Journal:  the Epiphany…the Visualizing Sitting with Salzberg,  understanding about Happy,  about "being" happy but not identifying it as happy.   hence,  the difficulty with May I be happy.    So GREAT.

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i cut it.  First thing this morning.

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and more.  And getting this far,  i knew i was going to want the pieces to Fray.  so i pulled edges with my fingernails,  no,  and  tried to undo the weave with a needle,  no.  It's linen and i realized how little i really understand about linen.

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next was to wash it,  see if the washing would loosen the weave in a different way  but i had to do it by hand and i have no dryer which can sometimes change the edges of things.

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drying on one of the Janet Chairs

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i thought all was lost.

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first,  there was too much of the All That IS coming into the center.  Ok.   and then,  the edges of the Circle…no fray,  but i invisibly basted close together and all around and then as i was looking i rubbed the edge with my finger which was wet from washing my hands.  The fibers kind of curled back and   it's Great!  I had been thinking:  I will NEVER use linen again,  but i like what it did and i can just know that it won't Fray, like cotton.    MAJOR LESSON.   

It is GOOD.  it is another Metta Cloth.  the second one.  OK.   Happiness.

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right in the center,  just at the top edge of the shadow behind the laundry baskey,  a shape.   A young Jack rabbit.   First time ever.  Not good.  I hoped it would just Go the way it Came but again just a while ago,  still there.  So i am doing this now and then staying Out the rest of the evening.  Going to see if i can close off the Corridor so i can let Tay back there.  Maybe.  If it stays there,  it will eventually come through the Corridor and into the Front where the food gardens are and that would be the end of that unless Tay could chase it out someway but that also might be the end of the food gardens if she runs through them after it.  

 

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24 responses to “Happiness”

  1. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Did not know that about linen…have only always used cotten. However between you and Jude I have been picking up a few clothing of assorted fabrics from the thrift store that I look forward to playing with sometime soon. Love your newest piece even if the linen didn’t fray…..you are making it work.

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  2. Mo Crow Avatar

    I would use use a scalpel blade and tweezers to pull the threads

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  3. grace Avatar

    cotten is benevolent. Linen tho is itself and as itself, interesting as i learned today. I like what happened.

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  4. grace Avatar

    you are a scientist. me…just Going and with much less patience

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  5. Mo Crow Avatar

    just necessity being the mother of invention… the scalpel blade, tweezers and a steel rasp work quite well, so does the dentist drill on very slow with a big round steel burr and have even hammered leather & silver on gravel to get the look of the dream thing that wants to come out… I am not always kind to my materials.

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  6. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    I like how this cloth has that subterranean layer of quiet joy underneath the ripped linen. Happiness comes in many forms from the over the top shout of JOY to the quiet, barely noticeable but felt pauses that sometimes come in the day from so many things that color and circle our lives…a good cloth.

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  7. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    it looks as if you have revealed a whole other world beyond
    gentle day grace

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  8. patriciaspangler47@gmail.com Avatar

    i think if you put pieces of linen in a washing machine and then in a dryer, you’ll get more fraying. i’ve done that a few times.

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  9. grace Avatar

    yes…i should have been more clear. Some linen is much easier
    and i think it might be that it is old…
    this was just too “crisp”, but still, i love very much
    what happened with the Just Going

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  10. jude Avatar

    it’s a mood ring!
    linen wears so well, because it is way stronger than cotton. hard to tear even sometimes. in it’s worn state it is heaven.
    so, without insult, if you use this as a wash cloth for about 20 years, it will be perfect.

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  11. grace Avatar

    i can’t even pound flowers

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  12. grace Avatar

    love the thought…how Metta after 20 years might make us

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  13. Mo Crow Avatar

    me too, I tried pounding an indigo leaf onto cloth with India & Roz back in January but it seemed too brutal an act and yet I feel quite happy about chopping leaves up and boiling them!

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  14. Judith in N. CA Avatar
    Judith in N. CA

    and to Grace….this made me laugh out loud…trying to picture both of you with anxious faces hovering over nature’s gifts. Sometimes we must just “get over ourselves” and proceed. Think of it as reincarnation…flower to color to yet another gift…hmmm ? I think I’m going to giggle over this all day but it will be with love towards you both.

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  15. handstories Avatar

    recognizing happiness…dear grace, you have had me thinking about this for the last two days. your circle and life glow with it.

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  16. grace Avatar

    well…i take leaves and put them with cloth and then leave them
    in the SUN. Maybe this is a slow death? Maybe pounding and cutting and boiling is more mercifull?

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  17. grace Avatar

    i love your laughing….it lightens it all up….
    a ReIncarnation….flower to color….a Beauty Full thought…
    i DO, eat what i grow…have feelings about that too, but i DO.
    it’s all kinda a Great Dilemma.

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  18. grace Avatar

    all forms, yes. All Forms. Happiness.

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  19. grace Avatar

    it revealed Its Self…to me….i had no idea
    and it was a gently day, yes, keep Wishing me…..

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  20. grace Avatar

    i could and Might say a lot more about this. I try to limit what I say to things that i think might be uhhhh, well Universal. This
    particular is probably not at all. But is so interesting to me,
    how things are Labeled and so ABSORBED by children, how we are, as children,
    so deeply and profoundly IMPRINTED by what the adults in our lives
    say is so.

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  21. deb lacativa Avatar

    Thanks so much for posing this piece on a Janet chair. what an astounding combination. I am making a print if you don’t mind. Both make me think “salvation, rescue, beauty, function, comfort, grace and Grace.”

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  22. beth Avatar

    I went from an alarmed eeeeee to an soothing oooooo watching that transformation. For some reason I have to steel myself and take many deep breaths before cutting. And I wasn’t quite sure where you were going with that. Again the concept of beneath…

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  23. grace Avatar

    the chairs, the Cloth, me we are honored by a print
    we love….

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  24. grace Avatar

    i had no idea. i just knew to cut

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