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how can i DO this?????????????????????????????????????????????

Peggy commented on yesterdays's post that she was glad to see my Humor back.  and i thought YES!

YES!  How can i put that here?  The humor?  The Love?  The Appreciation?  How can i put it all here?

I wake every morning to go look at the kitchensgarden.com    A blog by Cecilia Mary Gunther that Nanette in Australia pointed me to.  Celi blogs everyday from her farm in the Midwest of America.  I think in Illinois.  She is originally from New Zealand.  I don't know her history,  really,  never read back that far.  She is committed to a sustainable farm there in the wastelands of America's midwest.  Pics of it…a green oasis amidst industrial devastation.  Every day,  she just shows us what happened.  Sometimes it's so so elegant and tender,  sometimes it's mud and grief.  Farming.  in her case,  REAL farming.  The post this morning:…her husband saw the pics she was putting on and she said was "appalled".  NO! he said…you aren't going to show them That?   But she did.  she went forward with the Dreary.  She is a heartfelt woman farmer,  a great writer and photographer,  her Heart is HUGE

and she showed us dreary

so how do we GO?  this is my question to my self.  How can i GO?    

Humor and love and beauty come through everyday in small small ways and it's hard to make them make sense here even tho they ARE existing…and really…really….there is so MUCH that just caves me in…what's stewing in the scene with the new regime readying to take over in January…there is NOTHING humorous about that.  But i don't need to detail it here.  Everyone is able to find their own details.  Pretty much what i'm looking at is Google News and Democracy Now and i know that there is word that Giraffes will be extinct in 2020.  you don't have to go far.

so HOW DO WE LIVE ?   How do we preserve humor,  love,  beauty?  and still FACE IT?

yesterday i was looking at that Vastness.  The Vastness that all rises out of and dissolves back into.

it IS the Truth.

but in this day to day and these days,  i will fall back into what i know and love to Hold me here.

 

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this was just months ago…when it was FECUND

 

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this morning i am aching.  I can "know" it…the luminous,  the spaciousness more Vast.  But i'm not there…in this life time.  I am here.  with Goats, Lizards, Crows, Dog , Cat, Crow.  This is where i am in this lifetime and so ok.  How do i do that WELL?,  then?

 

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24 responses to “how can i DO this?????????????????????????????????????????????”

  1. Irene Avatar
    Irene

    “Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” –Arthur Ashe
    You have magically transformed this cloth…love the lizard.

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    I think the most difficult thing is to keep perspective on the terrible, horrible news of extinctions, fascist leaders, greedy horror mongers…..oh just etc. etc. etc. But it’s not impossible. Once you’ve known beauty, compassion, love and honor, it’s never not available. Meanwhile just so you know, I’m grateful to visit you here every day or night. you are one of my touchstones. Thank you Grace.

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    ah the shimmer of magic in the Black and White at the edge of the crack!

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  4. grace Avatar
    grace

    lizards…i was OutSide today…readying the new yard that will
    be home for Gideon the Old. Pulling stalks of the Kochia from this last summer. I went. on my knees. pulling, breaking off. Thinking how it’s ok and good now…they are sleeping, the
    Lizards

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  5. grace Avatar
    grace

    Michelle… IS THERE PERSPECTIVE?
    and it is TRUE. once you have known these things…they are AlWays available. Always available. Always available.
    I am gratefull for you. that we go back and forth. Back and Forth.

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  6. grace Avatar
    grace

    it’s Fine, isn’t it, that black/white

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  7. dee Avatar
    dee

    Hi Grace. been without perspective or humor or my touchstones — like visiting here and a few key other blogs. so just to say, hello and glad to hear that you are asking so many ripe and moving questions, waving and poking and opening questions. And, is that hand for sale. It speaks to me.

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  8. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    I have no idea how you do it…. but please don’t stop. You and the comments you inspire feed me everyday and help me grow. ❤

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  9. Dana Avatar
    Dana

    I, too, have been without humor or perspective or my computer lately. I, too, am glad you are here.

