be SunFlowers here. A lot. I don't know if that will happen.
maybe some Rocks will shelter seedlings? Will hold water?
i don't know. Maybe.
Half way up, the colorful scraps. They are from Nanette's (stitchandsow-homeandgarden.blogspot.com).
, from Nanette's pilgrimage to Mt. Kailash in Tibet last summer. She saw them in a stream. They had floated down from the Mountain and she asked permission to gather a few. They are scraps from Prayer Flags. She sent these Here. I think how they began in Tibet, arrived home with her in Australia and now are here on this Raft. I made Nettle tea this midmorning from Nettle leaves that Cynthia wild harvested in Vermont. I sprinkled the spent leaves around the raft as a Blessing.
And i realize how my "years" have come to go from Solstice to Solstice. I am a SUN being, of the Lizard Clan living in the body of a human woman. So it goes. I will think this year to accept parts of myself that are Inconvenient. Just letting mySelf and everything go, as is.
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