following kindergarten instructions from Jude….DID I?????????????????????
This is in the city of Chico….maybe 20 min away from the Hill. 3,670 acres.
the first part: Vision is short..just be patient till you get to Inspiration., or, that's somewhere around 3
Addendum. I found this one on Utube early this morning and watched and watched and watched and wanted to put it here, to mark the day i understood where i am going. Before now, even tho they have lived there for a few years, i never looked. Didn't want to. It was their lives, their world. But this morning i looked.
I have been doing Morning Pages trying to sort through so much. This morning again, it is about "Time". What is it, Time? Time equals Life. Time is being Alive. Everyday. Waking, Doing, then falling asleep and going somewhere else, then waking again. This is how it is. Living. Every day. 24 hours. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Spending Time, Living. Being Alive.
I think how when i Go, i can't come back.
But really, i "can't come back" already, and i'm still here, i'm not even gone, but i am. Because it's time.
this is what i see. it's Time.
I watched the video many times and felt so like i was betraying what this Place is, what i tried to do here, what the land tried to do back in response. This land is its own self, what it has always been, what it knows how to be. But it Gave. and Gave and Gives.
The love for this is close to unbearable.
PART 2 OR 3? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3M2j5SIPC6U&t=50s link
so there is lots of email exchange about what can happen and still, i hold out for the pallet home.
looking, turning, changing, looking and wondering WHY am i wanting to do this, but i am and so…………
I brought in wood for three days. Today, Tshirt, birkenstocks with no socks. Tomorrow and Monday WIND ADVISORY, rain, snow. Ok.


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