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What i didn’t finish saying…..

Tears.   and this was part of the conversation with Wendy too.  That i don't cry.

I don't cry.

I have never cried.  ever.

Maybe i cried as a small child?  I don't know.  I don't remember if i did.

Did i cry as an infant?  I will never know.

 

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i was gifted this.   It arrived FedX  last week.   i just look at it.  i haven't even taken one pencil out to "see".   I have just looked.    Lynda Merry of the blog,  i wonder,   has used them on cloth.  

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i took some laundry with me today,  sheets, really,  to use the washer and dryer there…get it done.   there is so little

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and i took "Her",  whoever she IS to me,  thinking i would stitch.  But when i got there i knew i didn't want Her in that vibe.  She had to stay outSide in the car all day.  I opened the windows so there would be some good air.  But i couldn't bring Her In.  couldn't.

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watching Snowbunny dig her dust nest deeper and deeper and watching the rest of the nosing around in it and then also digging…

digging,  for Goats can indicate a need for minerals.   I have been lax in taking out Free Choice minerals for them.  Goats need/want copper among other minerals.  They don't do salt licks either like other livestock.  it's Free Choice minerals they need…comes like this.  They come and go from it,  just licking it out.  crunching.  i like the sound,  their crunching.

 

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OOna was the first to come

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then Arctica,  the only doe Goat here with natural horns

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21 responses to “What i didn’t finish saying…..”

  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    …You left the window open! Precious detail. I wrote again on yesterdays post to correct something. Though, I know you have so much to do and so little time to do it that you may not go back, may not even have listened to the first Link–no problem.
    I too seldom cry these days, only when I’m extremely exhausted, and always alone, and not very much. I have cried many times in my life though, everything from retching sobs of despair, to silent tears, both alone and in the presence of another. That you do not, nor have you ever is interesting. It’s just a release after all. You must have developed other mechanisms for release very early.
    The two goat pictures tonight are lovely to see…the pink stones, the intense green of grass and the angle of the heads. I love looking at them.

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  2. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    thinking of you Grace and sending love. . .I cry enough for all of us. . .still, after so many years. worry when I don’t. good boundaries you are keeping. . .precious things close but not in the thick of it. . .beautiful granite and minerals for the goats. . .

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    Oh (((Grace))) I cry in movies all the time, even in Shrek (a silly cartoon for kids) & every time I finish a book or read something online that touches my heart, sometimes the tears are for the joy, sometimes for the sadness or the gentle tenderness… ah just about anything can get the waterworks flowing and same with Old Man Crow (but don’t tell him I told you)!

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  4. eva a(r)t work Avatar
    eva a(r)t work

    Hi Grace, I agree with Michelle about the “release” of crying. Just as she mentioned, I have cried enough in my life, and I hope, there aren’t that many tears waiting in the future to be shed.
    Grace, these Inktense pencils are wonderful – I have bought some 2 years ago and I ust them all the time! You are going to love them once you start drawing with them.
    Have a great day,
    love, eva

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  5. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    and wow!!! look at all those colours!

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  6. dee Avatar
    dee

    I wish I cried more. It would be better, sometimes, than feeling anger. That I do easily. I hope this passage ends soon, honestly. For your sake.

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  7. Liz Avatar
    Liz

    I have often wondered why I cry for nonsensical things (on television for instance), but not for truly profound personal losses (I don’t think I ever did cry after my mom died, likewise my dad). I dunno.
    But I do understand the upwelling of emotion over the beauty of this gift … they are so beautiful, these colored pencils that will melt into even more beautiful colors. It will be a joy to see them come to life here …

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  8. Cindy from Georgia Avatar
    Cindy from Georgia

    “Her” is Ivis, my daughter. The instant I saw this I knew her.I hope this cloth is not spoken for yet. I would love for you to contact me about it. luv u, Cindy 🙂

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  9. beth Avatar
    beth

    The pencils… Practice a bit on paper and then fabric scrap. They don’t call them in(k)tense for nothing and control is tricky. But wow 72! I have the smallest set.

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  10. Dana Avatar
    Dana

    Nothing is more full of promise than new art materials. All potential, like a bolt of uncut cloth.
    Leaving the summer goddess in the car with the windows open and feeding minerals to the goats feels similar to me somehow. I feel the fresh air in both situations.

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  11. yvette Avatar
    yvette

    Soft spots

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    i am looking at this crying thing
    crying is a very normal human response

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. minerals. Goats.
    Cry for me then…?….yes?….till i do? or never do?
    cry for me too….

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    i get all teary eyed…and the welling up of a full body sense of
    crying and maybe 2, 3 tears come…then it all receeds
    the emotion of it remains and is Held. but tears…no

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    thank you…Eva….

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    hmmmm. anger. nope. rarely anger anymore. under anger i think always is sadness, sorrow, so i go there first now. Sometimes, anger like when the kids were shooting BBguns over my Place at the birds in the Dead Russian Olive…OH, there WAS ANGER and i let it Rip at them. But most times…like anger over the News of the Day now i do Metta. Sorrow under anger. Anger is an immediate momentary
    release. And sadness sits underneath. Would rather go directly to
    the sad.
    i hope it ends soon too. for me/for him but it is Death and Death Rules

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    i am very emotionally Responsive to all manner of things…that “welling up” but i never just
    cry
    ????

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    Cindy….Ivis. What a beaty FULL name you gave your daughter…
    Ivis..i love this…yes
    i will E you. But there is more to come with this Cloth, so
    you need to just keep watching and see if it is still in keeping
    with Ivis.
    xoxoxo

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  19. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. 72. 72. yes.
    i cannot tell you how it feels to stand there Looking

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  20. grace Avatar
    grace

    they Are similar. yes.

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  21. grace Avatar
    grace

    yvette….LOVE….and i will answer soon…LOVE…LOVE….LOVE

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