last night i dreamed things that i could not put my hand on this morning and all day, i have done the things i know to do to "call them back", but i can't, or, haven't been able to yet. But like It Will, a really great thing happened. Nanette of stitchandsow-homeandgarden.blogspot emailed. She linked me to an interview between Richard Fidler and Elizabeth Gilbert.
here's what you type in: radio.abc.net.au/programitem/peRPQ6ax03
and there it will be. And she was right. I DID like it Very Much and even more, it gave me a glowing key to the Something that i am working on now, even though i'm not sure what the Something is. There were many things the interview gave me, not the least, an excellent interchange of Interview…how they danced through it together…beautiful….i will need to listen again a couple times more, but what i came away with that i am holding in the palm of my hand right now, is that thing of Curiosity. And i really don't have a way to talk about it right yet, but i have found myself missing that Best and most Great Friend, Marge…Marjorie Burke Price that died a long time ago, but when we had each other, we were a glorious pair of Curious Women. We wondered about Everything and found joy in the wondering never needing to "get any place" with it all, but just the wondering itself was so so elegant. How i miss her energy in my life. When she died, she was in her early 70's. I was in my just barely 40's. We were perfect together. So fine tuned to our easy way of just going.
lately, well, really for a while, i have found self missing that kind of companionship, being urged on by some one else's Being, and maybe that's why i find the granddaughter Alyssia such an incredibly satisfying friend….she is really nothing But wondering at this point in her life. and i think i have found myself having developed some kind of "crust"….or dryness of surface that holds too much in place. I find myself sensitized to the sense of "already knowing" in myself and in others….the thing of Already Having Decided So Much. Of Liking This and NOT Liking That. Opinions. For me it's not so much opinions, but more that i have fallen into thinking that i should be kind of Formed by now….
Why?
Well….quite obviously, i don't know what i'm wanting to think or say at this point, so i will just let it go, but that word….Curious. i want to sit with it. It feels very very good. Curiosity….Wonder. NOT knowing and really, not wanting to.
Spent time looking at this. is very Random, i was seeing it as just some kind of Sampler of what i was learning from Jude way way back in the beginning of my time at Spirit Cloth. What?…7 years ago? maybe even 8?, i don't know but this was in the beginning and i was so star struck with what might happen with fabric scraps and thread, i was so FULL of possibility and had no idea. just so much NO IDEA. But i was full of Happiness and Curiosity.
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