yesterday Alyssia had an ultrasound.  regularly scheduled.  her mother,  my daughter, Jenny,  went with her.  Not knowing what they would see.

Alyssia's OB did it,  because it is the 5 month one.   not the tech.  Jenny said the ob is not uhhhh, well, userfriendly.  just matter of fact.  which,  in this case was exactly what was needed.

He looked and looked,  moving around,  trying to get Emrie to move around.  He looked long and Care fully.  Many times.  They watched.

what he saw,  what they saw,  was a

NORMAL

20 week fetus.

a Normal skull  filled with Normal brain matter all in it's Normal quadrants.

Normal facial constructs.  a nose.  Eyes normally spaced.  a mouth and lips.  no cleft palate.  NORMAL.   

a nice chin.

Kidneys,  Normal and functioning

Heart,  Normal and functioning,  all aortas and ventricles

Normal placenta.

hands…Normal,  not fingers clenched,  but at one point,  grasping her ankle that was at the end of a normal shin,  and there was a Normal heel.  At another point,  grasping the umbilical,  where she pulled herself and seemed to be chewing on it.

she was Busy.  He said if she would just stop the "scissor kicking"…and when she did,  Normal labia.

Normal.

Normal.

Everything Normal.

There is the amniocentesis next week.  they say is definitive.  ok.  ok.  but i think,  what about all this Normal?  but there is the blood tests that were Not Normal.  ok.  ok and ok.  next week.

But she has a FACE.  i so much wanted her to have a face.  She has a face.  a nice chin.

and so we go.

 

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stitched together.  One cloth.  Some white Inktense.  And do you see the as yet unborn Magician?…just in around 5 oclock?  began the magic thread beads [ Jude Hill~Spirit Cloth],  the 7 beads…6 black/white the 7th the red blood bead.  Will go all around,  North to East,  the East

probably remaining Open….to  allow Spirit to come and go.

 

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how Threads move…..the Lilac here forms blooms.  That same dusky purple as Emrie's firefly Cloth and talking to Jenny,  she gives me a mission to find what kind of native small trees or bushes might be planted on the Hill in spaces that are cleared of brush to discourage the poison oak there.  She says "like maybe lilacs",  and we remember the old ancient Lilac forest down at the edge of our world in her childhood home in Michigan.  Maybe like lilacs,  she says.  

 

 

 

 

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35 responses to “here we are. where?, we don’t know. but we are here.”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Spirit dancing in this girl child and we hold to blessings…

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  2. Nanette Avatar

    Oh, breathing out, relief. My daughter had blood tests which showed her 30 + weeks twins both had Downs Syndrome. She refused amnio, and more scans, saying what would be was done. She had two fine beautiful healthy girls at 42 weeks at home, who are now beautiful, fine, healthy 16 year olds. Who knows why tests show on thing, physical evidence another? Love and blessings.

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  3. grace Avatar

    Nanette…………….

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  4. Linda Avatar

    sigh of relief… will keep fingers crossed though.
    she sounds wonderful..

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  5. Dakotah Avatar

    Really wonderful news. I had been thinking about your posts, remembering what a natural health doc I follow says, how most if not all testing is completely bogus, mainly designed to make money, along with other agendas behind it, how amino is invasive and dangerous. I have to say the whole time I felt she would be just fine and now “normal!” Feeling happy and relieved for you all…

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  6. jude Avatar

    It might go so many ways, best not to worry. breathe life into the dream.

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  7. cynthia Avatar
    cynthia

    happiness between our mountains..meadow and Emmi were here..and she knew the moment she walked in..such a lightness of being has entered here
    gentle day and love from all of us

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  8. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    May all be well with you and your beloveds no matter what comes. The beautiful possibility is alive and real. Pema says “You are the sky. Everything else – it’s just the weather.”

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  9. ali Avatar
    ali

    Stitching joy and trust into this cloth Grace, love the unborn Magician, coming into being along with Emrie

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  10. Deb Avatar

    All this normal I think a vessel for a powerful spirit infused with the love, hopes and prayers of her family, blood and beyond. Grace. Grace.

