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Still in the thoughts of yesterday,  stitching a stalk of wild Sun Flowers,  i tried to remember what i  "believed" in back in that time when i wandered away.  Was it different?  if so,  how?  

i'm not sure yet.  will let it take its time,  will let some dreaming take place to tell me,  but what i came up with is that it's all pretty much the same.  Except  Then, there was an incredible Optimism tho,  that has softened and frayed at the edges.  and i wondered why and what it seems to be is that back then,  everything was MY story.  I was the central character.  And over time i have found myself not in the center at all and maybe have come to a place where i am what i talked about to the kids when they were here….No more No less than Everything.  Maybe that's the difference,  that i have found self to be part of the Story of All of IT.   And if this turns out to be true,  there is a great softness to this,  and really a great freedom tho not without a great responsibility too.  And maybe this is what makes this time feel Right.

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  1. Maz Avatar
    Maz

    lovely thoughts. i am trying to come into a place where i am not the central character in life too. rather, an awareness of self within everything else, but an equally large if not larger awareness of everything else, and the drifting along with that.
    Where do you think the greater awareness should be? in the Self or the Everything Else?

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    Wonderful sunflowers on a wonderful stalk…and this thought process…expanding from the center and part of all of it, made of all of everything….I’ll have to let that settle in me since, despite awareness of everyone and everything, I still feel like the center of what I see. I remain aware of the observer in me. That’s why meditation is often hard–hard to detach, to let it all drop away till nothing interferes with just being and even being forgets itself. I will let your thoughts roam freely and see what happens.

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  3. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    LOVE the sunflowers…..standing proud and tall

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  4. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    a beautiful gateway to The Dreaming

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  5. saskia Avatar
    saskia

    have been very much at peace with self since our holiday, a shift in attitude to everything, a lightheartedness I did not before possess, a relaxed kind of focus on the boys rather than on self, (I chuckle and say to self: growing older has it’s benefits, dearie)
    is this similar to what you are experiencing you think?

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  6. Nancy Krampf Avatar
    Nancy Krampf

    Love,Love,Love 🙂

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  7. grace Avatar
    grace

    Hello, Maz. I love questions and i love being able to
    wonder about a question WITH someone…how that Feels….
    to wonder together….So, thank you for this, so much…
    and what i’m experiencing now, in this Present time is
    a deeper sense, FINALLY, of the understanding of
    dependent co ~arising….interdependent co~arising and
    i am so Excited to be finally “getting this”, to the degree
    at least it seems i am…
    but
    there cannot be one without the other, yes? Self/Everything else….it occurs with Co~arising….
    Am deeply swimming in Joanna Macy…her book and the many
    UTubes.
    Thank You for coming here, i’ll watch for your return

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  8. grace Avatar
    grace

    Michelle…i just listened to a UTube…J Macy and in her
    time of meditation with the group she asked them to notice
    that nothing was waying, ok, i will breathe now, that the
    breathing simply occurred. She asked them to think how the breathing occurred in those next to them, in those in the
    area, the county, the state, the country, the animals,
    the birds, plant people, Trees, how the breathing
    occurred
    because the Earth is Breathing Us.
    The Earth is Breathing Us.
    The Earth
    is Breathing Us. All of Us. Every Thing.

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  9. grace Avatar
    grace

    and that they Volunteer. Seed themselves. Year after year.

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  10. grace Avatar
    grace

    it’s becoming important…this gate in the lower left of
    the Cloth

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  11. grace Avatar
    grace

    i think any time we are finding ourselves freed of
    grasping of any kind, soft grasping or other, the sense
    of exhale and flow rewards us
    i wonder what it was about the holiday that allows this???

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    and to you, Nancy, to you, in your Canyon

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  13. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    There are more moments where I think differently lately, a letting go. Hard to explain.

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    the world is in such flux and i think many of us are
    finding ourselves experiencing this and yes…hard
    to explain, even to ourselves

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