i let self do something today, actually, i encouraged self to do it. I pretty much did
nothing.
there were a couple good emails but otherwise, nothing. I had SO much looked forward to being Out Side today…so much i wanted to do but it was gloomy. overcast. socked in. fine rain, drizzle. Cold. no Sun. no Sun. no Sun. The kind of day you might take advantage of, like cleaning that you don't normally do, or, looking for something that's been lost until you find it. But i didn't. I wouldn't even let self read. Did not want to distract from the Nothing. Would just FEEL it. So i lit a fire and wandered around looking at random stuff on shelves, inside boxes, in envelopes. Looked out all the windows.
let self wonder for maybe two seconds why i haven't finished this, but then turned away
this is the top of 3 drawers in the kitchen. Most people would have it be the silverware drawer. and well, at the bottom of this drawer IS a silverware thingy, to keep everything in its place…i just needed the can opener for the Refried Beans. it was right on top.
this is where i keep the silverware. on the counter.
So…this was it. I did note, for sure, how Onday is the Weather Sentinal for the Doe Goats. All day she stood in their little cut out doorway of the Albatros. She watched. When there would be even a small break in the drizzle, she would leap out and all would follow….through the corridor into the Way Back, they would mill until the drops fell on them again and back they'd go. Again, she stood watch. Over and over. Onday. I love Onday.
so
it didn't feel bad. and it didn't feel good. It felt like nothing. and i'm thinking that that's how a lot of people feel about their days. So they turn on the TV.
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