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  11. Hazel Avatar

    Sometimes normal is the most beautiful word. Janie had a lilac bush in her front yard. Every spring we would use the flowers to decorate the sugar cookies the fairies would leave for our class.

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  12. Mo Crow Avatar

    such a beautiful cloth

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  13. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Possibilities and prayers…
    Researching native flora and fauna, lovely spring occupation!

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  14. saskia Avatar

    after a break-away in Copenhagen, off-line, to visit here first & reading your news….sad & upsetting, yet this post seems more hopeful, promising…..
    we wait with you

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  15. beth Avatar

    Yes, we wait with you. A loving circle.

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  16. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    The power of prayer in whatever form … a circle of love from near and far … such wonderful news Grace … the prayers will keep coming! Please tell me again the name of the meditation you have mentioned now a few times … I thought I save the link from Michelle but now cannot find it. Thanks!

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  17. dee Avatar

    may the good news hold! I see the lilac as emrie’s bush… those little purple buds resembling parts of her in the womb, so ripe with promise.

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  18. Martine Bos Avatar

    Normally i’m not very fond of normal….but in this case, i think normal is good………..

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  19. grace Avatar

    i hope we dance…

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  20. grace Avatar

    until the amniocentesis

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  21. grace Avatar

    Allopathic medicine is not my friend either. and the amniocentesis…yes it is….both, but i stand quietly here,
    not knowing what it must be like for Alyssia…with that
    diagnosis of most like Lupus, her body and all it’s contradictions and mysteries. to be 28 years old.
    If the blood tests were correct, there is a reason.

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  22. grace Avatar

    i am surprised at how little actual worry there is. The hardest time is waking in the morning….to those first awarenesses of
    what is taking place…..and yes. Breathe life into the dream.
    That’s Beauty Full….breathe life into the dream…beautyFull
    image

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  23. grace Avatar

    BeautyFull Meadow and Emmi, you…your mountain…the
    lightness…..

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  24. grace Avatar

    Pema. I spent time with her today…UTube

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  25. grace Avatar

    yes….i do to…the unborn Magician

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  26. grace Avatar

    may we all be the Vessel to receive

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  27. grace Avatar

    Wouldn’t you know???? Janie/lilac bush???? of Course!

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  28. grace Avatar

    Thank you, Mo

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  29. grace Avatar

    it’s good, the research, takes me into what will come

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  30. grace Avatar

    i will look forward to you telling about that trip
    at the Bird Hut!

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  31. grace Avatar

    there are two meditations….
    Metta, Loving Kindness
    and Tonglen, giving and taking
    if you Utube Pema Chodren and then either or both of these
    she has clear words about them….
    also, when i watched her Utube on Tonglen, there followed
    one that i liked very much
    Tonglen Guided Meditation by Tulku Tsori Rinpoche….i
    actually like this this most…..
    long ago i read a lot from Larry Dossey about the power of
    long distance prayer. and prayer is what…prayer is such
    earnest love, no matter what form, yes….

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  32. grace Avatar

    when the Native Lilac we plant there on the Hill grow and she
    is little, we can tell her about this time

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  33. grace Avatar

    neither am i. For years, my motto was Why Be Normal?
    but this time….to have a face and moving limbs….it’s
    enough, this normal.

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  34. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    You will because just now, went outside and looked at our 3 Lilac plants and they are all filled with blooms ready to dance into spring- Emrie’s blooms…and by the way, there are many ways to dance.

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  35. grace Avatar

    i like being told that…to think…there many ways to dance…
    it’s true, isn’t it.
    i remember when Alyssia was little, and Jenny before her,
    the Dress UP box. Filled with scarves of all kinds, old
    silk nighties and slips, dressing up and spinning… to all
    my loud music…appalachian dulcimer, harpsicord, Rolling Stones
    just learning how to walk down a Hill without falling is dancing
    too
    and yes. Lilacs. For sure, Lilacs. Jenny went to the nearby Organic Nursery and the young man there told her his grandpa had a whole forest of Lilacs. it’s a done deal.

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