i just wrote a long Thing about how the day went and then somehow obliterated it and i am going to take that as a sign that i didn't need to write it here.
But just to say…it's a lot more complicated than it might appear here and there is MUCH ambivalence and today he rallied and was more his usual self and it was difficult. I am not such a kind and loving person as it might appear. The truth is that he is a sentient being. For whatever reason, we find ourselves where we are today. But just to make the picture True, to what it IS, there is great ambivalence….many feelings…which do not preclude Compassion.
and i woke last night. Goats were all awhirl, all awake, moving, in the middle of the night. Went out with the flashlight…nothing amiss…but they were AWAKE and MOVING. All of them. Tay and i sat a while and i looked up and the SKY, the SKY was INTENSE with dark dark darkness and Clouds. I tried to take a pic but it wouldn't happen. The camera is having issues. But i have never seen a Night Sky like that one.
one more mend
i didn't cut away the "frays", just stitched them in and left a tail of them free
so two more major mends ahead. and then, you can see here, that arm hole situation…that too
I am over at his house till Monday, days, so, maybe.
Went OUT. Tired. Not physically, but emotionally. Drained. and gave water to Goats, to the vegetable people and was given this gift of
beingness
this is Love.
watering. said…Please…wait for me…and ran in for the camera. He waited. I snapped and snapped and the camera isn't working great anymore and they were blurry and i went back Out and he had waited again and as i tried so hard to take a clear image, he turned his face to me…turned his face to me and i didn't catch that, but he did. and this. This is Love.
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