I don't know what it looks like on your screen,  but i get responses to the posts here in my Email box.  Does this happen for everyone?  I don't know.  But this morning….there was a comment that just filled me with Joy and Amazement

Back in December i posted  words that granddaughter Alyssia sent me…that were on some mail or facebook thread from Elephant Journal…a writer….Cairo McFarlane.  Her words touched deeply into something that she and i "knew" about how it is between us.

Today,  Cairo McFarlane……!!!!!…..commented on that 12/2/2016  Post … a day away from all the rest

she said she had inadvertantly found this post and wanted to say that she is Not associated with Elephant Journal and that she CAN be found on Facebook  Cairo McFarlane,  Twitter @CairoMcF and Instagram@songbirdsingsoftly.  

And the Beauty of it All to me is how truly we are Connected in far reaching ways that we can't imagine, really,  that we float "out there"  landing like butterflies out of the blue.

So i will repost her words.  And again…i don't know how to adjust the form of this page in a format of a poem,  so will put them here,  as i Hear Her speak them,  as if to me,  as if to Alyssia and maybe even as if to You:

"However,

If you are broken    i cannot fix you.  I can hold your pieces within my bones and atriums   Until you learn to piece yourself whole again.

One by one,  I will hand them to you.  And I will love you wholely    And I will love you without judgement.    

And i will love you sans peur

And i will love you.

Remembering is imperative.  Remembering you are loved….In all your brokenness,  you are loved.  May you never even once forget.

Broken or Not    you are loved. "

Cairo McFarlane

Facebook  Cairo McFarlane    Twitter @CairoMcF  and Instagram@songbirdsingsoftly

 

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the love affair with the tea continues.

and the exchanges are ongoing and gaining momentum and i cannot help but be preoccupied.  So…you will be hearing this.  As it goes.  This is what it is so far,  and Subject to Change.

Because of the Way from here to California,  the Goats will need to go sometime in April because of the HEAT.    I will go mid July give or take.  Emry (subject to change) will be born end of July, first of August.  

Daughter Jenny and her man will build my Place  first as a learning experience.  It will be basically the same blueprint  as their Place but smaller.  When i can fully imagine it,  i'll draw a picture.  It will be SMALL.  One room and somewhere a tiny space for a shower and toilet,  a tiny sink and 2 burner stove.   Tiny refrigerator.  Like in a travel trailer, Julie.  

it will have a slanted roof and so a loft space which i imagine to be where the baskets of cloth will live.  The sewing stuff.  The art loft.   There would be no room for the baskets in the ROOM,  which will be in the full sense of the word,  the LivingRoom.

So what do i do with all the rest of my STUFF?  Thinking.  

the rest of my stuff means,  i guess,  my books.  and my cooking stuff,  like my beloved pyrex casserole collection,  the cast iron pans,  the stainless steel pots for cheese making.   There can be a small or LARGE,  really,  but i want SMALL storage shed for the stuff.  Separate.  Shelves.  I think of those plastic storage containers that are flat.  like what you might store blankets in, ordinarily.  They can stack.   So,  them.  books can go in them.  The paper stuff that i can't part with.  The Beauty Full things that i also can't part with that can come and go in the LivingRoom on an alternate basis??????  Like, Visit?  Then go back?????

Alyssia's Place,  she says,  has LOTS of cupboard space so….the cooking stuff can go with her stuff there.  Any Big Cooking Event can happen at her house and that will be a Good Thing.  She likes that.

so…

this for the moment.  It's going to change rapidly.

 

 

 

 

 

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21 responses to “a Beauty FULL, validating Surprise”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    riding the winds of change

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  2. Deb Avatar

    If there is anyway to let your new space be a little big bigger than too small please do it. My heart felt squeezed reading about it. Things, beloved things, matter.

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  3. grace Avatar

    riding the Wind Horse

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  4. grace Avatar

    i’ve done this before.
    i left a two story frame home in Michigan, a basement. I left in a Ford Econoline van. Took what i thought was basic…books again, cloth again, sewing machine, art stuff. In an econoline van.
    the squeeze gets less.
    Beloved things live in the Heart.

