storming off and on today.  At one point just after noon,  it was 90 degrees.  Right now,  at almost 6pm it's 72.  Storms.  Beauty Full storms.

so amidst these fast moving storms and intermittent BEAUTY FULL SUN TIMES,  i just looked.  I thought about how not all that long ago i frequently referred to  "The Unforseen"….as in ,  baring the Unforseen…..

and i thought about how i no longer have that sensibility.  How the unforseen is more common really than the forseen and the known.  

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When i came to the computer this morning,  it worked like usual for about 2 minutes and then suddenly went OFF.   As did the lamp.   So i checked it all out as best i could and well,  there's NO electricity in this end of the house.   And i just thought, well, OK,  it's happened again.    I'll need to find an electrician.  WIND has continued this year to be more than an Entity of early spring,  has continued to be frequent and fierce.  The walls of this old tin house rattle and shake.  Takes it's toll on wiring.  So…loose again.  OK.  Just get it fixed.  ok.   Went out to the albatross and brought in the big extension which hooks the phone and the computer to the kitchen outlets.  OK.  good enough.

and was able to FEED Tay.  No food, no water last night.  She wondered.  But this morning i could feed her and give her the pills in canned dog food blobs which she didn't mind at all.  As the day went on,  i watched her being able to do things she hasn't been able to do since last Sunday.  She was able to bug Chinche some.  Not a lot, but some.

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Chinche has enjoyed her reprieve but is good natured about the return of our old Tay.  

Around noon,  Tay was able to carry her antler around.  Then early evening,  she was able to Bark.  It's hard to tell.  The Rimadyl is both an anti inflamatory and also a pain medication.  So it could be that she is a little better,  OR that she can't feel it so much????….why i don't think much about pain medications…..

So, once again,  stuff is Ok enough in this moment.   I try to use it to understand my responses to things,  to Learn.  

I stitched more moon rings  and 

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looked at these Rocks.  That i like a Lot.  From what feels to be,  Long Ago

 

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17 responses to “looking gently at my weaknesses”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    There is something so gentle about Chinche looking at us, as if to say, hey, I’m here too and glad that my old pal Tay is bugging me again…there is such a poignancy to the image of Tay with her antler and through it all, your spawn egg diamond piece of cloth, comes to the wolf memorial, a gentle reminder of life going on…

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  2. grace Avatar

    Chinche…just a bone dog now…not much of her left but she is HERE and still PART of it ALL….and yes…she just IS with Tay’s renewed attention…thinking, i think, it’s just how it goes…
    and yes. GREAT poignancy to Tay’s antler, she LOVES her antler and couldn’t carry it for days
    Life goes on. it goes. it Just goes it goes on. Life goes on.

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  3. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    Chinche looks beautiful and dear. these unforseen things. . .it’s edgy keeping track of how long things go on. . .when we need to take action. . .the cloth is so beautiful Grace. . . . .

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  4. grace Avatar

    Chinche is so old. Such a bone dog now. Any day, i imagine her just gone.
    it is.
    Edgy. keeping track. Watching, letting Wait happen. Caroline the Goat has had a Thing on her cheek…a round thing. I have watched it. Yesterday it “broke” as i had hoped it would because it was soft and unattached to her face but i had watched it for weeks now and today it broke and is dwindling

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  5. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Think I got confused, thought the rocks and diamond piece were on the wolf memorial cloth but not so…but still, thought holds in that life goes on.

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  6. Stephanie Avatar
    Stephanie

    Yes, Chinche’s bright and sweet look. So very grateful for every day that we are given to love them. And I am so happy to hear about Tay’s very good day! Also, MANY thanks for the link to Julie’s beautiful post. I tried to leave a comment for her there and wasn’t able. Very wonderful in so many ways.

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  7. patriciaspangler47@gmail.com Avatar

    didn’t realize Tay had been ‘down in the mouth’ for a while. and Chinche… i think there are many miles left on this one. and Grace. the wolf cloth. it’s been amazing watching it develop. have not commented. but look at it often. don’t really know how to express the sadness i feel for these beings.

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  8. jude Avatar

    i have one of those big orange cords. lifesavers.

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  9. Mo Crow Avatar

    remember that beautiful song “Let it Grow” from Eric Clapton’s “461 Ocean Boulevard” when we were all at the beginning of this trip? and we wondered how we could make this life and who we would meet and who we would be?
    “Standing at the crossroads, trying to read the signs
    To tell me which way I should go to find the answer,
    And all the time I know,
    Plant your love and let it grow.”
    & now here we are at the last verse
    “Time is getting shorter and there’s much for you to do.
    Only ask and you will get what you are needing,
    The rest is up to you.
    Plant your love and let it grow.”

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  10. yvette Avatar

    love love love you
    write later

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  11. handstories Avatar

    funny, your title with “weaknesses”, I finished reading with the thought of “strength” in mind. maybe it’s your strength of looking, being and going through? and the gentle strength of those Rocks.

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  12. Deb G Avatar

    Recently had a conversation with someone about how our strengths can be weaknesses, and weaknesses strengths…just depends on the context sometimes. Glad Tay is feeling better.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    i Plant and i Let.
    i Plant and i Let

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    Yvette…love love love BACK!!!!!!

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    Context. Everything is Context

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    how funny!!!! All the replies are coming up Double????????????????????????
    oh well…

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