that thing about Scarcity/Abundance. And here, not about money, goods, but rather Time.
the other day, Sydney of Sydney and Jamie the Two Moms of Talula, who all used to live up the road from me, but now only Sydney, Jamie lives in town, Talula who is now 11 goes back and forth, anyway, Sydney stopped by to bring me this gift
a shopping bag from World Market. She got one for herself and one for me. And invited me to her Solstice Celebration on Sunday (tonight) saying it's ok if you don't come but it would be nice if you did and as i always have, when invited to her Celebrations, i said ok, maybe. I think the last one i went to was maybe 4 or 5 years ago?, it was the Martin Luther King, Prayer Tie making Celebration with a wrestling workshop by her then newish lover Shelah. She lives less than 5 minutes away. But i don't go to stuff. But they keep extending the invitations. She really likes to cook for people. Likes very much to have people come to her home. I really love her and people she knows are always good and interesting people. It's always very very nice. But i don't go.
so for a couple days now i thought about it and today thought about it in terms of that concept of Scarcity and Abundance which is usually applied to money and goods. But i was thinking about it in terms of
Time
having to choose to "spend" time socializing with people v.s. being Home alone, the Home alone always would win. There was not enough time, never enough time. Any time there was must not be squandered, must be held and savored as if it was the last piece of time ever.
somehow it was different. Found self thinking…Why Not?
so though i ended up staying less than two hours (because it was just totally Enough socializing even with really great and interesting people) , i made scalloped potatoes and went. And the real difference was that when i was there, i was fully present. I was not sitting at the edge of my chair, restlessly waiting for the first moment of polite escape. I was There. I was There in conversations, There in eating the lamb stew and ayurvedic lentil dish, There in the bourbon hot toddy, the best corn bread i've had in a lifetime, the dark chocolate with sea salt, all the dogs, those that live there and those that came as guests, the kids. The huge Christmas tree, Bing Crosby singing. I was
There.
and i am happy that i went. And am happy that it provided the really first example of how things are different after the Old Cowboy Time. Things are different. There is Enough Time. How BeautyFULL is This??? Enough Time. There is Enough Time.
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