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  5. grace Avatar

    Alyssia, a pack rat, says BRING EVERYTHING, Gramz. We can have a UHaul the size of a Semi. She says bring it all and sort it out when i am there.
    I love her for this, but i also don’t want to do it.
    it’s Time. and it’s GOOD. SMALL. SMALL is where it’s at.

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  6. handstories Avatar

    Her words, how lives of children (& adults) might be different if we were all told and believed such beautiful strong words…
    (& the pyrex has a place to go, this makes me very happy, sister-pyrex-lover.)

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  7. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    “Beloved things live in the heart.” Loved lives in the heart too.
    I felt my pulse quicken at the thought that this is scheduled to happen really!

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  8. julie Avatar

    What happens to the house and property in Polvadera?

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  9. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    All your most favorite baskets can hang from hooks …
    Everything about this post expressed gentleness!

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  10. dee Avatar

    I hope you will be able to bring your palette of cloth and thread. Some of those pots and pans sound pretty precious and essential to me, too. I don’t envy the sorting

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  11. debbie.weaver Avatar

    Your plans sound good, big cooking and small cooking, clearing out, living simpler is good as you get older, as is living near family.
    Love the poem, missed it the first time somehow, the words resonate with some of my relationships with others.
    My studio has a sloping roof but with straight across beams so you get a triangle shape. I store baskets on these and get them down with a velux window opener. I have windows in my roof for extra light.

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  12. LInda Avatar

    I have done that move too.. long ago. We talked about it once
    It is only stuff.
    You will be with your kids. I am SO happy for you.

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  13. grace Avatar

    pyrex sisters…of course, i think. Pyrex Rules.
    and yes. these things must be spoken in ways to speak them, over and over and over. There is nothing more important

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  14. grace Avatar

    yep. it’s a Really. I called the Departments of Agriculture
    today to get the skinny on what i need to transport Goats through Arizona and into California.

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  15. grace Avatar

    don’t worrry

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  16. grace Avatar

    the home will be SMALL. Like, really SMALL and baskets hanging from hooks would be claustrophobic. I’m thinking about that Loft.
    Jenny and Alyssia know me so well…they will be sensitive

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  17. grace Avatar

    all the basket stuff will come. In the bedroom here are shelves with scavenged clothing from Thrift Shop. This might very well
    NOT come…go back from whence it came. But the basket stuff,
    for sure. The thread, for sure.
    Oh, the pots and pans. eeeeeeeeeee.
    the cast iron, for sure.
    the stainless steel, for the cheesemaking, for sure.
    but then, there’s all the canning stuff out in the Albatross, the jars, the giant pressure cooker, etc. ???????????????
    i looked in the junk drawer today…what a MESS. the nut crackers…two…and picks, all the strange silverware pieces that are so interesting….they’ll need to go…..go as to the Thrift Shop.
    odd plates. more eeee

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  18. grace Avatar

    yes!…like that!….the beams, the triangle! Like that!!!!
    so…yes…you can imagine this with me!
    Big Cooking and Small cooking. This will work. The Big Cooking is like vats of Spagetti Sauce that i tend to make and then have soo much, too much and end up eating it for a week and freezing.
    There i can cook for the hoardes. They’ll eat it. and i can
    satiate self. I can enlist the two kids with the chopping and mincing, like i did when Alyssia and her brother Jeff were little. They were great sous chefs.
    The cooking will be Good.

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  19. grace Avatar

    we did. …. talk about it once. we did.
    and be with your kids…..
    i need to clarify that too. that’s next.

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  20. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Less is more. Our little town had a Tiny House Expo and they were wonderful! I am so happy for you and Travis, such a new adventure for all!!

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  21. grace Avatar

    the tiny houses…like it once was…shelter
    it’s beauty FULL, really
    we GO. we Go, just Goig

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