so the Belov~ed Travis came and everything seemed good.  New virus defense was added.  All seemed well and i posted that quick post.   Waking yesterday morning,  all full of anticipation,  only to find a box that said there was no Internet connection.  Whaa.  so adrift again but this morning,  before he went to work,  he came again and here i am.  Here i am.   i like writing that.  Here i am.

It was 5 days.  I let my mind wander,  wander and wander.  In between,  i Followed the Breath.  Inhaling through the opening in the top of my skull,  the breath moving down,  filling my whole body and then being exhaled through the opening in the Heart Space.

Wander, Wander.  Breathe Breathe.  wander more.  Breathe more.   

Drifting.

I began to stitch the  Stand and Face What You Know.  But mostly i drifted.  I looked through all the books and spent some time with these

 

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it was Comforting,  going back to the Dalai Lama's words….i could hear his voice speaking them

i made a pile of books to go to the Library Book Sale and at first put this…

 

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Wendy Jehanara Tremayne and her partner Mikey Sklar moved from a high powered life in NYC to Truth or Consequences, New Mexico in 2006.  This book documents the beginning of their lives there living in a world of salvage.  T or C is a little over an hour from here down I-25.  It's eccentric.  Maybe i should do a field trip there for Julie.  Maybe i could stand at Wendy's gate.  Maybe she would come to her gate.  I am keeping the book for a while yet at least.  her blog is  thegoodlifelab.com

In the 5 days of no connection, two things stand out from the Drift.

One being that without word from "outside",  ie the Google News,  I would NEVER imagine the world to be as it seems to be.  Here,  just Wind.  Sun.  the Sky.  Rhythm of Goats, dog, cat.  Rhythm of Spring  emerging everywhere.  Peace.

 

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and Two,  that i am Full of Gratitude to YOU.  Deep gratitude and love.  This blog is.  This blog connects me in a connectionlessness,  here,  in this very oh so quiet Place.  How it is a Place to tell this and also a Place where there are others who i come to know so well and who open their own lives and Places of Being….What they see,  what they do.   How they Feel.

I have deep love for that.

and then on Facebook…where i go to see what the "kids" are doing…

 

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the grandson's boy, Fate.   Oh i look.  Fate.  How it goes for him in California.

 

 

 

 

 

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26 responses to “i think i’m back??????”

  1. Liz Avatar

    So glad to read all of this … and more than ever appreciative of how you show up here virtually every day.

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  2. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    He looks happy. . .little Fate, Grace. . .coming back to the blog. . .it’s still an important place, yes?

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  3. grace Avatar

    it’s an anchor. it’s a Rock for me. Without it, i would
    just drift and drift. Which is nice sortof but not really.
    I need to Ground myself and the blog Grounds me.
    People who show up Ground me, saying “i know you”. To be
    Known, recogized, is important…to be something other than
    nothing is important. Nothing is ok. but to BE a friend, a sister, a reality, that is so much More….
    Yes? do you think?

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  4. grace Avatar

    if it’s at all Possible….yes. i need to Show Up. Every Day.

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  5. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    friend. sister. nothing Is important. . .but it can go on for too long. . .I appreciate Your Anchor.

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  6. grace Avatar

    i appreciate being Held

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  7. grace Avatar

    RESPONDING to you feels
    GOOD.

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    Hooray!!! doing the happy dance, it’s been an odd unsettlng sort of week here without your posts!

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  9. grace Avatar

    for me too. tho they often aren’t nothing much, they are my life and
    i seem to like to put them here. Somehow, it Matters.

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  10. Patricia Avatar

    Oh Grace. He is beautiful–and looks so happy. Deep sigh of relief.

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  11. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    And so it goes – life with, and without, the internet. For me, since I am not a blogger, there are times when I need to “drift” as you call it; to step back, be somewhat silent. It is a good thing for me. I have and currently am experiencing one of those times now so I am less here, turning inward to do other things…knowing full well that when I come back, there is this elasticity of community that is always here, ready to share, to touch my mind, heart and my curiosity because while we all lead different lives, the threads of connection are ever present.
    Querida grace, in this season of spring, a time of renewal, you share photos of this child, Fate, who’s aura is so special and whose gaze is at once, wise beyond his years and at the same time, joyfully sweet and impish. He is a precious little boy who has touched all of us and that is the gift of being with internet, what you bring to us from your daily life, a rounded and well lived life in all of its experiences. We are all the richer because you put it here in this cyber neighborhood…

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  12. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Cyber neighborhood..yes we are a neighborhood and blessed by the love, caring and encouragement that comes with every post and comment.

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  13. Angie Avatar

    I seldom comment…..but I read, first thing, every day. Just a simple, humble I miss you when you aren’t here. So glad to ‘see’ you back in this place of contentment and peace. Hugs of love.

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  14. saskia Avatar

    yes, to be Known

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  15. saskia Avatar

    wow, Fate, he looks so happy

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  16. Martine Bos Avatar

    Wind. Sun. the Sky. Rhythm of Goats, dog, cat. Rhythm of Spring emerging everywhere. Peace……seems like a very good life to me………. and books ofcourese……..

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  17. julie Avatar

    I feel disconnected without you around. Even if you never take me anywhere anymore….

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  18. grace Avatar

    yes…to be known. to be familiar by what you think and what you do and what you want to Tell….
    someone to say: you are There, i see you. i Watch what you do,
    i am similar to you…I know you

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  19. grace Avatar

    he is. he is Happy and he is Safe. Today, 3/31, he began to
    CRAWL.

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  20. grace Avatar

    Elasticity…this is just the best word for how it needs to be
    Fate…today 3/31 he began to crawl

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  21. grace Avatar

    neighborhood, community, sisterhood
    family
    family, to me

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  22. grace Avatar

    Angie…a simple humble THANK YOU for putting your words here.
    It matters MUCH to me. Thank you…and i receive
    the hugs of love

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  23. grace Avatar

    he’s GROWING and LEARNING and he is
    HAPPY

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  24. grace Avatar

    rhythm of Peace. it is. it is a Fine life with oh so many
    books
    how really Lucky is that?

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  25. grace Avatar

    i know, i know…..
    i might take you to TorC

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    after read all those comments of your blog people i agree with al there words toughts . I’m shure the pic of the little boy Fate heal’s your heart and bring you peace and let stream the love ,

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