here's more of the Knob

 

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i don't know what this might mean?  looks like it was somehow Cut?   Louie would not be beyond thievery for a cause.  I see him in town now and then.  I'll ask him.  Maybe there's more to the story.

 

I am impatient with the tree.  Trees are slow going.   But i really NEED to finish the Gate and the tree is an integral part of that.  The rest of the Cloth,  i can move around,  but i NEED to begin here.  So i spent time With the tree today,  looking closely.  Right now it has all those seed pods that somehow just disappear over the winter.  The pods of the Locust remain scattered about,   but these…disappear??????

 

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all these might seem repetative,   excessive,  but they are what i'll take with me when i go.

After i took these pics,  i preformed the ritual of the evening feed and as i walked from place to place there was a feeling that's been coming on,  but was so much here this eve.  I don't know what it is.  It's very quiet.  It's not sadness.  or grief.  or at least a kind of grief that i've known before.  All i can tell about it at this point is that it's a Quietness.  I've never felt it before.  Am wondering if it's a kind of Love….that feels closest….

 

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19 responses to “a feeling”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    I’m struck by the images of the door knob, represneting obviously and symbolically an entering and a leave taking. This deep quietness that you are feeling, this closest love, yes, I think it is so. It is so because in walking your land now, in noticing deeply what is here, in transferring what your eyes and heart see to your fingers in order to stich your truth to your diary cloth, you are feeling perhaps twenty years of love, devotion, sweat, toil, caring, attention, all of this as a way of coming to know what has formed this place you have called home, what has formed your view of the world and your place in it; this is the down to the bone kind of feeling, the deepest kind of raw love.

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    What the heck? Where’s the blue knob…you have photos of it whole earlier recently….did you find it whole and now it’s partially disappeared???? Has Louis returned to your place? Did I miss that earlier when you talked about it being from him??? I thought he was past. I’ll look back for answers…..meanwhile, your quietness. Is it then that raw love Marti speaks of? how imminent is your leaving?

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Yes—just one post back and the blue doorknob is found in the outback. Hmmmmm. hope you get it back so you can take it to the new place.

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  4. Cindy from Georgia Avatar
    Cindy from Georgia

    Grace, here we go again. There’s a doorknob preeminently in my life right now, also. Yours, and mine – love, Cindy

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  5. Mo Crow Avatar

    beautiful sinuous lines

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  6. Liz A Avatar

    I agree … the wood is a marvel

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  7. jude Avatar

    i love that I can see you in there.

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  8. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Welcome back Marti…missed you! Grace yes LOVE…spot on!!

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  9. grace Avatar

    this is so funny…i can imagine you sitting there in your
    Place with all these wonders…
    to put them to rest, the knob has always been like this
    from the back. and no, Louie is not around, i just see
    him sometimes at the Grocery Store parking lot with his
    mother’s little dog Curly while his mother is shopping.
    Everything is ok.
    and then, no. it’s not at all a raw love. i have no idea,
    the timetable of stuff. My guess is Spring? But who knows.

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  10. grace Avatar

    o Cindy..this is great when it happens, isn’t it…
    Love to Georgia

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  11. grace Avatar

    They are really beauty FULL trees

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  12. grace Avatar

    no…it’s not at all raw. or to the bone. it’s very soft.

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  13. grace Avatar

    i guess we are kind of in everything

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  14. grace Avatar

    yes. Love is a very varied thing

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  15. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Then I am glad for you that it is a very soft love; one that will carry you forward. For me, leaving our home of 18 yrs in CA and beginning our vagabond lifestyle, was more emotional than I had expected. We had nurtured every inch of our half acre land planted with living trees from eighteen years of our Solstice/Christmas celebrations in this home, planted with citrus trees, the flower gardens, the composted dirt that yielded such great harvests; it was a raw time and certainly to the bone experience of leaving what we loved but in the end, we carried that love to other places and left a bit of ourselves in each and every home but I never forgot that first leave taking…

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  16. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Oh…I get it…confusion cleared. Ha!…Spring maybe…oh good…time. Big hug.

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  17. Nancy Avatar

    I bet this doorknob feels so good! Smooth, cool lovely to look at and caress. I don’t know why, but the history piece of how you came to have it, who he was ~ that it could have been sawed right off of its first home…so intriguing. This quiet seems to be a good time to absorb and process.
    PS What kind of tree is this? The pods look like ones at work on the Carob trees.
    xoNancy

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  18. grace Avatar

    they are Desert Willow, native to the SW
    all summer they have those blooms that look like small orchids

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  19. saskia Avatar

    have maybe commented on this before, if so this will be a déja vu, I have always associated willows with our wetlands, as moisture loving trees and here are desert willows, presumeably well adated to lack of moisture, and yet they look so alike, ha! love these willows, so much a part of our wet as well as your dry landscape

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