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18 inches in flat places.  drifts considerably more.  And we did the best we possibly could.   It's almost 5:30 now and it finally has quit snowing.    There has been a significant change.    A sense of a peaceful surrender to What Is.   I ascribe that to the making of the Solstice Cloth,  the constant attention as the stitching continued….to How It Is….no more no less,  simply How It Is.  Letting go all the commotion of the Mind,  stitching,  i found all that just fall away.  So.  Nothing more to do but Knock on Wood.  I listen now to the noise just out the big window to the left of here,  it's been going on for some days, every late evening at dusk,   so i finally oh so stealthily parted the curtain,   It's two Thrashers….large enough birds,  vying for that corner space of the awning.  A pair?  don't know,  is there room for two of them there?,  i don't think so,  but it goes on until dark falls then i can't see and won't know.  

 

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and i think that yes,  this will be the January Cloth,  the True Winter Cloth.   Will teach me True Winter because it's not over with THIS snow,  this Cold,  and like old Chinche,  there's nothing to do but keep going.  One step at a time.  We will do our best and it will become February.  For her,  i hope she can make it till then,  when it's easier.  But that's not for us to know.  So we go.

 

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I took down the 2015 Calendar  to look at last January and saw that i was whining about 4-5 inches of snow right around the New Year.  We've lived a lot.  Loved a lot.  Learned a lot.  

 

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Here's the new one, back to the beloved Butterflies,  that i was lucky enough to get from the Dollar Store before they were all gone and need to make do with a Flower one like last year.   It's ready and waiting for the New Year Eve ritual of going through the months of the year and transposing what is of note,  needing to be remembered.  Butterflies.  Butterflies the whole year round.  It's a very soft and Gentle DarkTime.

 

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13 responses to “Surrender”

  1. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    such purpose in surrender. and the promise of a January cloth. be warm, grace xx

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  2. grace Avatar

    purpose. purpose in surrender. yes.
    i AM warm. The fire Breathes it’s warmth. I DID know to bring
    in enough wood and the wood Out Side is tarped.
    It is so silent Out There tonight…how it is when Earth is
    filling herself with moisture according to Season…i think tonight how She is drinking the Snow. How She is in deep
    relationship with the Sky that is wise and sifts Snow Down
    for Her to drink

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  3. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    so beautiful grace. . .sleep well

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  4. grace Avatar

    i will sleep. What kind of sleep i don’t know. But sleep.
    Yes. Sleep.

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  5. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Today got away from me, slipped away really. I’ve been sleeping a lot nursing this cold, and when i woke it was dark again and silent (which is always a shock in this City)…so i went up on face book and swooned with something Jude posted…immediately copy pasted the URL and constructed a post around it (including something I wrote earlier this year), then saw the weather in New Mexico, thought of you, of the goats and came over here. How beautiful this post, and so glad to know you are warm. G’night.

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  6. Nancy Avatar

    Glad to see you have a path and some warmth to see you through the night. Ending 2015 & beginning 2016 with a bang and hush now aren’t we?!! I’m glad you found the butterfly calendar for this new year, I know that one is your favorite. I’ve been thinking of you with the coming of the calendar ritual. Sleep well in the very quiet.

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  7. Deb G Avatar

    Oh that is a lot of snow…yes, one step at a time is all we can do

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    love how the snow is pillowing on the chair!

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  9. grace Avatar

    you know, i wish a day could slip away…what would that
    be like?

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  10. grace Avatar

    the paths extended today…Monday…i call to SUN to help me

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  11. grace Avatar

    pushing it…as many steps as i can manage

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  12. grace Avatar

    i love that you love it…it gave a moment of Pause
    seeing that pillowing, but then
    just going

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  13. Vicky aka "stichr" Avatar

    Here we are again, calendars. Mine for 2016 is a freebie from the bank. Pix of WA sights, but I plan to add pix my granddaughters have given me and re-decorate. I also moved it into the bathroom, were perusal is daily…and often.
    Do goats snuggle up together to keep warm? Like the penguin daddies in the Southern pole?

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