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Deb G   http://beecreative.typepad.com… is looking at fear,  and some days ago,  on 2/5 she included this in a post:

"Flare up like a flame and make big shadows I can move in.  Let everything happen to you,  beauty and terror.  Just keep going,  no feeling is final…Nearby is the country they call life.  You will know it by its seriousness.  Give me your hand."

Rilke….Book of Hours

These words have remained present in me since i read them there on the 5th.  I've thought.  I've thought about how i don't think i have ever held the sense of terror.  Fear, yes.  but terror…?, no and what is the difference between fear and terror and then fear and the kind of What Ifing that i am prone to.  ?  Fear is a solid thing?  What Ifing is uhhh,  translucent?  What Ifing some kind of filter that is an overlay?  

Working with this while loving the quote so much…I am heading into the country they call life.

 

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and tho the As Is from yesterday is SO enough,  i need to try to work small now.  Small.  i think.  Maybe.  

 

 

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13 responses to “touching threads”

  1. Crites-Moore Morna Avatar
    Crites-Moore Morna

    Small is sweet. I like it. xo

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  2. Morna Crites-Moore Avatar
    Morna Crites-Moore

    Oops! I wrote my name backwards … thanks to autofill. 🙂

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  3. ali Avatar
    ali

    Going from the big to the small – the shifting helps put the fear in its place, we need to be able to live in both

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  4. cynthia Avatar
    cynthia

    the simple fact of continuing to work…to not be frozen..
    gentle day grace

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  5. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    I would say I have experienced terror once in my life, if we define it as intense fear. It could be a difference in degree. It was so fleeting and probably only known to me because I was so numb afterwards. For days, maybe months. Might be the reason that poem is so important to me. It’s not good to be in the place of numbness, not much happens there.

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  6. dee Avatar
    dee

    sometimes I like to think of fear (or anger, sadness) as currents, like electricity. they move through. it would be crazy to judge electricity. so why these other currents? but I do. and that blocks flow.

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  7. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    I was plagued by imaginary fears for years (have a very well developed & vivid imagination) to the point of paranoia, then I got throat cancer in 2004, the 5 hour surgery & subsequent months of daily radiation treatments burned the fears out of my psyche, nothing much scares me these days except worying about what this world wide corporate coup is up to… & that’s unfortunately way to real not paranoia

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  8. grace Avatar
    grace

    Thank you, Morna

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  9. grace Avatar
    grace

    we do. We need to have the skills to live in all places. There is such Beauty in developing these skills, such Joy

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  10. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes…i need this…continuing…it is what is REAL
    the paralysis is not real

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  11. grace Avatar
    grace

    a difference in degree…yes….degree.
    Numbness. perfect word….devoid.
    closest to terror was when the person i was living with had
    a
    GUN
    shot a whole through the wall with it
    but still…in that moment, there was no terror, just this
    thing in me of Standing.
    without the Standing there would have been numb.

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    this is a very excellent metaphor…electricity…energy….

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    so then those 5 hours and subsequent months were an enormous
    GIFT to this rest of your life. I have known that about you for some time now and think of it often in my ongoing Knowing of you

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