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  10. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    I think we have to actively seek the beautiful, joyous things in life. Otherwise all the things that cause despair overwhelm, they are too easy to find in our world. We need to make space to play. Have you listened to this interview yet, with Alice Parker?
    http://www.onbeing.org/program/alice-parker-singing-is-the-most-companionable-of-arts/9080

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  11. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Perspective – diminished. Resolve – floundering at the moment as each nomination from this administration is revealed; as this President-elect thinks he has been given a part time gig, part running the country, part producing his reality show but maybe he thinks they are one and the same.
    I’ve always been able to dig deep and pull out my daily sacred ordinaries to sustain me but lately, the digging is so much harder and the tilt to the unforeseen is laced with worry for the direction of this country. Still I know that within each of us, in our body, heart, soul cells, in our marrow and sinews is a resolve to rise up, do our part, no matter how small we think it will be. To try to get the balance back, it’s just that right now, as each day passes, the off-kilter tilt looms large SO thanks for asking the question grace because it helps to bring determination up from the depths…

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  12. Kristin Avatar
    Kristin

    It is your writing and that of a few other on-line friends that gives me peace..staying away from so much of the negative words and works to keep my ship aright. As the anti-immigrant rhetoric gets louder and more pervasive, my process has been to become a language tutor to immigrants, mostly refugees, here in this very right-anti-immigrant state. The warm cell filling energy that comes from those meetings with children, women and now two men keeps that light of hope alive and glowing within me. Each day there is at least one small time commitment and it has enriched me to a place of moving my sadness to the shelf and increasing my energies and desires to spend time in the studio making cloth and thread works. My poetry is much more filled with words of hope and beauty…yes, being in a place of walking with positive, helpful energy each day has pulled me up to a place to heal and grow.
    What is becoming truth of the after election world still is present in small sound bites; I write to the editor, work with groups supporting peace and justice and find my strength and joy in working with immigrant folks and reading the blogs of my friends like you dear Grace.

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    i can’t help but ask the questions, wave into the horizon…
    don’t know what else to do.
    the hand…yes. i’ll email you. Cloth translates directly
    into Goat feed.

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    Tina…we keep alive by communicating, it’s a Life line

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    thank you Dana…you know how i don’t know,

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    no…not yet.
    play…i am never sure of that word or what it means

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    it’s hard now. What used to work no longer will. and yes,
    the resolve is there….and it needs to remain. But the
    outcome may change things. and how do we work with that.

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    this is BeautyFULL, Kristin….language tutor, o, so so much
    Yes. I called our library after reading this to see what’s
    happening here with ESL and got a message machine

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  19. ² Avatar
    ²

    we will work with it ,moment by moment ,with no judgement in a flexible way cover with who we are and who/wath we connected
    with . asking the questions help me to look /watch over the limits to
    thank you all

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  20. Nina Avatar
    Nina

    Yes to everything that has been mentioned here. I don’t know how to deal with the news of the way this country is pointing, all I know is that I need to stay positive and notlisten to too much news. I had a real, bonafide nightmare very early this morning, and I think it was a result of too much thinking about the new regime. I need to stay in touch with friends, both online and in person, and get more fiber work done and spend more time with the goats.

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  21. Dakotah Avatar
    Dakotah

    Does it follow that if there is rigidity in one thing there will be rigidity in all things, at some form or level? Do we choose what we want to see, how we want to see? And how do our choices affect our reality?
    What a beautiful cloth you have created, when at first maybe you didn’t know where it was going. A beautiful healed rift.

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  22. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes….work with it…it’s going to be ongoing….

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  23. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes…it’s real work trying to understand how to respond.
    a lot of it, will just go as it goes but as far as
    Earth issues, destructiveness, i cannot back away from
    those. Just can’t. so i will learn how to stand and
    face these things, all the while keeping Joy everywhere
    i can see it. Neither is exclusive of the other.

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  24. grace Avatar
    grace

    i never know what a Cloth is going to do…just feel a place
    to begin and then as it goes, it becomes.
    i’m not sure what you are thinking, but i don’t think
    anything, and this is about rigidity, anything is across the
    board…i think when there is rigidity, there will also
    be a simultaneous loosening elsewhere…????
    and re the destruction of the planet…truth is just there.
    and i DON”T want to see it but it’s unavoidable. things are
    melting, dying, quaking, changing radically.
    and i know, all the things about creating our own reality…
    sigh, so if i am wrong, then oh, to celebrate that. But
    if it’s true, there would be no turning back. and i need
    to be able to face the Children and be able to say that i
    at least cared.

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