Part of it is because so many disparate things are presenting…a very long long time friend in distress,    the needs of others,  simply to "tell"….phone,  the upcoming final appearance of people at the Old Cowboy's.  The need to help with the meeting of the executor and the lawyer.  The need to be organized for that,  with all OCB's papers.  The need to take "Him" there,  his ashes in that box and pouch on Tuesday….the sense of finality to that….to LeaveTaking

The Granddaughter, Alyssia, coming  on Wednesday….how she is now more like a Woman,  More like a Sister….as in how just before i began this.  she sent pics

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The kids have been bringing snails home from their school vegetable garden.  Their home has accomodated   them with creating a home within the home for the snails.  Her and her own favorite, Mr. Gonzales.

like i said.  More like a Sister.   And then there's her brother,  my grandson with the newborn.  Both of which she is prepared to take back to California with her.

What Else?,  there's more,  but this is Enough.  So Much,  SO much, Life.

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This morning.  What IS this?  Something is digging underground,  pushing up this very soft and fine sand into a mound??????   I have no idea.

 

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This rock has moved itself here.  I did Not put it here.

 

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Separating 

 

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from yesterday…a favorite,  very soft jacket shirt that WAS a kind of olive green which i didn't really love,  but oh well and i wore it cleaning on monday and somehow got Soft Scrub on it and it bleached the color out in big splotches so i put it in a bucket of bleach but it turned PINK?????  So into the Walnut vat

 

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still too Pink!   Why Pink?????

 

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Brought the vat in and heated on stove…let sit.  Better.  This is still wet,  but i think it might be ok.  I think i will be able to wear it,  wear the color.

 

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Deb Lacativa's cloth

 

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its    "flaw",  which is a great Beauty

 

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finally,  this way.. it is making me Crazy with wanting to Make…if i could do this….some kind of Ritual Cloth???????

 

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and still…the Pockets…this Dark one?

 

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a very Light one?

 

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a very Soft one?

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20 responses to “Restless/Unfocused”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    ah what a beauty full post, that Ritual Cloth is already magic and that’s just seeing it here in the hand it would be even more so
    have you read The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating by Elisabeth Tova Bailey? or seen this beautiful snail music video by Sigur Ros?

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    When I look at that splitting tree i think of it attached at it’s root.
    All our experience is sending something to the root the same as the trees leaves gather what they need from the air and send it down to for processing. Lots in your atmosphere is processing. That granddaughter with her spreading smile and slow snail is a wonder, and the snail says take it slow as you go. The envelopes in process more wonders. So too the cloth that wants to be something. May all the doing or not doing be pleasurable, fulfilling, easy.

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    that Vimeo was astoundingly beautiful Mo….but I almost lost Windthread (ha)

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  4. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    A week ahead of uncertainties …. Tuesday…Wednesday…uncertainties. the mound of soft dirt mixed with sand. What is THAT??? Oh but then I see picture after picture of all the BEAUTIFUL cloth being auditioned..and I think…oh the possibilities. I love that you did not give up on miss favorite shirt..I’m hoping she has dryed to a color that will wrap you in comfort and give you great JOY! Praying for a universal BLESSED day!

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  5. saskia Avatar

    oh yes, you must read this book, it is WonderFull.

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  6. Peggy Avatar

    Oh Grace, all of your cloth is beautiful. I love the snail on your granddaughter and I hope you wear the jacket. xo

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  7. Nancy Avatar

    Yes, made me look at snails with new eyes.

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  8. grace Avatar

    Peggy…thank you,
    and yes…how so her to do that. I asked her today how it felt,
    if it felt nice and she said, well, in it’s way, because she
    loves him, but not something she would want to do a lot.
    The jacket looks good today. I will leave it on the line for
    some days…have the feeling that Sun helps the dye go deep.
    and, Woman With Wings, i thank you for sending all that Love
    to Michelle. What a good feeling to watch it all scroll down
    on her blog and know who sent it…just made me feel so
    deeply a part of Community of Sisters…
    Love to you

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  9. Martine Bos Avatar

    Coming, bringing, digging, pushing, separating, cleaning, making, wanting……………. oh Grace you where so busy………

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  10. yvette Avatar

    love
    all about love

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  11. grace Avatar

    i am. so busy. Coming, bringing, digging, pushing, separating, cleaning, making, wanting, i am i am, Martine, i am i am.
    So much i am. it is the Work of this Time, all the above, like
    the bee in your stitching does, the Work of it

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  12. grace Avatar

    yvette yes. it’s nothing more than that, nothing less than that, love
    all about love
    and how it can be seed ed
    how it can be sown into the threads of the days we have now

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  13. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    I added a video and here is the post with all those gifts of love http://mscomfortzone.blogspot.com/2015/10/arrival-by-post.html

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  14. handstories Avatar

    Like that she sent you these photos very much & the food thoughts you are having, of nourishing her…how you are giving to each other. I wish I could touch the pocket cloth.

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  15. grace Avatar

    i have not read. seems as if it is the time

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  16. grace Avatar

    all the doing or not doing….

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  17. grace Avatar

    it’s Tuesday and shirt continues to hang in Sun. Maybe Thursday i’ll take down and wash.

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  18. grace Avatar

    yes. that face.

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  19. grace Avatar

    i wish so much too

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