this post would have been one thing maybe if i'd not had a phone conversation previously with the granddaughter.  so it's different now….it's plainer.

I didn't go to Albuquerque.  For some good reasons.  That i would have enumerated here to soften the fact that i feel like i failed best nurse Cindy.  But i decided not to go.  Granddaughter brought me to this,  just saying i decided not to go.    I just decided not to go.  

eeee

i decided not to go.  ok.

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i wandered through cloth,  thinking about making a Pretty One.  What DOES that mean?,  a pretty one?

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took the chair Out.

thought about what it means to be     ……    happy.    To live with ease.

thought about how Metta begins,  always,  no matter who teaches it,  begins,  always with

May I……

May I…..

May I….

May I…

put arnica on my wrist.  It DOES work.  if you let it.

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Tazmeena would like to be petted.   In a slow way.  A soft way. 

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stuff wants to be Looked At     so you know what you Have

 

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25 responses to “How things can go. OR another way things can go.”

  1. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    the reason for May I. . .why we always must begin with ourselves and then work outward. . . . .if we aren’t peaceful and at ease in ourselves we don’t have that to give to anyone else. . . . .more than enough to stay home for, grace

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  2. tracy Avatar
    tracy

    Ease. We have it sometimes, but it doesn’t stay.

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  3. tracy Avatar
    tracy

    I learned the last line of the metta prayer as, “May all beings be at peace with their circumstances.”

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  4. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Seeing from a different point of view….talking to the woman you see…you feel. In a slow way…a soft way…Seeing and doing what you needed to do…just for you!! Pretty beautiful!!

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  5. Liz Avatar

    While I am pretty much an apostate at this point, there are bits of my former spiritual life that I’ve held on to. One is a scripture that a friend once pointed out says to “be thankful in all things” … as opposed to the more common interpretation to “be thankful for all things.”
    As he explained to me during a particularly rough patch, one doesn’t have to be happy with every part of one’s journey in order to find meaning in some part of it …
    “So you know what you have” … yes

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  6. Bev Avatar

    you need to do what you need, it’s important

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  7. Mo Crow Avatar

    sometimes it’s good to just slow right down, our cats help us with the important things!

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  8. patriciaspangler47@gmail.com Avatar

    i don’t know what makes something pretty. i don’t even know if i like pretty things. but this is my 3rd attempt at commenting so i’m cutting it short. eager to see where you go with this.

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  9. judykeathley@cox.net Avatar
    judykeathley@cox.net

    what a beautiful relationship you have with your grand daughter.
    how wise she is.

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  10. grace Avatar

    you know…i have always though Metta a kind of uhhh, lightweight,
    meditation practice. Interesting, now, at this time.
    I am very ok with the ripple out to other sentient beings, even really to the one i have most difficult feelings about, ease with the whole of the Planet
    but what i see in this moment is that i know next to nothing about the May I. next to nothing. to the point that i really can’t even
    stay with it to visualize much of anything at all.

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  11. grace Avatar

    i am working it, ease.

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  12. grace Avatar

    yes. ease within one’s circumstance. Yes. yes.

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  13. grace Avatar

    i really want to LEARN this…i’ve put it off for so long

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  14. grace Avatar

    this is wonder FULL, this interpretation of “scripture”
    the difference between in and for
    thank you so much for offering this here

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  15. grace Avatar

    i ride such a fine line, a razor’s edge
    always have

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  16. grace Avatar

    she wanted.

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  17. grace Avatar

    Pretty. all day i thought about what Pretty means…i guess some is
    that it just PLEASES….is gentle to the Eye and to the Heart. Gentle to the Mind. Does not demand or even ask for need to wonder…is just There. For us. a Gift.
    ??????
    i am thinking too

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  18. grace Avatar

    she is an old soul, this one. and needs to be. She’s been
    diagnosed with Lupus. Not an easy road for someone only 25 years

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  19. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    i like that..i think it is sort of funny /sad that pretty has become so difficult..but this i like
    gentle day grace

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  20. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    oh me too..

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  21. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    Perhaps we are more used to flexing spiritual muscle. . .tonglen. . .tackling suffering head-on. . . . .I’m finding the metta. . .”may I”. . .to be about vulnerability. . . .recognizing how much we need that ourselves. . .how it might wear down our courage in a way, yet create resilience for the long haul.

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  22. Anita Avatar
    Anita

    Hi, Grace,
    I know I’m late to comment, but I do like this post. So much here to think on, and in the comments, too… Sorry to hear that about your granddaughter.

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  23. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Patricia my basket from you……..I look at it….I see pretty!!! It really is all in the eye of the beholder….the keeper!

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar

    Anita…it’s not late at all. it’s Wonder Full to know you
    read. I have been looking looking for the email from you but i
    think it came when there was comotion with the Old Cowboy, and
    i can’t find it…..talk about Late……
    so thank you so much for coming here anyway.
    It’s not something New with granddaughter. Well over a year ago.
    She’s WORKING with it. Which makes me hold her in even Higher
    Esteme.
    Thank you for coming…..

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar

    These words, the thoughts,
    provide a key for me….in how i am finding such love for this
    soft practice.
    I have written them down. Hand to paper, and have re read
    many times so far.
    resilience for the long haul. yes.
    THANK YOU

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