so…at 8a on the dot i talk again to yet another very fine young man at Century link Tech Support.
Internet light GREEEEEEEN.
Soon as i feed the Goats i will order a new modem and be done with this comotion.
He gave me all the stuff to type in to reset it this time and waited patiently while i wrote it all down with a pen on a piece of paper. It is possible that until the different modem arrives, i may be able to reconnect myself if /when it goes out again. We'll see. But if i am Gone again, floating off, like the figure above….well….i'll be back when i can. Because i LIKE being here. It occurred to me this morning that this blog is like my Basket, ….in Jude's terms…..
so…off to feed Goats and Love to all and Thank you to Marti.
LATER THIS MORNING….11:00 AM, waiting for Alfalfa Delivery
Who would have guessed. I remember long ago, when i liked to use Runes, one was
"Consider the uses of Adversity"…it was my favorite.
While sitting on the porch last night, watching the Rim with Tay, waiting for time to call the Old Cowboy and tell him to take his pill, ( so I could go to bed myself) I was just free floating…like the figure of the drawing…untethered…dis~connected…adrift….and i was very suddenly awash with so many feelings. All at once, almost undistinguishable one from another, none of them surprising or unknown but that they were so strong. and I suddenly wondered if Tana, the Old Cowboy's Hospice Social Worker had a private practice…………..??????????………………………..
and i thought that i would think about it a little first, but maybe call her and ask…tell her that i would like to sort through some things.
This morning, (how it goes) she called here to ask if OCB has a fire extinguisher and smoke detectors. and i thought….OK. so i asked her and no, she has been thinking of beginning a private practice, but has not acted on it. She asked why and i told her…that i have loose threads that are tangling all over the place, that keep moving and i'd like to sit with someone and at least Look at them, see if i can Still them a little. As she does, she was quiet a moment, and then said That can fall under Bereavement counseling for Care Giver. I said Not about the Old Cowboy, but rather me…this time in MY life. She: Bereavement is bereavement.
so longer story shorter…..I GET TO GET INTO THERAPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY AND HOORAY!!!!
i never would have guessed there might be anyone in this place that i would want to work with, but she is just GREAT and the best and NO ego, NO PERSONAL AGENDA, she is SMART and well… she's just Great. So i breathe a great great exhale and hopefully, next week i will begin.
UPDATE on modem: The computer guy in town has just the one i need. will get it tomorrow. More TaDa. Stuff's Good.
AND NOW, ALMOST EVENING….
8:59 p.m
refer to comment and response from Julie.
i apply some of the anti itch stuff to leg for the "spider bite", which i really don't know is from a spider, but i just say that. It's the kind of bite i get in summer. It began on my knee and the as days go, moves down down down and tonight the swelling and itch is at the ankle. Probably tomorrow it will be
done. finished.
There will be more, as time goes on. But i understand them. Know them. When we have become familiar with things, we just go. When they are NEW and for the first time, we don't know and are startled.
windthread 
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